INSECURE, Love of the Past
My cries

After feeling calm, my senses began to ask me.

"It's quiet?" Ask Indra who is now sitting next to me. He draped my hair behind my ears and looked at my face that was bowed from the side.

"Why are you crying?" Ask her again and now her hands are touching the back of my head.

"I am saddened by Kia's story why are there such evil men? I'm scared." My tearless speech had already piled up at the end of my eyes ready to flow down my cheeks.

"Why are you afraid?" Holding my hand, but I kept quiet. "Why?" Ask again with a tone that is getting pressured because of his curiosity. I looked at his face and said,

"I'm afraid that I'll get a man like Kia's father. You see I'm not pulling ugly, short, item, alive again!! I like feeling like I don't have a girlfriend, I'm ashamed of myself." My cry finally broke, I could feel her heartache mamah Kia treated so by her own husband.

I covered my face with my hand and Indra touched my hand and held it.

Indra tried to comfort me and stop my heart-wrenching cry. I kept crying in front of him. What a sad fate of ugly girls!! Always feeling insecure and not confident.

"Why do you think like that? The fate of each person is different is not seen from the beautiful or physical someone." Said Indra who did not release her grasp from my hand.

"I'm afraid of getting a boyfriend or husband who doesn't respect women. I was scared because everything I had was unattractive. Look at my face I've been like a shirt not ironed for a year. It's so tangled !! Not to mention my small body like this."

I continued to speak in a tone as unwilling as I held back the cry.

"You're not ugly!! You are sweet, beautiful, you are not short but you are tiny, cute. I like you." Indra touched my chin for me to look at her and she looked me in the eye very intensely. I can't help the feeling that made my heart flutter.

"And most importantly, you are good to everyone. What is beautiful is just her face and her heart is not. It's a lot worse than my darling." Indra wiped my tears with her hands.

"You what the hell said my darling everything I am your pet? I'm really ugly." Hix...

Indra also panicked because my crying became more and more and indeed I could not condition my emotions at this time.

"That's not Mar. I'm just kidding, you're really beautiful. Don't cry anymore." I was panicking when I cried again. But it's also funny to see him panic so his face is very cute.

The cafeteria that had heard our conversation was smiling trying to hold back her laughter seeing the panicked Indra and trying to stop my crying.

"Neng Maria, neng is really beautiful but not a lie. Who said ugly Eneng? Eneng was beautiful again. Don't be insecure about neng let alone neng in like this handsome Aa."

The trickle even teased Indra. I glanced at Indra who was beside me. The gentle look in her eyes made me always comfortable being close to her.

'Mar, other people are sensitive and can see that I love you very much. But why are you never sensitive and never able to see my true feelings?' Indra

"That's why you're not ugly is proof that I like you."

"The indra is so cute!! If you're gonna lie about dong." I sniffed and wiped my tears.

"I didn't lie to Mar. Seriously, I like you." Indra looked at me and smiled at me.

"Males ah you're so kayak." I pinched her hand but Indra laughed and pinched my cheek back.

"So much with you." Say Indra with her cute expression.

I did not consider Indra's words to be true and it seemed that my heart was already quite relieved after crying bitterly in front of Indra.

"Mar, you are very fast indeed ngerjain replaynya so can not cheat, you are also as excellent as !!"

"Intentionally, let's be together with Maria. Aren't you?" Indra brought her face closer to me.

I pushed his face closer to mine. "What the hell is there, let's not get stuck."

"Ehem.. I coughed, sprains. No drinking? Baper saw the Korean drama at our school." Kia mocked Indra who was pretentious and romantic to me.

Although Indra is handsome, Kia never feels like him. Kia is the type of woman who is indifferent is why Indra is only close to me and also Kia. The two of us were not much in style and were not insignificant even though we were close to a handsome man.

Kia's reaction was normal again he did not show the sadness that this morning seemed. It seemed like he had purposely hidden it so that his heart would not get any more hurt.

"Dra, treat me to hunger!"

"Yeah, that flea cupret !! Yes you can, take what. You want to Mar?"

"The same rotation Mar aja very good natural anyway if the same there is a sense of mah emang so." Temptation Kia.

"What the hell is it possible Indra has a similar taste of me, we're just finding out isn't it Dra?" I dismissed Kia's assumption.

"Masaaa? How about Dra, just a friend or a friend but friendly?" Kia was teasing both of us.

"Friends of the future..Hehe "Answored Indra while holding back laughter looking at my confused expression.

"What the hell is that." (Shame)

"Not really sensitive to you Mar." Said Kia while drinking the Aqua in her hand.

"I want another one, Dra. I am 3 you pay the same Aqua one, thanks Indra."

"Yes are the same." Said Indra because it was usual Indra always treat me and also Kia.

"Mar, I went to 9C first yes want some English retelling." Said Kia who was about to pass from before me

"Yes Kia the badass"

Kia left me and Indra in the cafeteria. Indra pulled my hand and invited me to class.

"To yuk class!! I paid for it. Are you sure you don't want anything? Hungry ain't she?" Ask.

"No.. Go to class."

We also went to class. All the way to class, all the friends looked at us. The indifferent senses with their gazes even more tightly grasped my tiny hand.

I was about to let go of his grasp but it was extremely strong, and he was not at all bothered by the gazes of those friends who were envious of our closeness.

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