INSECURE, Love of the Past
Ivan's Decision

Week before..

"Well, Ivan wants to continue his studies in Indo. Ivan doesn't feel right here."

"But Van, you have to be patient 2 more years father's work here is done. And can open branches in various countries including in indo."

"Well, all this time I've never fought back and never asked for anything with dad. But now that I have a wish, I can't take it anymore to meet the girl I love. For 2 years I've put a damper on all my desires and now Ivan's not strong well."

"What's? So all this time you've been rejecting pretty girls you've been dating because you already have a boyfriend?"

I was shocked to hear Ivan's confession. Ivan the reclusive and his father who never had time for him made communication between them very bad. Her mother was busy taking care of her boutique.

"OKe Van. I will grant your request. On one condition, you can prove that the girl you love loves you sincerely not just after your parents' property."

"I'll prove well that I chose the right girl to be my wife. For that I just want to spend it, I don't want to stay in our house yeah."

"Dad will support you if it makes you happy Van."

Finally his mother took care to move Ivan to college in Indonesia. His mother told Ivan to occupy their former home. But Ivan refused because the house was too big to be occupied by just one person. Be Ivan just snekos with his friend Aldi.

Coincidentally Aldi decided to move to college in Indonesia because his mother was sickly and did not want to be far from Aldi. Ivan deliberately did not tell Mary this plan, but Ivan asked Daffa for help to surprise Mary on his birthday. And it worked.

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"Sister Ivan???"

Maria was surprised to see Ivan in front of her eyes. Is this a dream?

"Happy birthday to Mary." Ivan said to him.

"This is Ivan's real brother? Am I dreaming?"

"It's really me Maria, Ivan."

Maria hugged Ivan and cried happily. Ivan returned Maria's embrace with a smile and said, "I'm back Maria."

Everyone who saw it was moved. Mom even shed her tears a few times. Sweet seventeen Maria feels very effective with Ivan. Maria let go of her embrace and Ivan wiped her tears. The smiles of the two of them expanded and Ivan gave the gift of a small box of light blue.

Ivan kissed the mother's hand and gave her greetings, then Mary blew out the candles and cut her birthday cake. Mamah entertained the friends of Mary and Ivan to eat the food that had been served at the table.

The atmosphere became very cheerful and crowded even though there were only 5 of Maria's closest friends, but that's what made it memorable because they were Maria's best friends. Moreover, there was Ivan, adding to Maria's cheer during the day.

Mamah had to check the store because her employees were calling that the pashmina stock in the store was depleted due to the burgeoning order. At 2 o'clock, we went straight to the store, while Maria and Ivan were both at home. Maria asked Ivan to chat on the front porch of her house only. Fear of being slandered by the neighboring world 'MAHA KNOW'.

Ivan agreed he was sitting on the front seat of Mary's porch. He kept looking at her face making Mary misbehave. "Sister, don't look at me and be ashamed."

"I miss Mary." Ivan smiled and held Maria's hand.

"Sister, is Brother here just to surprise me or will he stay here?"

Ivan replied, "I will stay here Mary, because I want to make you the wife and mother of my children."

"I mean Brother?" Mary was shocked by Ivan's confession.

"I've decided to move and continue my studies here, I can't help but miss for 2 years Mar. And I want the answer now do you want to be my lover forever?"

"Are you sure you want to make me your lover? Aren't you ashamed to have an ugly lover like me? Sister is perfect many beautiful girls out there who want to be the same brother. And me?"

"Darling, I don't see you from the physical, I love your love sincerely from my heart. I don't know why I love you so much. No other woman can take your place in my heart. I don't care what people say, all I care about is that you're always there for me and I'll always be there for you."

"But brother, I don't care. I'm afraid to love Brother, afraid that after I love Brother wholeheartedly, I will lose Brother. Just like I lost Indra, FIRST."

Inner conflict attacked Ivan, wanting him to say that everything that happened was the result of Kayla, his former lover. But Ivan was afraid that Mary was getting sadder so he paused to tell Maria about it.

"You don't have to worry about Maria. God willing, if I were your soul mate, I would always be by your side forever. I want you to answer now, I've expressed my feelings more than 6x even since the first time you entered High School. Do you still remember? Then what else am I supposed to prove to Mar?"

"Yes, I remember. Even when I was dating Indra, Ivan already revealed that to me. Me, me.."

Maria took a deep breath and continued her words. "I, will give an opportunity to Brother Ivan and open my heart to Brother Ivan. Honestly, I also felt like I lost Big Brother when Big Brother decided to leave. That's why I never responded to Big Brother's feelings for fear that Big Brother won't come back."

Ivan smiled happily. "Thank you Maria. But I don't have anything Mar. Even so I will still try to make you as happy as I can."

"I don't care if you're poor or rich. I just want Big Brother to be loyal and appreciate me as Brother's lover. One that I ask, Brother, do not repeat the attitude of brother time at the airport. I want a healthy relationship just like I used to date Indra. Never doing more than hugging, even Indra hugged me when I was sad and she won me."

"I promise that I will cherish you and I will be the best lover for you."

'I'm sorry Brother, I just want you to treat me like a holy girl to protect. Not just as an impingement of lust. Because only my husband can do it.' Inner Mary.

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