INSECURE, Love of the Past
Dream Men
* POV INDRA*
I didn't think this was the reason Maria was always insecure. I think she is beautiful and sweet. Only her body was tiny. But I like that, I think the little woman is ageless and cute.
I have to convince Maria that I love her without looking at anything and that I have to make her happy so she doesn't feel sad anymore.
I really can't see him sad. I hugged him to feel calm, his cries grew more and more bitter and I could feel the deep heartache.
Why now many people only look at something from the outside, especially from the physical beauty.
I told Maria that I wouldn't change no matter what. I will love him all my life.
"Mar, you should know that I love you for who you are. You should never feel alone and not feel confident again. Please, forget the bad memories that have happened in your life."
"You have to be strong don't be fragile, you're smart. Intelligence will make people appreciate you not just just physical beauty. Make the shortcomings that you have become advantages that others do not have."
"Now or later I will always love and love you forever. I don't want you to be sad, I love you my cute love."
She smiled as I said that and wiped away her tears. I kept comforting her so she would forget her childhood memories. Hopefully I can make him a little more confident and not easy to accept the negative talk of others.
* POV Indra End
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Finally I can also let go of the burden that I have been damning for years. There was a comfortable feeling when I told him. He was a good listener, when I told him he didn't criticize him and kept listening until I finished talking.
Little by little I started to love Indra. There was fear of loss, fear of him turning and leaving me. I'm so scared.
I'm starting to like it. He who has been so considerate of me for so long can make me love him too. I will start a new life without a shadow of those bad memories.
I remember the same favorite dangdut mamah song that is always replayed, said this mamah favorite song that is fitting for papah. And now I feel like I have a dream guy, hehe.
Dream Men
Your loving and affectionate attitude
Make me a darling drunk
Your gentle and quiet nature
Makes me miss day and night
Also your pretty face
It will always be attention
You really are a man of dreams
The girl of all times
It is hard to find nowadays
People like you are real men
Alongside you, sweetheart
Your chivalry cools your heart
Say hai as sweet as honey
Your body shape is a mighty man
Your honesty is trustworthy.
I smiled to myself remembering the song. Songs that always mamah replay when papah is still there. Until now, I really like this song. Yes, Papah also includes the ideal man version of me and mamah, hehe..
It's early afternoon, it's time for me to go home. But why didn't mom come home too huh, I asked Indra, "Dra, mother how long ago huh? When's her coming home? I'm gonna say goodbye."
"Mother again help at home mr. RT. His son wants to be circumcised tomorrow, so it's like mother to Maghrib there. If you want to go home I deliver the motorbike, but I pray ashar first yes. Do you want to pray first?"
"I don't pray anymore."
"Oh, okay if that's what you wait here for first then I'll drop off."
"okay."
Finish Indra prayer he also heats the motor. I waited for him on the front porch.
Riri came with her friends and she called me, "Where are you going?"
"Steh wants to go home first, de."
"But I haven't played the same game yet."
"Let's come here again."
"When?"
I glanced at Indra who was picking up his jacket, Indra who happened to be looking at me replied,
"Tecok teteh his here again, now Riri play first yes the same temen-temen. Aa want to take you home first, it's late afternoon it's just a moment."
"Yes a." Answer Riri.
"Let's bring a lot of toys, will you? Teteh has a cute doll, has a Barbie house too. If Riri wants to fit right here again teteh bring ya. "
"You, promise me tea."
"Yes, I promise."
I smiled at him and he went to play with his friends again.
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