INSECURE, Love of the Past
Meet old friends

"Mar."

I was shocked to hear my name being called. I looked back and saw Kia smiling at me. I barely recognized him because he looked so different. She wears a garment work uniform, thick powder and blushing red lips, more mature than her actual age.

"Kia. Ye? How come it's here?" I still can't believe it, after all this time I just met him again.

"Alhamdulillah Mar, now I live in my father's house again Mar. Thanks to you the same Indra now the father's house belongs to the mother. Aunt Hyurin has also renovated my house and grandmother's house."

"Alhamdulillah Yes. Then we can play often dong."

"Yes, if I'm on vacation, we'll always play. Now I work in a pretty garment to pay for my mom and my sisters. Let's not hold Aunt Hyurin, I'm ashamed of Mar."

"Where is Indra Mar, by the way? There's no way he's not picking you up from school."

Kia's question made me sad again. I unconsciously shed tears, making Kia become confused. "Mar, why suddenly cry gini?"

"Indra's. Indra has no Yes, Indra has left me forever and will not be possible to return." My voice was hoarse, my chest felt tight and as much as possible I held back from crying and stiff. But it's very difficult.

Kia was surprised. "What's? You mean what Mar, Indra is not there. Don't joke dong! Not funny to know."

"I'm serious Kia, Indra is already no he was hit for saving me."

Kia was surprised to hear my words.

"Innalady.. I really didn't expect. I always thought Indra was your true love and soul mate the world afterlife. She's very affectionate and in love with you Mar."

"Yes Kia, Indra is indeed my true love until whenever she is always in my heart." Me and Kia both held back tears.

"When did that happen Mar?"

"I understand how you feel Mar."

We kept chatting here and there telling of the last time we parted. Tells the story of when Kia applied for a job, when I was MOS, even I told Kak Ivan who had 3x expressed his feelings for me but I did not ignore. KIA suggested that I give Ivan a chance if he was a good man like Indra.

Kia says I have to open my heart to a new one. Although I can't forget Indra, but I can't shut myself down. I see Kia's point, she doesn't want me to continue to drag on in grief. He wants me to be as cheerful as ever again, as the Mary he knows.

I invited him to come by the house, but it was almost evening. So Kia refused and promised to meet again if later on holiday. We exchange mobile numbers to make it easy to communicate with each other.

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'Mar, what are you?' Zain

Huh huh? Zain's? How does he know my cell phone number? It must be the Daffa who knows it. I ignored the message..

I'm not an expensive salesman, but I don't want to get too close to a man other than Daffa. I'm traumatized, afraid of fitting in again dear-sad she left me. Indra and Brother Ivan are definitely examples that I have experienced.

Zain seems nice, but I'm not interested in him. He always gets my attention making me an ilfeel. Handsome yet definitely makes someone fall in love. Some people only admire the figure of a handsome man or a beautiful woman.

Comfortable and always giving happiness is what makes a person fall in love. The heart can not be forced, want any handsome man if we do not like it will not like.

'Mar, sorry. Am I bothering you?' Zaina.

I left my phone at the study table and went to bed because I was so sleepy. I lay down and closed my eyes, wishing I had a dream to meet the Indra I love.

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