INSECURE, Love of the Past
About Kelvin

* POV Kelvin*

I went home without Tiara and I don't know where she is now. How dare he say that I'm a damned husband, not knowing myself!! Though his family is very dependent on me and all the needs of his family I fulfill.

I used to approach him because of prestige and bet with my friends who are CEOs also in their respective companies. That was the biggest mistake of my life. Just because I wanted the company to be even more advanced, I agreed to their idea of betting on getting a Tiara.

I also did not expect that Tiara would choose me. Though one of my friends there who sincerely love him but ignored by him. You stupid girl!!

He could not use his instinct to judge a man. She was too confident in the beauty she had. And too proud of myself that all men will love it.

I must admit that all my friends really like Tiara. Hence they bet to get Tiara. But not with me, I don't love him at all. I never felt anything near him. She's beautiful, but I'm not interested in her.

But anyway I won't divorce her, because I'm principled to marry once in a lifetime. I'm ashamed to marry more than once, but if fate wills anything else to say?

Ever since I married her, I hoped that someday I would love her. But I still can't feel the love in this relationship. Beautiful does not necessarily make a man can love her.

The heart cannot be forced. And it was my fault because of the prestige and following the bet, my life became tormented like this. I am not happy with this marriage either.

I was still worried whether I would divorce him or keep him even if there was not the slightest happiness in it. We survive only because of status not because of love. I'm not sure if Tiara really loves me or not.

I'll think about this carefully, how should I behave. I have to find her because she's still my wife. Even though I don't love him, I do. I didn't really throw him out at the time, it was just because I was emotional.

I called one of her sisters named Cantika to ask if Tiara went to her parents' house or not.

I'll get a cell phone at the table and I'll press Cantika's number.

"Hello Cantika."

"Yes, Brother Kelvin, what's wrong?"

"Did Tiara go to your house?"

"none. Tiara is not here, brother. Why why anyway? Tiara isn't home?"

"Yes, he's gone. And I thought he went there."

"How can Big Brother not know the purpose of Kak Tiara leaving?"

"Come, by the time I get home Tiara is no longer home." I lied to cover up my mistakes.

"I'm just asking you to ask Tiara to come home if you see her."

"Alright Brother. Later if Kak Tiara comes here or if I meet her I will tell her to come home.'

"Yes, you're the same."

I turned off the phone call and hoped to find Tiara soon. Indeed as long as we were married I never gave it money directly to Tiara. Every Tiara or house needs, I set it up.

I don't want to be governed by him and I'd rather be like this. If I gave up all my money and entrusted Tiara to arrange it, I was afraid that she would be careless and fiddling with her friend who always used her.

His friends had always depended on Tiara. Because I think Tiara is lucky to have a rich husband like me. I didn't like his friends because they were only there when we were happy. Unlike my friends who are always there when I am happy or when I am down.

Therefore, I am more royal to my friends because they are the ones who help me when the company almost went out of business. If there were none, I might have become a bully because I had nothing. I must have been poor and could not develop the only company I had.

While my parents have died since I left college and I had to struggle to raise the company they left alone without my father and mother. Company that was almost down when I left.

At first I was confused as to how, but my friends encouraged me to rise and be willing to become an investor in my company. With the support of my friends who are also CEOs, I can be like this.

I feel that I owe them a debt of Budi, even to death, the debt of Budi cannot be paid by the material. Unlike when we have a material debt, no matter how nominal we will be able to pay it off and there will be no relation again after we pay.

They didn't expect a return from me, but I still knew myself. I can't not care about my friends. And I also can't help but care about the Tiara family.

Strangely why don't I trust Tiara to manage my finances? I don't know why that is either. Looks like I should talk to Tiara and apologize to her. I know I was wrong, I'm sorry Tiara. And here you are the most hurt because I am too selfish.

May you forgive me for being so outrageous to you. I'm the one who torments you with every emotion and I who hurts your heart all the time.

* POV Kelvin End

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Cantika Dewi, she's a favorite high school student in her place. She became the prima donna of school because of the beauty of her face. All her male friends liked Tika a lot. Just like her sister, Tiara. He became a village flower and school prima donna, a lot of who expect his love.

Tika's choice fell to a young man named Dendi, they had been dating for 1 year. I don't know if Tika also does not know why she can accept the love of Dendi, an ordinary man who is not handsome or rich. Dendi is very possessive, she always forbids Tika to just say hello to her male friends other than her best friend. Even so Tika still survives with Dendi's possessive nature.

Dendi is good and always knows how to make Tika not angry with him, but Tika is also always upset because of the fear of losing her excessive. And the longer the more disturbed with the nature of the Dendi. Tika will never be able to escape from Dendi because Dendi always threatened to spread the video of those who were 'Doing' it to social media.

Tika was terrified and she was embarrassed that her parents, brother, neighbors and everyone knew that she had done that with Dendi. Tika gets caught up in Dendi's sweet remarks when she says that she will be responsible if Tika gets pregnant. And now that Tika deeply regretted her actions, she harbored everything herself until she was no longer able to hold it back and had to do what.

Tika must be able to think clearly before acting. She must take the video and delete it so she can escape from Dendi's possessive love affair.

This Sunday the school held a study tour to the white crater. All as a 3rd class farewell event that will soon be done. Tika school was going to hold a study tour to Yogyakarta, but because of something the original plan was canceled. And be to the white crater as a tourist destination.

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