INSECURE, Love of the Past
Cheerful Mondays

Allahuakbar Allahuakbar

Allahuakbar Allahuakbar

I heard the voice of the dawn. I think I slept well last night. I saw the clock was 04:55 and when I saw it there were 14 messages from Kia and Indra.

Kia

'Mar, how is Indra's path? Did he shoot you?' 2035

'Mar, did I SMS you in bales?' 20.50

'Are you sleeping, Mar?' 2130

'Yes already, tomorrow if not just watch out story, if it's already so, don't forget the TPJ. Okay ..! 😉 ' 22.43

Indra

'Mar, what else? 2042

'I keep thinking of you' 20:45

'I can't sleep' 23.55

'The story awaits your answer ' 23.57

'You're asleep, see you at school, my dear.' 0012

Indra

'Mar, are you awake yet? 0415

'Don't forget to pray yes, keep on eating breakfast.' 04.25

'I love you.' 04.30

I took a deep breath. And I reply one by one their SMS.

'Sorry Ki, I fell asleep last night. I'm so tired, pegel. I must have told you the same story. At school yes.' 04.58

'Sorry Indra, when I overslept. Very tired, the body on the pegels.the answer in school is yes. See you at school.' 05.00

I rushed to pray, take a shower, clean up and have breakfast. I finished everything and went straight to school.

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This morning the sun shone with light. As if to know my heart is radiant. Warm light that I began to feel, as warm as the affection that Indra gave me.

I walked towards the school, where I saw Indra leaning against the wall beside the gate and she called out to me.

"Mar.. Here. Tumben you day it comes, usually you first to go to school."

"Yes, my body is a seal-pegel." My answer..

Indra put her arm around my shoulder, and it made me feel ashamed to see my friends.

"Cie... Early in the morning we were dating Dra.." Said one of Indra's friends who I don't know his name.

Indra just laughed at the same ledekin his friend.

"Dra, telain dong.. I'm ashamed." I tried to let go of Indra's hand on my shoulder.

"Let's just say, all my friends know that I shot you yesterday." Answer's relaxed.

"What?" I was surprised by Indra's words just now, she really embarrassed me.

"Look yuk!!" Invite Indra who is now pulling my hand to enter and walk beside her.

"That's the Kia hasn't come yet?" My toot.

Kok tumben he has not Dateng this hour, usually he was the first nyampe school. Every time I Dateng he must have been on his bench. Why do I feel so bad. Didn't Kia get in today.

Me and Indra entered the class.

Today part of our class will be the ceremonial attendant.

There seemed my friends had tidied up his clothes so as not to be told ahead if his clothes were messy. They were always noisier to split the duties that would be the host, the ceremonial leader and all those involved into the ceremonial attendants.

I never wanted to be involved as a ceremonial officer. Because I like to be loud and trembling when I'm the center of attention. Cold sweat soaked my entire body if I became one of the ceremonial attendants. And I did it a second time.

They also flocked to the field and lined up neatly. As usual I always marched ahead, while Indra became the leader of the ceremony.

Indra is always chosen by friends to be the leader of the ceremony, because his voice is on fire and is heard from end to end when leading the ceremony. Ahh, add cool to you Dra..

Your level of good looks increases by two levels when you become a ceremonial leader.. The more persimmon I will see you in front with that upright position. Moreover, your big fans who like to see you play basketball and shout unclear.

The ceremony began.

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The completion of the ceremony Kia remained invisible, right she did not enter today.why yes, is she sick? Kok SMS me who at dawn has not been reply also .

I entered the class with other friends. The subjects of the first hour of Monday are the suits or sports, I immediately changed into a gym clothes on the toilet with my friends.

Mr. Ilham, the prison teacher hasn't arrived yet. My friends and I chatted in the field.

Indra pulled my hand that was chatting with Juita.

"You why the hell pull my hand like a gini". I was upset with Indra who suddenly took my hand.

"Say you want the answer now" Indra replied in a soft tone.

"Oh yes I forgot.. How huh? How do you want it?"

"I want you to be my life partner forever. Whether it's now, tomorrow or later. I want you to be my first and last love". Be very clear what Indra says. I am more convinced that my choice is not wrong. May it be Allah.

Bismillahs..

"okay.. I want to be your girlfriend." I'm timid.

Instantly Indra's face immediately sparkled, it seemed that he was very happy for the answer I gave.

"Seriously Mar. You want?" Indra held my tiny hand. She did not stop smiling after hearing that I accepted her as my lover.

I just nodded.

"Allah, thank you for being my girlfriend. I'll do whatever's best for you. I'll always be happy for you, I promise." Indra raised her pinky and wrapped her pinky around my pinky.

"Yes Indra, I also promise to try to love and love you with all my heart. Thank you very much for all your attention as I am. I'm happy you can love and love me as I am."

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* POV Indra *

I was so happy to hear Maria's answer, she accepted me as her lover. My wait and struggle has not been in vain. I am grateful that he will try to love and love me too. That means we'll take care of each other.

Keeping the heart from being given to a third person will destroy our love.

'You don't have to worry about Mary, because I won't open the door of my heart to anyone else. You are the only one in my heart forever. You're the only girl I care about, and I didn't hurt you one bit.' The promise I made in my heart.

Today is a very historic day for me. The day that makes me so happy can be the person she loves.

* POV Indra End

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