INSECURE, Love of the Past
The Exploding Head Syndrome (EHS)

Flashback 2 years ago.

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaa..........." The screams of a beautiful girl shocked everyone in the house. A couple ran to see the state of the princess only wayangnya.

"Darling, why are you, son? Is your head hurting again? Are you having nightmares?" Ask a middle-aged mother. Even though she is not young, her beauty is still obvious.

"Mom, I heard the sound of a collision. I saw a flash of light and the sound of that scream again. I'm afraid Mom." Said the frightened girl.

"What have you really done, son? Why are you so scared and always seeming anxious?"

"I'm.." Kayla did not continue her conversation. He did not want to tell about his actions that had taken Indra's life. The man who had made her obsessed and desperate to finish Maria off, but instead misdirected.

He was afraid to be punished and preferred to leave Indonesia and live in Paris. He thought he would be free from guilt for Maria, Indra and Ivan if he went far. But it's actually wrong!! The shadow of Indra always comes in every dream, making him more anxious and frightened.

Especially now that Ivan knows the reality when Kayla wrote him a letter and gave him a gift of memories of his time at the airport. He must have read and known the truth. But Kayla was convinced Ivan would not report it to the police.

Suddenly his head was in great pain and it was like there was a sound of a collision heard by him. Kayla held back her dizzy head and it was getting more and more painful until she could no longer hold it. Then he fainted unconscious.

"Kay, why are you Kay?" Her mother panicked and told her husband to rush to start the car and take her to the hospital.

At Kayla Hospital, he was taken to the ER. The nurse and the doctor asked her parents to wait outside. Because you will do the examination first.

Two hours passed..

The doctor came out of the ER and told her what Kayla was going through.

"Dok, how's our son?" Ask the middle-aged man.

"Fathers and mothers have Exploding Head Syndrome or EHS. This is a symptom where the mother's child hears a loud bang in his head. And that makes it difficult to sleep and get enough rest, resulting in the mother's child being exhausted during the day. Mother's son looks very stressed and has excessive anxiety."

"Mother and father can ask him directly the trigger of severe stress and anxiety that excess. The disease is harmless and does not hurt physically, but greatly contributes to insomnia."

"If only it continued like this, the mother's child could not last long. Because this is a rare disease that has not been found a cure. Even in the medical is not yet known with certainty what the cause. Then, excuse me first."

"Yes, thank you doctor for the explanation."

Her mother cried hearing Kayla's current condition. What you have actually done, son.

Her mother was sure, Kayla must have done something out of bounds. Because at that time he insisted on moving to Paris. But her mother did not know what caused Kayla to want to move abroad.

His mother came in and asked Kayla who was crying.

"I'm sorry Maria, I'm sorry Indra. I've separated you both." Kayla murmured in a heart that kept shedding tears on her cheeks.

"aww.. My head hurts a lot." Kayla continued to press her head with both her hands...

His mother approached Kayla and gently rubbed her head. Kayla cried, in her heart she was very sorry to do that. She cried in her mother's arms.

His mother was sure that her beautiful daughter must have made a fatal mistake. But his mother doesn't want to talk about it now.

"Pad's mother, I'm sorry Kayla." That was all Kayla could tell her parents.

His parents were silent. They didn't want Kayla to get stressed out that would threaten her life. So they abandoned their intention to ask Kayla.

End Flashback

* POV Kayla*

I didn't expect that I would have EHS. 2 years I was struggling with this disease. Every time I go to sleep, I hear a loud bang. Whether it was the sound of explosions, the sound of collisions, and people screaming, there was always a flash of light that dazzled the eyes. It makes me unable to close my eyes all night and every day.

To the point that my eye bags turned black and there were a lot of wrinkles underneath. I couldn't continue my studies, because I was always terrified to see Indra's shadow haunting my mind. Just like the horror movies that are plagued by subtle creatures, I became like a madman.

I always have to take sleeping pills so I can sleep peacefully. But taking sleeping pills for long periods of time is certainly not good for my health. I like eating simalakama fruit, this is wrong and wrong.

This is a suggestion in my own subconscious. I feel I can no longer stand the feeling of being haunted by fear.. I'd rather die than live but be tormented. No one wants to be close to me, because all my friends think I'm not sane.

It's sad my fate, Ivan never loved me in the least. He was always cold to me and did not return my feelings. In contrast to his gaze at the girl, Ivan was very gentle with her.

But what are its advantages? That little girl with exotic skin had made Ivan move away from me. I hated him so much at that time. Especially when he boasts of his girlfriend, Indra. Makes me hotter and wants to finish him off.

Without a second thought I told people to hit Maria. And almost succeeded if Indra did not push him, it is certain that the one who will die is Maria, not Indra. Although Indra will not accept my love, but I feel satisfied that Maria died. That means, Ivan will also not be able to pursue his love.

But it turned out that it made me even more tormented, I was always haunted by guilt, fear, anxiety and anxiety. Even I was so stressed when I saw the person who almost got hit. Because when Indra hit, I peeked in the distance. And I was very hysterical at the time.

I was confused and afraid that the police were after me. Luckily they were only focused on Indra's safety and did not discuss the bikers I asked for.

But it doesn't immediately make me feel calm. I became depressed and made me depressed. I've really gone crazy! If this continues, my life is no longer pleasant, but it torments me physically and mentally.

I have decided that I will end my endless suffering. I can no longer and better if I KILL MYSELF to end it all.!!

* POV Kayla End

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