The After The Rain
Feelings

Arriving home, Kinasa actually lost the opportunity to scout Papa because the man turned out to have slept on the living room sofa—or in fact, he had, Papa just pretended to sleep because Kinara could faintly see Papa's eyelids moving.

"Father wait for you from earlier," Mama appeared from behind the door.

"Why not pick up? It's usually a lot of noise if Nara hasn't come home as it's approaching curfew?" Kinara while kissing Mama's hand, then glanced at Papa again, who had now changed position from initially supine to tilted to the left.

Mama just sniffed her shoulders, apparently did not understand the attitude of her own husband. Then, Mama pulled out Kinara's arm, leading her daughter to go into the room immediately because midnight was long past.

"Sholat Isya is not too late, right?" ask Mama.

"No, I was praying in Orion with other female employees."

"Yes, now rest. You have morning class tomorrow, right?" Mama opened the room door for Kinara, then slightly pushed her daughter's body in.

"Yes. Night, Mama."

"Night, honey."

After that, the door to the room was closed. Kinara walked to the study table to store her bag, then crawled up onto the mattress while checking the phone that she had accidentally turned off.

The phone turned on, and while waiting, Kinara put the flat object on the nightstand and walked to the wardrobe to pick up her nightgown. Blue clothes with accents of white flowers that he then wear after removing the previous clothes.

Dirty clothes and he took them out to put them in a basket by the bathroom door. However, his steps came to a halt in the doorway when he discovered Papa's figure had already disappeared from above the sofa. That certainly made Kinara finally convinced that Papa was just pretending to sleep, even though he himself did not know why the man did it.

After clucking, Kinara continued her steps. The dirty laundry basket was empty, which meant that Mama had cleaned it all up.

Before returning to the room, Kinara covered first to the kitchen to fill her drinking water bottle so that later she would not have to creep into the kitchen night-night because of thirst. He also filled a glass for her to drink now.

The water bottle had been filled, the thirst had also disappeared, it was time for Kinara to return to the room.

Kinara walked slowly, turning off the living room lights and then darting into the room.

The water bottle he had placed on the nightstand, then the cellphone that was now lit he took and then he crawled up onto the mattress.

There were already six missed calls on the phone, all from a new number that he believed one hundred percent belonged to Atha. So, he did not need to think a thousand times to directly blacklist the number.

"Mas Kala must not have reached home yet, huh? But I was so sleepy that I had to wait for him to arrive" Kinara started to get upset. Usually, after returning home from a trip with Sekala, he would always wait until he got the news that the man had arrived home safely.

But the thing is, right now he is really sleepy. Sleeping for almost an hour in Orion was not able to eliminate the drowsiness that he had piled from noon.

Finally, he decided not to wait for news from Sekala. He put the cell phone back on the nightstand, then started to lay down and close his eyes.

It didn't take long, he was asleep.

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For the sake of being able to find Papa, Kinara willingly prepared early in the morning. After the dawn prayer, she immediately took a bath and dressed neatly, then helped Mama prepare breakfast in the kitchen. He also finished his breakfast in a short time, much faster than the usual time he needed to eat so that made Papa and Mama look astonished.

And right now, when the new clock was showing at half-eight in the morning, Kinara was already sitting in a henchman on the living room sofa, she said, waiting for Papa to finish breakfast he intercepted and spoke before the man left for work.

Fifteen minutes into the wait, Papa finally emerged from the kitchen carrying a small bag where the man used to keep his cell phone and wallet. His eyes poked towards Kinara, then looked wondering about her daughter's whereabouts in the living room.

"Father, we need to talk." Kinara said as she patted the empty space next to her.

Mama said the woman turned around immediately after handing Papa her lunch box. Papa was further astonished as he began to step closer to Kinara, and found the boy's gaze increasingly intense.

Papa took a sitting position to the left of Kinara after putting the bag and the lunchbox on the table.

"What's wrong?" ask Papa.

"I have a question" Kinara began. He slightly tilted his body position so that he could face Papa. "It's important, so Nara hopes Papa can give an honest and satisfying answer." Its effects.

"What about?"

"Mas Kala,"

"Second?"

Kinara. "Once again, this is important, so please cooperate."

Now, Kinara looks like a police officer interrogating a burglary suspect caught on surveillance cameras, but still trying to evade. Papa did not wince as the girl's bead stared at him intensely, so all the man could do was a beard as a sign of approval.

"As we know, Papa, we've agreed to implement curfews and I never broke the rules. But, several times with Mas Kala, Papa biarin Nara broke the curfew that night. Whys? What was the reason that Papa allowed the curfew we agreed to break?"

"Before you answer, let me ask you one question first." Papa sounded calm, while Kinara instead turned agitated for fear that the back question that Papa was throwing would bring him into trouble.

"Can I?" billih Papa's. And Kinara had no choice but to nod her head.

"Papa just want to know, do you ever feel unsafe when you are with Sekala? Never, do you feel anxious, afraid that Sekala will do things with you?"

This was not a difficult question actually, because right after Papa clenched his lips, Kinara already knew the answer.

But, to reassure herself even more, Kinara re-played scene after scene during her time around Sekala. And it was true, not once did he feel unsafe. There was no feeling of worry and worry, because he had unknowingly put his trust in Sekala that much.

"So? Did you get the answer?" ask Papa again.

Kinara lifted her head to return Papa's gaze, then, she shook her head slowly. "Nara never felt safe. Mas Kala always took good care of Nara, and never tried to cross the line."

Papa flicked his finger while smiling faintly. "That's the point."

"But that doesn't answer Nara's question."

"It does, Nara. You know the answer."

Kinara looked confused.

"Just like you who never feel insecure when being with Sekala, Papa also never feel unsafe to leave you to him. Could this be called a father's feeling? What is clear, Papa feels the decision to entrust trust to Sekala is the most appropriate."

Looking at Kinara who seemed to still have not finished digesting her words, Papa smiled, then got up and gently rubbed the head of her daughter.

"You may not understand, but later when you become a parent, you will definitely understand what Papa means."

Then, Papa snatched the lunchbox and bag from the table, then passed out of the house after letting Kinara kiss her hand.

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