INSECURE, Love of the Past
Love as it is

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Flashbacks

Doctor: Sorry mom, I have to pass on this unpleasant news to mom. The condition of the mother's child is now in the recovery phase, but the mother's child has a speech disorder due to trauma in nature. This trauma is directly connected to his brain which stores the memory of unpleasant events so that the mother's child has difficulty speaking.

Mamah (Surprised, sad) Astaghfirullah.. Docs.. Will my child recover as before? What should I do to get my child back up quickly?

Doctor: The good news is that the baby's mother grows faster and can be treated immediately. You must continue to give encouragement and not burden it with negative thoughts. Invite him to talk about things that please his heart. Support from loved ones will be very influential at this time to the traumatic condition in nature.

Mom: Thanks for the information, doctor. Please help my child recover as much as possible.

Doctor: Yes ma'am, we will do it to the maximum.

End Flashback

Ivan approached Maria's mother who was sitting daydreaming on the bench outside the hospital. Ivan felt something was hidden from Mary's mother to him, and he wanted to know it.

"Well, what happened to Maria.?" Ask Ivan.

At first Maria's mother didn't want to tell her about this, but she thought Ivan should know what happened to Maria. Will he survive or retreat his relationship with Maria.

Finally I told Ivan everything.

"That's what happened sister, mamah don't want you forced to endure because of the situation with Maria at this time." Said Maria's mother.

"Well, whatever happens to Maria, I'll always be by her side. I don't care because I love Maria so much. Even though Maria has a speech disorder now, I don't care about you." Ivan replied firmly.

Mary's mother shed tears upon hearing Ivan's words. He felt that there was no lie in what Ivan said.

"I will marry Maria Mah.. I'm not leaving him in any situation. I will try to make Mary what she used to be, because this is all because of me.. I'm supposed to be in her position, not Maria." Ivan could not hold back his tears as he said that. His heart was pounding withstanding increasingly unbearable emotions.

The affection, the fear of loss, the regret of not being able to protect the woman he loved mixed into one. Ivan really could not leave Maria under any circumstances, his love could not be doubted. His love for Mary was not just that he felt guilty because Mary had sacrificed herself, but because it was too much love and affection for Mary.

After saying that, Ivan returned to the room to see Mary again, while Mary's mother had to go out to buy food. Ivan approached Maria who was closing her eyes because of the effect of the drug given by the nurse earlier. Ivan rubbed his head gently, in the face of his lover's face with a gentle look full of hope, he cried..

"Darling, no matter what happens to you, I will never leave you.. I can't do that because I love you so much.. No matter what you are, I will survive. My love for you is no joke, I accept how you are." Ivan kissed Mary's forehead who was still asleep.

Ivan was still pensive to remember the events after that, occasionally he smiled if he remembered his silly behavior that made Maria laugh. At first glance he looks like an ODGJ, smiling to himself and sometimes frowning. Ivan's gaze was empty, the current him was completely stressed. The woman he loves must feel the pain in his life because of him. If and if only he could blame this time.

But all this was a matter of fate, and this was the way of the Almighty for him and Mary. And now all he can do is pray and support Maria so she can recover quickly.

"Assalamualaik." Daffa's voice rang out in the doorway.

"Wa'alaikumsalam's chat. Daf, where are Aldi and Zain?" Ivan answered, turning to Daffa who was alone.

"Aldi again escorted his mother outpatient while Zain, he was busy taking care of Dendi's case files cs." Daffa approached Ivan who was sitting in a chair.

"Van, how's Maria doing?" Daffa asked while standing but his eyes looked at Maria.

"Good and bad news Daf." Ivan's ambiguous answer left Daffa puzzled.

"What do you mean Van?" Now that Daffa was sitting next to Ivan, he wanted to know what was really going on with Maria.

Ivan told Daffa about Mary's situation. And Daffa was surprised to hear all that Ivan had said.

"Astagfirullah, is this as bad as it should be in nature?" Daffa looked at Maria again with his own eyes.

"Yes Daf. And I feel so guilty that I can't take good care of Maria. I feel like I'm the most useless person right now. In the past Indra could take good care of Maria, making Maria not feel the slightest injury at the expense of herself. While me? I was even protected by Maria!! And now Mary has to endure all that." Ivan's emotions were stirring again, he really couldn't control it at the moment.

"Please Van, there must be wisdom behind the trials that befall us. I'm sure Maria doesn't blame anyone here, let alone loe. He loved Loe Van so much, he was sincere because he did not want to lose the person he loved for the second time. I know the worst moment for Maria is losing the person she loves." Daffa's words slightly eased Ivan's already heightened emotions.

"And I don't think Maria will regret her decision to sacrifice herself for you." Connect Daffa.

As they chatted, Maria opened her eyes and moved her right hand. Ivan and Daffa who saw it came straight to Mary. Ivan immediately pressed the call button to call the sisters, not long after two sisters came and checked on Maria.

"Please, ladies and gentlemen, just wait outside.. Let me check on his condition." Said the nurse.

The two of them exited the room and waited for the results from the sisters who examined them.

The POV Author End

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