INSECURE, Love of the Past
I will guard your honor

"Darling, here for a second.." Call Brother Ivan who from earlier just silently listened to Tika's story.

Kak Tiara and Tika looked at each other when Kak Ivan called me 'honey'.

I approached Brother Ivan, "What's the matter, Brother?"

"I want to say something to you, come out yuk?" Take Brother Ivan. We both went out and stayed in the living room.

I sat down next to Ivan.

"What did you call me?"

"Are you going to tell Sandra this?" Ask Brother Ivan.

"What about sister?"

"I'm up to you baby, if you want to help your cousin's problem, I'm ready to help too. If you don't want to help, it doesn't matter." Answer Brother Ivan.

"I must help Tika, I can't bear my cousin like gini." My answer.

"Well I thought you'd help him, so I brought you here to talk, baby."

"How should we go, brother?"

"Later to think about it, now we think about meeting Kayla's mother. Are you ready?" Ivan brought his face closer to mine.

"I, I, I'm ready, brother." I answered while bowing my face because the gentle gaze of Ivan, who was very close, made my heart flutter.

"I don't want you to be sad, and I don't want to see you cry anymore. I love you, my future wife." Brother Ivan rubbed my hair gently.

"God willing I will not be sad anymore, I will not cry anymore because there is already a brother who is beside me now." I smiled at him.

"Sister," I called Brother Ivan who was still looking at me.

"What dear?" Ask Brother Ivan.

"Are you serious about that proposal?" I looked into his eyes.

"Yes I'm serious. I'll propose to you next month, I'll talk to you later."

"But brother.. I don't feel ready for marriage, I'm afraid I can't be a good wife for my sister. You see, I'm still a gini ababil."

"You don't have to worry, I'm not going to sue you for this or that. You're free to say when we get married, I won't forbid." Said Brother Ivan who does not seem to be a problem want me anyway.

Brother Ivan smiled as he continued to bring his face closer towards me. I was fixated on looking into her beautiful eyes, her very gentle gaze and her smile that made anyone would be fascinated to see her.

"I'll keep your honor until the time comes dear." Whisper Brother Ivan in my ear, I was just speechless hearing those words from his mouth.

Brother Ivan took my hand and said again, "I will not ruin the woman I love the most in this world. I'll propose to you next month and we'll get married 3 months later after you graduate."

I did not answer Ivan's words.

I am confused about what to answer, because I have not discussed this issue as well. But why was I so excited when Ivan said he was going to bed me?

My heart cannot be conditioned, to the point that I cannot answer the words of Ivan.

It did not feel the time had shown at 17:25, mamah came home from the study and looked at Kak Ivan. Ivan smiled and called mama.

"What's up, brother?" Ask the man who is now sitting in front of us.

"Gini mah, next month I want to propose to Maria. I want to marry Mary because I love her so much and love her so much. Do you agree that next month I apply here and bring my parents?" Said Brother Ivan.

"If mamah mah how neng Maria aja, if you agree mamah also agree. How do you agree?" Ask mamah to me who was thinking what to answer.

"Neng was confused mah, confused whether Eneng could be a good wife for Brother Ivan." My answer.

"Darling, I told you not to be afraid. I'm not gonna tell you to do this, are you sure I'm the same?" Ivan asked, but I did not answer.

Mama looked at the two of us,

"Neng, the advice of mamah mah Eneng thought it used to be good, sweet that can determine the choice of unwillingness. Mamah mah can only pray Eneng with Kak Ivan hopefully mate, aaminn." Mamah prayer.

"Amiin.. May Mary and I marry the world of the Hereafter." Please Brother Ivan.

"Yes, mamah look at the condition of Tika first yes. We'll talk about this again, brother." Mamah also passed to my room to see the state of Tika.

"Beautiful magrib, I pray here. Abis Magrib I'll be home, I'll call you and I'll discuss this proposal." Said Brother Ivan.

"Sister.. I deg-degan.. I don't know what to do later." answered me who has not anything cold sweat has soaked my body and hands.

Ivan smiled and teased me,

"Darling, haven't you dried cold gini let alone fit the first night huh?" Said Brother Ivan who kept looking at me and smiling.

"Sister ih... Don't start omes again, I don't like it!" My answer is sniffed because I don't like to talk about the situation, the embarrassment itself becomes.

"Dear, I won't omes. Omes will tell if we're married, hehe.." Said Brother Ivan who now pinched my cheek.

"Sister... My cheeks hurt in the cubitin continue, it will be red." I stroked my cheek.

"Sorry dear, my future wife's brother is very nervous anyway... Keep making me tingle." Brother Ivan poked my waist 2x.

"A, Ah.."

"SILLY.... What's my waist-pink? I am not tiring?" I was flirting with Brother Ivan who accidentally poked my waist. I knew I was even in makeup.

"I love you." One gentle kiss from Brother Ivan landed on my cheek.

I pinched the arm of Brother Ivan who always succeeded in making my heart beat fast.

"Sorry again, dear, sorry.." Ivan begged me to forgive him.

"Yes, I'm sorry, but don't do that again.. A promise? Continue Brother do not continue to pervert his mind, do not like nyosor yes. Okay.." I blinked one eye at Brother Ivan.

"Okay baby, I'm sorry.. I won't like that anymore, I promise." We wrapped our little fingers together and smiled.

The Maghrib prayer rang, we both went straight to the bathroom to pray and pray. Hope and pray that everything is fine and there are no obstacles whatsoever when the time comes for Ivan to propose to me.

Aamiin, O God..

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