INSECURE, Love of the Past
Meet Sandra

"Dear awake.. I've arrived" Brother Ivan's voice woke me up asleep on his shoulder.

"Emhh sorry Brother, I fell asleep.. Brother Pegel, his shoulder.?? Sorry." I touched Ivan's shoulder and apologized..

"It's okay, baby.. I'm glad you can comfortably sleep next to me, let's go down.. Aldi was waiting at the entrance." Take Ivan who has already pulled my hand down.

We were both looking for Aldi who was not at the door. From earlier, Ivan called but not picked up. Finally we decided to wait for him at Abang Baso's place because I was already hungry. All Kak Ivan want to call for permission to take me the road and mamah not angry with Kak Ivan.

Mamah already strongly believes in Ivan, that Ivan can take good care of me. Mamah was sure that Brother Ivan would love and love me sincerely just like Indra.

Me and Brother Ivan also ate baso first while waiting for Aldi who now has nowhere. We waited a long time, maybe about 30 minutes. Finally Brother Aldi came and nagged himself..

"Got long.. Where's Lu? From earlier I was with Maria nyariin Lu!!" Said Brother Ivan who had finished eating his baso. I still have a little left.

"Sir Aldi wants to eat first?" Ask her.

"Oh no Mar.. Thanks though.. My stomach hurts a lot, mules.." Replied Aldi while grimacing in pain holding his stomach.

"So you went to the toilet?" Ask Brother Ivan.

"Yes, that's why I didn't pick up the phone from Lu. My boker again..!!" The answer..

I took the eucalyptus oil in the bag. I always carry it with me everywhere because I am always nauseous when traveling, and eucalyptus oil is my mainstay.

"It's Brother, wipe it to the stomach yes.. Let's get a little bit quiet." I gave the eucalyptus oil to Brother Aldi's hand.

Aldi just bengong aja and replied when Kak Ivan surprised him.

"Woii..!! Pake spout. Keep us straight to mom's room.."

"Oh okay okay, just a little.."

I've finished eating the baso and waiting for Aldi to pour the oil into his stomach. After we finished all three of us went straight to the nursery of his mother Kak Aldi.

I was tired enough to walk up the stairs one by one because the elevator was in repair while his mother's room was on the third floor.

"Aren't you tired of the gini stairs? I'm carrying ya.." Said Brother Ivan.

"Ehemmmm...." Aldi's sister leaned towards Ivan's brother making me feel bad for him.

"Thank you, brother, thank you.." I answered, rejecting his offer.

A few minutes later, we arrived in the 1st classroom. I saw the state of his mother Kak Aldi, his condition seemed to improve a little but his body looks thin dry. I smiled and greeted his mother.

His mother Aldi was very friendly.. He was kind and welcome with my arrival.. He said he had diabetes and yesterday suddenly his blood sugar went up and had to be treated immediately. I'm concerned about his mother's condition, Aldi.

It did not feel like the time was almost Maghrib, Aldi was taking care of the administration so that his mother could go home. Me and Ivan waited for his mother. When the nurse was going to check the last condition of her mother Kak Aldi, we were both surprised not to play because it turned out that the nurse was her friend Kak Kayla.

"Ivan, Maria, how are you here?" Ask the nurse who turned out to be Sandra.

"Yes, now I'm interning at Van's hospital. Just 4 months ago." Said Sister Sandra while checking on her mother's condition Aldi.

"All normal Mom, if the condition of the mother is stable continue as I believe most likely the doctor will allow the mother to go home today. The doctor's visiting at 7pm tonight." Said Brother Sandra with a smile to his mother, Brother Aldi.

"Thank you sister." Answer his mother Aldi.

Sandra smiled at her mother and she turned her head towards the two of us.

"Van, Mar, can we talk to you for a second.?" Ask Brother Sandra. We both nodded and followed Sandra in the patient waiting room.

Arriving at the waiting room, Ivan asked Sandra about Kayla.

"San, where does Kayla live now.?" Ivan asked without saying anything.

"That's what I want to say to you guys that Kayla doesn't exist.."

"Huh!!" We were both surprised by Sandra's words just now.

"What does Sandra mean?" My toot. Ivan was just dumb.

"Kayla does not exist.. He killed himself." Obviously Sandra with a sad face.

"What's? Why would he do that?" Ask Brother Ivan.. Yes, I was equally surprised.

"I'm sure you know about Indra. That's what caused her to commit suicide. He always confided in me that he could not stand EHS anymore, he became like a crazy person who likes to shout calling Indra's name."

"Say she always saw the shadow of what happened back then, she always saw Indra following her wherever she went. Until he finally did not continue his studies. And now her mother is in Indonesia again. He asked for your contact and also Maria."

"Mother wants to apologize to you, especially to Indra and her family. I told you that Indra did not survive the accident. And his mother was devastated to hear me say that." Explanation by Sandra.

I cried in front of Brother Ivan and Brother Sandra. The presence of Kak Sandra is like opening up bad memories about Indra. I've tried to make it happen, but this heart hurts so much, it hurts so much when I look with my own eyes as Indra pushes me and sacrifices herself for me.

I was sick as I looked at the blood flowing on his head that soaked that handsome face. I was sick to see her eyes closed and no longer looked at me with a gentle gaze. I was sick when I prayed to Allah to save Indra, but Allah did not grant my prayers.

My heart is hurting remembering the memory of me waiting for him in the hospital, when I dreamed about it, when I..... Kissing affectionately in dreamland. I can't believe Kayla's sister was so mean to me, but I can't blame her mother for this either. Because I'm sure his mother doesn't know what Kak Kayla did.

Brother Ivan saw me crying and hugging me in front of Brother Sandra. Actually I don't want to cry in front of Ivan about this matter. I was afraid that Ivan was angry and thought that I didn't love him. But my heart hurts too much to remember everything, this still wet wound was like a salt water flush when Sandra reminded him back.

"Darling, don't cry anymore." Said Brother Ivan who rubbed my hair gently and buried my head in his chest. I looked up my head and looked into Ivan's eyes, he wiped my tears and said,

"I'm here, baby.. Yeah, don't cry anymore." Said Brother Ivan.

While Sister Sandra who saw us both was amazed by the attitude of Brother Ivan who was very gentle to me. I don't know what's on Sandra's mind right now that seeing Kak Ivan's attitude change is so significant.

I'm sure Brother Sandra was surprised by Ivan's treatment of me. Sister Sandra's face expressed that she did not expect that Brother Ivan would be so gentle.

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