INSECURE, Love of the Past
Cantika????

I don't know what I'm really feeling. I was so jealous to see Brother Ivan hugging another girl. Did I really love him? I don't know who that woman is, because I didn't see her face. I immediately left when I saw Brother Ivan's hand that hugged the girl's body.

When Ivan was still hugging me, Aldi came to call him from the car. And I saw that there was Daffa, a man I didn't know and that girl.

"Woy.. Van, you're not everywhere friendly mulu.. What do we want now? To Maria's house or to take her to the hospital?" Shouted Brother Aldi, he pointed towards the back bench.

I got in the car and sat in the middle. Brother Ivan whispered to me, "That's Dendi, Sandra's sister." Said Brother Ivan. I just answered "Oohh" and then I saw the people behind me.

When I looked back, how surprised I was to see the girl who was still unconscious.

"Cantika???" I was really surprised to see the face of that girl who turned out to be Cantika, my cousin.

"Darling, you know him?" Ask Brother Ivan.

"He's my cousin Brother, sister Kak Tiara." My answer.

"Huh?? Tiara's in your house?" It seems that Brother Ivan was surprised as well.

"Yes.. We'll take Cantika to my house." My answer. And I saw Dendi as agitated, she didn't say anything.

"Yes, if you go to your house.. Al, we're going to Maria's house." Said Brother Ivan.

"Ready Bosqu.." Answer Aldi.

We also went back to my house. Along the way, Ivan continued to hold my hand while saying the word "Sorry..

"Dear, I'm sorry. I made you sad.."

I don't know how many times Ivan said that phrase.

"Sister, I'm sorry Brother.. Don't keep talking." I answered while releasing his hand.

I felt a pain in my left palm, and when I saw it my palm was scratched. There was blood already draining, I didn't realize it. And as I blew my palm, Brother Ivan asked,

"Why you, baby?" Ask.

"My hands are against Kak, I think they were scratched something when Brother pulled me earlier." My answer.

Brother Ivan saw my injured hand, quite long and deep maybe hit by a pebble or sharp object what I also do not know. Anyway like a knife wound and when the dried blood was cleaned, there was fresh blood coming out of the wound.

And Brother Ivan panicked for mercy.. I grimaced in pain as blood continued to pour from my palm. I don't want Kak Ivan to panic, but not Kak Ivan his name if not more.

Daffa and Aldi asked me why, and I replied that I was only slightly injured.

Brother Ivan looked for the p3k box in his bag, he rubbed the wound on my palm with a cotton swab that had been given alcohol. How pertinent... Nyeessss is so, like,

"God.." My scream.

"Darling, this is your hand why you get hurt gini?" Asked Brother Ivan who was still cleaning the wound very gently.

"I don't know, I also don't realize why my hand could be hurt." I answered while looking at Ivan's brother who was focused on treating my hand. I smiled to see him so attentive to me.

I feel lucky to be between two men who love me so sincerely. Two men who will always be in my heart forever, two men who make me feel that love is beautiful, two men who can never see me sad let alone hurt, two men who were always gentle with me, those two men..

Indra and Ivan

As I kept staring at him and daydreaming, Brother Ivan surprised me.

"Dear, your hands are no longer bleeding." Said Brother Ivan while cleaning the medicine box he had taken.

I fell silent, and continued to look at Brother Ivan's behavior.

"Why baby? Is it still a pain?" Ask.

"No, brother, it's light." My answer.

And Brother Ivan rubbed my cheeks gently,

"I can't see you get hurt like this. I'm sorry for making you misunderstand me and getting you hurt because of me. I'm sorry, dear."

Said Brother Ivan who kept looking at my face fixed, Ivan like he did not care that there was someone else in the car.

I glanced at Dendi who seemed surprised to see the attitude of Brother Ivan. While Daffa and Kak Aldi as usual saw his excessive behavior.

Cantika has not been aware of his stings, while Dendi like already can not bear to support the head of Cantika. Maybe he was tingling or sore, because from earlier his legs did not move.

"So was Brother nolongin Cantika?" I broke the silence.

"Dear, she's Dendi's boyfriend. Isn't that Den?" Ivan looked back.

"Yes, Cantika's my boyfriend." The answer.

And it makes me feel guilty for Ivan. For the umpteenth time I have not believed 100% that Brother Ivan will be faithful forever to me. I was so afraid that Brother Ivan betrayed my love and cheated on me with another woman.

"Darling, why else? I've seen you get restless?" Ask Brother Ivan.

"I .." I was confused as to what to answer.

"Why?" Ask again.

"I'm afraid Brother cheated on another woman." I said, making Daffa and Kak Aldi turn their heads.

"Dar, Mar.. How could Ivan be cheating. Far away from you, he's like a madman!!" Replied Aldi while talking about Kan Ivan.

"Breaked you..!!" Answer Brother Ivan.

"Darling, I've never been attracted to another woman except you. Trust me, you never fear and never think about it again.." Said Brother Ivan who was embracing my body close to him. And now that my head is leaning against Brother Ivan's chest, his right hand rubbing my hair makes me feel comfortable.

"Do you trust me?" Asked Ivan who kissed me on my head.

"Yes, I believe you, brother.. I love you honey.." I raised my head and looked into Kak Ivan's eyes as I said I love you earlier.

"I love u more, my dear.." Answer Brother Ivan. And we both smiled happily.

Without realizing it, Dendi who saw the affection of the two of us at the back like not to like. I don't know why she is, but I glanced at her and saw her upset face clearly. He looked cynical as he looked at me.

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