INSECURE, Love of the Past
A letter of that..

I don't feel like time goes on, I've been dating Ivan for 6 months. I feel so happy because Ivan really kept his promise not to touch me until I was halal for him.

And the cold attitude of Ivan's brother is no more. Even though his warm attitude was just that he showed it to me but it didn't matter to me. Because that means I'm a very special person to him.

This Sunday, Brother Ivan invited me to play at his boarding house. He said there were college assignments piling up and he hasn't done them yet. I agreed because I didn't know Ivan's boarding.

"Darling, I picked you up today. We're playing to my hostel. There's a lot of college work I haven't done, but I miss you." Invite Ivan with his soft-sounding voice over the phone.

"Yes Brother. What time do you want to pick me up?"

"Now baby. I'm leaving right now. Wait for me, my future wife. Moochh." Ivan immediately turned off his phone.

I'm still sticking my phone in my ear but Ivan's sister's phone has been turned off. It turns out that Ivan is very aggressive compared to Indra, our six months together with a lot of differences that I feel. I do not mean to compare between Indra and Ivan because there is no one to compare with Indra.

Right now Indra is just the best lover of my past. Even though I love Ivan, Indra remains in my heart and is irreplaceable. Memories of the immortal Indra in my memory. Ivan also knew that and he was not angry. That's why I love him so much right now.

Everyone has their own unique character. And have their own way to make their partner happy. Likewise with Brother Ivan who has the opposite nature with Indra.

The senses are soft from the beginning and always understand every trait and attitude I show. Also the figure of a man who never demands anything from me. The figure of a man who can resist his lust to not damage his beloved girl.

Brother Ivan who is cold and expressionless little by little can become warm and tender. I was amazed that Brother Ivan, he could put aside his ego and be mature in the face of any excessive spoiled nature of mine. He also always tried to make me smile with his silly behavior. That's not Ivan's character at all.

Tin.. Tin..

The sound of Ivan's motorbike was heard in front of my house. I went out and saw Brother Ivan already at the door. We both say good-bye and mama allowed me to go to the inn with Brother Ivan. Mamah believes the two of us will not do anything out of bounds.

Arriving at Kak Ivan's boarding house, I went inside and Kak Ivan parked his motorbike. Then Ivan went into the room and started to open his laptop.

"Honey, you're sitting on the couch. I'll take this for a minute." Said Brother Ivan while turning on his laptop.

"Yes Brother." I sat on the couch and looked around. I think it's too fancy for a boarding boy. The room is spacious if it is occupied by only one person. And this is also in an elite residential area. Actually, Ivan's brother is a rich man or an ordinary man. I'm starting to think about it.

But my eyes were fixed on a small brown box. 'uh? Isn't that a gift from Kak Kayla yes if I'm not wrong.' I murmured in my heart.

I wonder what Kak Kayla gave Kak Ivan. It seems that it is not important for Ivan because it is stored in any place. Unlike the gift from me that Ivan always brought everywhere and now made the key chain of the motor.

I pretended to roar with stomach pain, "Oh Brother. My stomach hurts so much."

"I think I'm relapsing again. I haven't had breakfast yet." I said as I pretended to grimace in pain and continued to press on my stomach.

"Well, we go to the doctor right now. We'll take the car, I'll give it to a friend first. Here I'm a sling." Brother Ivan bowed his body to carry me. Ah, so remember when I was in Indra's hold..

"Ga nak, I just want to eat. I'm so hungry."

"What do you want to eat? Let Brother buy it now."

"I want to eat chicken porridge, brother. Don't use sweet beans and soy sauce."

"I bought it now, baby. You wait here first, don't go anywhere. I'll just be a minute."

Brother Ivan went out on a motorcycle to buy chicken porridge. I started to approach where the chocolate box was. I looked to the right and to the left, and when I felt safe I took the box and opened it.

There was one Alexander Christie brand black watch and it looks like Brother Ivan never wore it. When I took the clock, under it was a letter. Out of curiosity, I picked it up and read the letter.

Van, I don't know who else to tell. I fear.

Actually, the one who hit Indra was my man. I wanted Mary to disappear from this world. But when my man is about to hit her, her boyfriend comes to Maria's rescue. I want to snatch her boyfriend, because I envy her.

But a few days ago, I saw your eyes on him very differently. You seem to love her very much. What's the advantage on my appeal Van? I love you, but you never respond to me.

Please don't tell anyone about this. Because I was afraid to accept his punishment. And again, I'm going to move abroad without anyone knowing.

I promise, I won't harm Mary again. May you always be happy. Kayla's.

I'm riveted.

I couldn't believe what I was reading and the letter dropped. I felt like my head was so dizzy and I could no longer support this limp body with my legs.

Apparently, it... Is this all Kayla's sister? And Ivan's brother hid it from me. The man I love so much now, didn't tell me this important matter? Why Sis? My heart is very painful. Tears are pouring down my cheeks.

Until finally my eyes became blurred and my head felt very dizzy. The longer the blur, the more fuzzy and dark! I was unconscious.

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