INSECURE, Love of the Past
What's the reason you love me?

"Darling, eat the porridge first. I'm a bribe ya."

Brother Ivan brought the porridge in front of me and began to feed me. I was just silent looking at him making Brother Ivan wonder, "Why dear? Not good, huh?"

"Enak Brother. Thanks to ya."

"Thank you for what? I should be thanking you. Since you're sorry for me and aren't angry anymore, that's what's most important to me."

I took the spoon and then I fed Ivan too. Ivan looked surprised but he seemed happy. We both laughed together at a moment like this.

"Sister, I didn't expect to be Brother's girlfriend. In the past, the first time we knew I hated Big Brother."

"Why?"

"Because Big Brother is angry I continue, the head of OSIS seems to be the same junior. Why am I just angry brother?" I pretended to snack with Brother Ivan.

Then Brother Ivan sat down beside me and said, "Because you are unique. I don't know why I fell in love with you. Right on the day you had Indra's hug at the gate, you remember?"

"Yes, I remember."

"I was jealous to see you two and I started to get attracted to you. I don't understand my own feelings, I just keep thinking about you. Especially when you sing, I always miss you." Brother Ivan smiled considering his silly behavior when he was still in High School.

"Grass monster!! Then, what makes Brother fall in love with this ugly me? Until I fight like this?"

"I don't know, there's no reason to love you, baby, it's all flowing. You're expensive and that's what makes me love you even more."

"Why did you take my first kiss?"

"Because Brother... Is your future husband. Brother will propose to you after you graduate High School."

"What's? Brother kidding?" Astounded.

"Seriously dear. One more semester you graduate and I'll marry you soon. I don't want to continue to sin by dating gini. Even if we never say anything, I'd like to justify you."

"But Brother. I'm going to college first."

"Can be arranged dear, Can go to college after marriage. I don't want anyone to ruin our relationship. I'm so happy that you agree."

"Sister, marriage is no joke. Need careful preparation. My sister is still in college too. What if I get pregnant and we have kids?"

"Good dong we have a baby. That's what I want." Temptation Brother Ivan who even closer his face to my face. I turned away from Brother Ivan's face and pushed his face and said,

"Basic of perverted brains!! No, I disagree. I want Brother to finish college first. I also went to college. After graduation, I just got married."

"Engga. I want to justify you immediately. I want to keep making out with you. You don't have to worry about my college. I'll be graduating soon and you'll be graduating from high school."

I was silent for a moment. I also want to marry young, but the problem is can I be a wife? Especially being a mother. I am still a gini.

I told Brother Ivan that we go through everything, don't be in a hurry. But Ivan remained with his stance. I don't know, I have to discuss this with you.

After that, Ivan talked about Kayla.

"The owner is Kak. But we don't know where Kayla is now."

"I'll find out more about Kayla. You calm down."

"Yes Brother."

"Will you come home now or later?"

"Now it's late afternoon, brother."

"OKAY. Baby, I'll take you home."

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I was also on my way home by motorcycle with Brother Ivan. In the middle of the road from a distance I saw a woman fighting with a man. I don't know who it is because of the position he's in that turns his back on me. He was slapped and left behind by the man who immediately went to his car.

The woman was crying and was about to cross without looking to the right and left. And almost got hit by the car in front of me. I asked Brother Ivan to stop and I got off the bike. Meanwhile, Ivan parked his bike first.

How surprised I was to see that woman. It was Kak Tiara.. God, why is his face so different. I immediately approached her and asked her if she was really Kak Tiara or not. Fear of wrong people.

"Sister,,, Brother Tiara?? This is true, Tiara, isn't it?" My toot.

Then he lifted his head. "Mary.... This is Brother Tiara, help me Mar."

Tiara stood up and hugged me while crying. "Kak Tiara why?"

Tiara didn't answer, she kept crying. Finally Brother Ivan approached us and asked, "Who is that dear?"

"My cousin Brother."

Ivan suggested that Tiara be brought back to my house first. Ivan's brother called someone, I don't know who it was. But not long after that came the luxury car and Kak Ivan took over driving the car. When I asked, he said pinjem had a friend.

I did not ask much more and immediately boarded the car with Kak Tiara in the middle. The three of us were in the car and I was still calming down Tiara, who was crying.

His condition is very concerning. In the past, Kak Tiara was very beautiful and well groomed like a Korean artist. Now her face was dull and her once smooth white skin became pale white unkempt. The long black hair shimmered into a limp and branched.

It is unbelievable, Kak Tiara who is a village flower can be like this his fate. I don't know what happened, I don't know. Because Kak Tiara had not told anything and just cried.

I watched Kak Tiara keep looking at Ivan Kak who was driving. Makes my heart hot as boiling water. Either feeling jealous or what, but why did Kak Tiara look so admiring Kak Ivan. I'm afraid Kak Tiara took Kak Ivan.

Here's how if you have a handsome boyfriend, so the center of attention of people especially women. I realized I shouldn't be jealous because I don't know where the problem is.

Looking at his condition now I'm sure there's a big problem in his household. Let me ask you at home later.

Brother Ivan who was driving saw me from the windshield and smiled sweetly at me. I thought to myself, will Brother Ivan be loyal to me? I continued to fear, afraid that Brother Ivan would betray me. I have to how.?

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