INSECURE, Love of the Past
Love statement

I kept looking at the waterfall on a big rock right. I love the waterfall here, only the first one is as beautiful as this especially the top one must be like the paradise of the world.

Masayallah.. The beauty of God's creation that never existed.

I looked around and there was no little brother, usually a tree decker at the end. Ah failed to eat a peek on the rock while looking at such a beautiful scenery.

I see Indra is also so happy to see the waterfall. I called him to sit next to me, because he said he was going to tell me the same story, what story? I'm being a kepo!!

Indra sat down beside me, he looked at me and said.

"Why Mar? You're not smirk?" Ask Indra whose eyes keep looking forward.

I looked at his face and said, "Yes I'm really happy. Oh yeah, you said you wanted to tell a story, what story?"

Indra took a deep breath, then she looked at me. His gaze was sharp and his attitude was very serious, making me even more curious about what he was going to tell me.

"Mar, I have something to say to you. I've been wanting to talk about this for a long time, but there's not a good time to tell."

I just looked at him, "What are you talking about? By the way."

Indra invited me to stand on that big flat rock, making us face to face. Indra hugged me right in front of the waterfall and whispered "I love you Maria Maharani."

I was silent, shocked by what I just heard. "Huh? Are you kidding me? No way!!"

Indra let go of her embrace and held onto this little chubby cheek of mine.. "I'm serious Mar. I liked you a long time ago, from 7th grade I have harbored this feeling. I can't hold it for too long. A few months later, I know you're going to go to high school, right? I want to enter SMK. That's why I just want you to know how I really feel."

I still can't believe what he's saying.

"So you brought me here to express your feelings?" I asked while looking at Indra's serious face.

"Yes, because you always thought my feelings were just a joke. That's why I forced you to play with me."

"Not that, I'm afraid that I'm just a baper. Then the ceremony that Kia shouted was also true?"

"Yes, I told Kia to tell you that I love you, but she screamed. Then why didn't you respond at all?"

"I thought it was just a joke. You know you like that kind of prank."

"But don't you think you're special to me?"

"I'm also trying to feel like I'm the same way you are, but I'm taking it all off, I'm afraid that I'm just going to GR."

"You're not wrong. I should have told you myself from the beginning that I love you very much. I can't see you sad Mar, my heart hurts when I see you cry. I want you to be happy and see you smile. That's enough for me."

"I don't know how I feel about you. I do feel comfortable right now with you, but don't know what love or the feelings of a friend alone."

"Yes, I understand. Whatever your answer is, I accept it and I will always be there for you. Thanks for listening to me."

"Aren't you asking for the answer now?"

"Well, I want you to think carefully first. I want everything to flow so, we go like normal days. What matters now is that I'm relieved, because you believe that I really love you sincerely."

"Yes, I thought about it tonight. I'll tell you the answer tomorrow."

Indra smiled at me and hugged me again, "We eat yuk."

"Hayu, I'm hungry too."

We went to the shop again to eat because it was time for lunch too. Indra played a song on her phone that seemed to represent her current feelings.

Just want you to know_Republic

It feels beautiful about me

The destruction I hope

You took off my love

Feel eternal

Even if you understand

Even if you understand

I think I misunderstood you

Hoo woo I just want you to know

The magnitude of my love

My imagination is with you

Go through the time left now

In every day of my

At the end of my life's breath..

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The day is getting noon..

The time is 14:05.. I took Indra home because the day began in the afternoon and on the way too far it took an hour to get to the gate.

Indra volunteered to carry me again. Because I know my legs still hurt, but not as sick as before.

"I'm carrying again yeah, you haven't been strong the way far." Indra was getting ready to carry me again.

"But you'll be heavy, I'll walk slowly." I refused Indra's offer, because I felt sorry for her who had carried me from earlier.

"No. Than to hunt the Maghrib. Here I'm carrying again." Indra.

I was carried on his back again, because Indra did not want me to feel more pain. In the middle of the road I asked Indra to rest first. In a moment until the gate was kasian he so sapped, must have been carrying me.

The journey continues. I don't want to be carried by him anymore, fuck him. I tried to walk even though my calf still hurt.

Because of my pacing my legs become cramp pain gini. Not only 1 doang but there are 3 Pacet that again suck my blood. I am really phobic about that beast!! I almost fainted if Indra didn't get it off my leg right then and there.

Indra kept watching my steps, she didn't let me walk alone. Indra balanced her steps so that I did not feel tired because of the speed of her steps.

"Thank you Indra." The words suddenly came out of my mouth. I feel very happy with all the attention Indra gave me.

"Either. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to express my feelings. It makes me feel better and better."

Our eyes looked at each other. A look of hope and a look of happiness that emanated in both of her beautiful eyeballs.

After struggling hard, we finally reached the gate. In front of the gate already looks angkot neatly lined. I boarded the front most angkot which will soon be running because the passengers are full.

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