INSECURE, Love of the Past
The true feelings of Daffa

"Lo just bother Al." Replied Ivan looked at Aldi with annoyance.

"It's 8 Van, the more daylight the more jammed later. I'm so lazy if it gets stuck, it's hot." Answer Aldi.

"Yes Mar, now we go yuk." Bring Daffa.

"Yes hayu." My answer.

We left as soon as I locked the door.

Daffa sat next to Kak Aldi, while I was in the middle of the two with Kak Ivan.

Ivan continued to smile and looked at me with a look of love, making me feel ashamed because Daffa even slightly turned towards the two of us.

"Sister, don't look at me.. I'm ashamed." I said to Ivan.

"Why shame on you, baby? There is only me, Daffa and Aldi Doang. Consider us alone again. hehe." Replied Ivan, who was clasping my hand even tighter.

"Damn lu Van.. I'm the same Daffa devil, you don't think!!" Spray Kak Aldi who is still focusing on driving the car.

"Lu doang the demon Al.." Answer Ivan ngasal..

"Udah Brother.. You guys never get along. He said sahabatan, how the hell?" I said to both of them.

"Sorry baby.." Said Brother Ivan.

"Good Mar, you are Ivan's handler. Immediately recite if you say mah." Sambar Aldi again.

Ivan's brother yawned a few times, it seemed like he was exhausted. His head leaned against the window of the car and I saw that Ivan had fallen asleep while holding my hand. It's really sweet brother if you sleep gini again, and I keep looking at his handsome face. I rubbed her cheeks gently and I tidied her front hair that was almost exposed to her eyes.

While Daffa from earlier was only silent a thousand languages, he only glanced at me with a smile. I don't know what was in his mind that clearly Daffa was thinking about something, because from earlier he looked agitated.

* POV Daffa

Honestly, I feel sick seeing Maria being so intimate with Ivan. But I can what? I'm not Maria, I'm just her best friend nothing more. I appreciate Indra so I try to throw away my feelings for her by dating Silvi.

But it turns out Silvi is not as good as I thought, she kissed another man when I went to her house to surprise her, but instead I was surprised by her.

Actually I was eager to refuse when Ivan asked me to help surprise Mary sweet seventeen, but I couldn't see Maria continue to grieve. He was so devastated when he lost Indra, now can I see him slumped again because of my selfishness that refused to help Ivan?

I thought I'd be so mean if I did that to Maria. I was happy enough to be her best friend, and I was also happy to see Maria's joy again when Ivan was around.

I need to be more concerned with Maria's feelings, because I know love doesn't need to have each other. Let this be a secret to myself and only I know that I love you Mary. I will not ruin your happiness with Ivan.

And now I have to do the same with Indra. I should be able to make you happy even through Ivan's intermediary.

I know Ivan loves you so much Mar, Ivan never glanced at another woman more everything than you. Ever since I got close to him, I felt Ivan's nature was almost the same as Indra's. I used to hate him as much as you do, but Ivan can turn things around and now you love him.

Although I know also your heart still holds the name Indra, because I know Indra will not be erased in your heart. The struggle to get you is very difficult, and it is only natural that now you can not replace his position with anyone.

I will always support you and Ivan, I will be behind you so that Maria is always happy. I will not let the incident happen again to Indra. If I had known Kayla was that bad, I would have foiled her plan.

And surely Indra will not experience this, you and Indra will definitely be happy forever. But fate must be like this and I am not strong enough to replace Indra.

As I continued to mutter in my heart, from behind Maria touched my shoulder.

"Daffa, what's wrong with you?" He asked, and I saw Ivan sleeping in the back.

"I'm okay Mar.." I answered while touching her tiny hand. Maria didn't dodge it and smiled at me instead.

"Don't be sad, you broke up with Silvi. I don't want to see you sad about Daffa. You're my best friend who always understood me." Her speech.

"Yes my cute best friend.. I don't want to see you sad. Now that there's Ivan beside you, I hope you two are always happy." Even though my eyes can't lie that I love her.

"Thank you, you are my best friend. I love you so much Daffa. Don't leave me, yeah.. I want you to always be there for me, even if I have Ivan, but I don't want to lose a friend like you." He said, it makes me feel so meaningful.

"Yes Mar, I will not leave you. I promise." I pointed my little finger at her, and Mary smiled and hooked her pinky to my pinky.

As Maria and I looked at each other, Ivan woke up and I became unwell. Mary rested her body beside Ivan. While Aldi who had seen me with Maria was just listening to our conversation, and he seemed to be thinking about something, I saw his expression that was difficult to understand.

"Darling, what are you doing? You're not sleepy?" Ask Ivan.

"No, sister, I talked to Daffa again. Kasian Daffa just broke up from Silvi, I don't want Daffa to be sad." Maria said, and I heard her voice without looking at them.

"My dear is really good.. Daf, you are also now my best friend, I also do not want you to be sad to break up with him. Hopefully you can get a good and sincere girl loving you ya." Ivan. I just looked at him and smiled.

"Yes, I hope Van." Reply lirih.

And it seems Aldi is more sensitive than Ivan, if I keep the taste for Mary. Several times he glanced at me with a look of pity, I don't know if my heart is dead. I feel like I'm not excited to have another girlfriend, let everything go as it should.

Maria, I think it'll always be there whenever I'm just your best friend...

* POV Daffa End*

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