INSECURE, Love of the Past
My happiness is you

A week later...

I already know my condition from mama, I don't regret it at all. I'm willing to be like this as long as I don't lose Brother Ivan like I lost Indra first. I even felt Ivan's love growing stronger for me despite my abnormal condition.

My tongue feels very tired when trying to speak, but every day I practice saying it myself one word and helped also by my mother. Sometimes I feel sorry I couldn't save Indra back then. My heart still remembers Indra. Even though I love Ivan completely, I find it very difficult to move on and forget Indra.

As I daydreamed, Brother Ivan's voice sounded in the doorway. I turned my head and smiled at the arrival of Kak Ivan who was getting better compared to the first time I woke up from a coma. Ivan's brother has returned to being the cheerful and vibrant Ivan again and I love him more and more.

"Assalamualaikum.. How are you doing today, yank?" Brother Ivan approached me who was sitting on the living room sofa.

I blinked my eyes and smiled at Brother Ivan, a sign that I was fine.

"Yank.. I told my mom and dad that I will marry you next month. They agree, I'll just tell mama now yeah." Ivan's words really surprised me.

I immediately wrote in the book to express my opinion on this.

"But Brother, my condition has not 100% recovered.. I'm not as normal as I used to be. Aren't you ashamed to have a wife like me who can't talk about gini?" I gave the writing to Brother Ivan.

Brother Ivan who was sitting next to me just smiled and stroked my hair.

"I'm not ashamed, baby.. I accept you for who you are, however much I will always love and love you until any time because.. My happiness is you!!" Brother Ivan kissed my hair.

My heart was pounding as Ivan's Leg said so.. Maybe others think it's better, but I don't think so at all.. I could feel that very sincere feeling of Brother Ivan towards me.

Thank you, brother.. Thank you for the love and affection that you have given me.. I am no longer able to express my feelings now, I am very happy..Happy to be loved by a man as good and sincere as a brother..I love you too, brother, love you so much..

I love you so much baby..

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POV Zain's

Today I'm going to Kia's house to surprise her.. I will give the ring to Kia and ask if Kia wants to be engaged to me or not? Actually I want to marry her soon, but my mother advised me to get engaged first.

"Assalamualaik." I said my regards in front of Kia's house.

"Getishalight." Answer someone while opening the door.

"Son Zain, come in." I salute Kia's mother and sit on the chair.

"Thank you, Mom." My answer.

"Whe'll cook wait a minute, I'll call you first." Kia's mother went to the kitchen while I was still the living room.

Not long after that Kia came.

"Zayn.. Why not SMS here first?" Kia.

"Surprises... I'm going to take you out, won't I?"

"Where?

"Walk to the city park aja darling, let's chat.. Magrib's hunt later."

Kia entered the room to change clothes while I asked her mother for permission. We also went on a motorcycle.

I took Kia to the park because the atmosphere was good for chatting. There we both sat in the garden chair. Suddenly I became very nervous to give this gift to Kia.

"You why Zain?" Kia asked who was surprised to see my behavior.

"Oh I ain't nothing." My answer.

"Where is Mary now? Is it better? I want to see her, when do we go to Maria's house?"

"The next day we went there.. Do you have time?"

"Yes there.. I'm waiting for Zain." Kia smiled at me.

After saying that, we both just kept quiet. No words were spoken from our lips. I tried calling her name, "Kia.."

"What's Zain?"

"I. I have something for you.. Accept yeah.." I took out a ring box that was wrapped in a gift and gave it to Kia.

"Open yank." Kia was astonished to see the box, she opened it and she was very surprised to see the contents.

"What does this mean, Zain?" Ask Kia.

"I want to be serious about you Kia.. I want us fiancee, do you want my fiancee?" My question made Kia even more confused.

"I'm ashamed of Zain, I feel that I don't pantes for you who are almost flawlessly perfect. While I'm just a poor girl who has none of the advantages. There are so many shortcomings of me, even I am always inferior every time we walk and people look at me with strange looks."

Kia stood up and was about to leave me in the garden, but I held her arm. Kia cried and lowered her head, she did not say anything more. I got up and looked into his eyes..

"Darling, why are you talking like that? I don't care what people say, I love you sincerely, I'm still holding on to you until now because I feel comfortable. Never think like Kia, because in a relationship comfort is the most important. If I'm comfortable with you, why would I look for something else? I think it's a waste of time. So now I'm asking you not to worry about anything, because I'm going to keep all this up at all times."

"You mean? Keep it up whenever?" I wiped away the tears that ran down her cheeks.

"Yes until you're mine forever." I still looked into his eyes and there was no doubt at all when I told him that.

Kia immediately hugged me very tightly and I returned her embrace. Now that I really love Kia, I don't want to lose her. Although there is still a little taste left for Maria, but I will not cultivate that feeling for someone who does not love me either.

"Are you serious about what you said Zain?" Kia let go of her embrace and looked at me very intensely.

"Seriously dear Kia, my affection for you is like my own self, I want you to be my wife. I love you so much Kia, I love you."

"I love you too dear." Kia replied with a smile to me.

I held her hand and promised to always try to make Kia happy. And whatever happens, I will fight for this relationship. Struggling to retain the flavor that was there for Kia.

Thank you Kia for being present in my life, giving a beautiful color to my heart.

Zain End POV.

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