INSECURE, Love of the Past
Lousy

Since that day, my relationship with Indra has become more intimate. No more distractions from anyone. And since then also the attitude of Brother Ivan turned cold again, unfriendly and his face became dull.

It seems like he's always staying up late. Because every time I see him looking lethargic there's no spirit at all. I feel guilty and guilty.. And since then every time we passed each other, Brother Ivan always threw away his face to avoid contact with me.

I wanted to greet him, but I was afraid that I might give hope to Brother Ivan. I obviously don't love her, and it's better to express it than to give false hope, right?

Because after all it's better to be honest painfully than to lie deadly. Because once we lie, there will be a second lie to cover the first lie, and so on without any end.

Kayla also seemed to dislike me, who always looked at me with a cynical look. Whether they go back to dating or not is none of my business.

* POV Ivan

I could never shake Maria's shadow when she was about to be kissed by her boyfriend. I saw him on the stairs, their faces very close together. I'm angry, but who am I to be angry with.? I just saw him upstairs watching everything.

But it turns out that the man did not kiss her lips, he just said that he loved her.. So sweet.. That I might've kissed him for getting carried away. It is only fitting that Mary rejects me, because the man in front of her is very respectful.

Since then I have started to stay away from him. Wish I could forget it, because I'm sure I won't be able to get Maria. The more I tried to forget the clearer the image of her cute face in my eyes.

Ah I'm really crazy.! What is the cure for this madness? And what are the remedies to get rid of the passionate longing? I asked all my friends and I just got a laugh and scorn from them. 'A Ivan can Gegana because of girls? Who the hell is that girl to see her? Girls a lot of bro, dead one grows a thousand.'

That's the babble of my friends whose brains are perverted. It is easy to say, but it is very difficult when we love the person we truly love from the deepest of hearts. And that's what I feel right now.

Who is Maria? I just knew him. But why do I feel like this to her? Why does he seem to have a magnet to attract people to like him. Does he wear magic? I think not.!! Every break I always see him in the mosque praying Dhuha with the children of ROHIS (Islamic Spirit).

It meant that she really did have a strong inner beauty within her. Not just because of her beautiful face. And this is what I like about him, a simple figure that makes someone perfect.

Everyone must have thought that the lucky Maria had a handsome man like her boyfriend. Looking at the outer glasses is true. And it was the opposite, that man who was lucky to have Maria.

I became upset.

I'm ill.

I'm sad.

And i'm.

No longer have a spirit of life.

For my spirit is you now, Mary.

* POV Ivan End

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