INSECURE, Love of the Past
Heartbreaking meeting

It's not like today it's time I met her mother sister Kayla and her mother Indra. I was a little nervous because for the first time I met the mother of the person who had destroyed my relationship with Indra.

People who have made me lose the figure of a handsome man, good and Sholeh who loves me very much. If time could I turn back, I want to feel like I'm in school with Indra. I won't turn it down when Indra invites me to SMK.

Maybe if I had been in high school at SMK, something like this would never have happened. I regret everything, but I also cannot violate my destiny. It's God's scenario, I'm just a player who can't manage the course of that game.

And I never thought it would be this serious about my relationship with Brother Ivan. I really love him but I miss Indra too, miss him a lot. I could never brush off the shadow of his face when our faces were only one cm away. I thought senses would kiss my lips but I was wrong, Indra just said she loved me so much

Trings..

Trings..

My phone's beeping..

And I saw one message from Brother Ivan and one from an unknown number.

"Darling, are you ready? Now I'll pick you up. Sandra's been waiting at JL. xxx" Ivan's sister.

"Mar, this is Sandra. I told Ivan that Kayla's mom and I were waiting for you at Jl. xxx" Sandra.

I didn't reply to those two messages, I was pensive on my desk chair. I don't know if I can hold back these tears when I meet Indra's mother? Am I able to hold back the emotions in my heart while at home that hold many memories of both of us?

I'm afraid Ivan's brother is angry, I'm afraid he thinks I don't love him. And I just miss, miss the deep in the people I love so much.

While I was contemplating, Mama came. Mamah asked if I would be strong and strong to meet Kayla's mother? I replied that I would be strong, even if I didn't know what was going on there.

Ivan arrived in front of the house. I got out of my chair and was just as good to go. I went straight to see Ivan in front and left. I saw that Aldi was also coming, he was the driver again.

Arriving at the place waiting for Sandra, I saw a beautiful woman beside her. I salute him, however I may not disrespect him.

We all went straight to Indra's house, our cars together. And finally arrived at Indra's house.

I saw a beautiful little girl sitting on the front porch, it looked like it was Riri. Now he's grown up, maybe about 10 years old because when I came here, he was 6.

He was surprised to see the arrival of two cars stopped at his house. I immediately got down and ran towards him,

"Relain..." Call me to him.

He was wondering, maybe he forgot who I was.

"This is Mary, you still want to?" My toot.

"Teh Maria's boyfriend a Indra first?" Ask.

"Yes, now you're big." I rubbed Riri's long hair.

Ivan approached us both.

"Honey," Call Ivan's brother.

"Mother has ri?" Much

"There, again, wash the clothes. I'll call you tea." Her speech. He went straight inside.

Brother Sandra and Kayla's mother were already in front with me and Ivan, while Kak Aldi just stayed in the car.

Come out mom, dad and Riri.

"Steak??" Say mother.

"Mother.." My reflex was to hug my mother very tightly, I missed my mother and everything related to Indra.

Mom was crying and I couldn't help it. I tried not to cry, but it was hard. I don't care if Brother Ivan gets angry with me, because no one can understand how I feel.

"Teh, mom misses the same. Why are we only here now?" mom rubbed my hair.

I let go of my embrace while holding back the tears from coming out again.

"Teteh also misses mom, sorry about just getting here now. Healthy mom? Daddy?" I kissed dad's hand.

"Alhamdulillah. Tea, this is who a lot of people come to mom's house?" Ask mother.

I glanced at Brother Ivan, Brother Sandra, and Kayla's mother.

Mother who understood there would be an important conversation, letting us all go inside.

Mother took a drink and began to sit beside her father, in front of her was Brother Sandra and her mother Kak Kayla while I and Ivan were in the midst of them.

"Mom, this is Ivan's sister, my boyfriend now." I started the conversation, mother looks happy I can open my heart to Brother Ivan.

"Alhamdulillah must open the heart, but must remain the spirit. Mother is also sad to lose Indra, but this is the path of God's destiny. Son Ivan, mother order.. Never be sick of teteh yes, I already consider it the mother's own child because Indra is very fond of teteh from long ago. I don't want Indra to be sad to see something unhappy." Say mother with teary eyes.

Mother's words deeply cut my heart. How not? A very nice mother to me, a mother who already thinks of me as her own child but I just visited now. I was so wicked, I bowed my head because I could not hold back my tears.

Brother Ivan, who was beside me, took my hand and said,

"Yes Ma'am, I will always be happy because I love him more than anything, just like Indra who is willing to sacrifice for Maria." Brother Ivan looked at me who was bowed holding back tears.

"Yes Nak. Then who is this?" Mother asked me and looked at Sister Sandra and sister Kayla's mother in turn, while the father just kept quiet to be a good listener.

"This is Sandra's sister and this is Kayla's mother." My answer is that I can control my emotions.

Unexpectedly, sister Kayla's mother immediately knelt while crying in front of all of us. Me and everyone else were surprised by Mother Kayla's attitude. Mother grabbed her hand and sister Kayla's mother immediately hugged her body while crying and apologizing repeatedly.

The father who did not understand what happened, was amazed by the attitude of the woman before him. I can't explain everything that happened right away, because I can't even remember everything. My heart breaks when I remember all that again and again..

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