INSECURE, Love of the Past
End of love story

After the prayer I sat pensively on my bed. I don't know why I feel bad and I feel like something is going to happen. I grabbed my phone and sent a message to Brother Ivan, but after a few minutes there was no reply from him. Ivan ignored my message, what happened? There must be something, my feelings are getting worse.

As I paced back and forth at the desk learning to think about my feelings that were getting worse, my head suddenly felt dizzy. My vision was blurred and I couldn't bear the pain in my head, like being hit by a hammer so many times, it hurt so much. My hands held back to the table in front of me, I was confused when I wanted to ask for help mama but my voice did not come out, I finally threw the canned pencil holder on my study table.

"Cistern.." The sound of the pencil that I threw on the wall rang out loud.

"Gubrakk.." My body collapsed, I was no longer strong and everything went dark..!!

POV Daffa

Today I'm going to see Maria, I haven't been to Maria's house in a long time. Maybe he needs a confiding friend to reduce his sense of boredom a little.

"Assynolajet.. Mar.." I knocked on the door of his house but there was no answer.

"Assynoltomodel.." I tried to tap once again but there was no answer..

Suddenly Mary's voice was behind me.

"Son Daffa? Haven't played here in a long time?"

Said mamah Maria while carrying groceries, it seems from the stall.

"Eh mama, assalamualaikum mah." I smiled and said hello.

"Waalaikumsalam son."

"I want to look at Maria Mah, but from earlier it was not open the door." My speech.

"Eh even though Maria is in the room, try to look into her room."

I followed Mama from behind to Maria's room.

And how surprised we were both when Maria's bedroom door opened, she was already lying on the floor and her belongings were strewn across the floor. Mamah and I panicked, and Mom called an ambulance immediately while I reflexively called Ivan to get here.

Before long the ambulance came and I carried Maria's body.

Arriving at the hospital, Maria immediately entered the ER. Fresh blood flowed from her nose, and my mother and I grew even more frantic as we touched Mary's feet and hands which were as cold as ice. Mom kept crying non-stop, I was confused what to do.

Not long after Ivan, Zain and Kia came to us.

"Why Daf, what happened to Mary?" Ivan was very panicked and could not calm down.

"I don't know Van yet, the doctor hasn't explained anything." My answer.

Soon the doctor came and told us what had happened to Maria.

"Where's my son's doc?" Ask mama Maria.

"Let's come with me to the room, I have something to tell you." That's the only word the doctor said.

Mamah followed the doctor while we were not allowed to know what happened. We were all waiting in front of the ER room.

Moments later she came in tears, I was very worried about what was really going on with Maria. Ivan approached the mama and asked Mary's condition.

"What happened to Maria?" Ask Ivan.

I, Zain and Kia can't wait to hear what my mother is about to say.

"Son Ivan, do you really love Maria?" Ask me suddenly.

"You must be sincere, you must be strong. Mommy, you can't do it either, but it's God's destiny and we can't change it." My words made us all curious.

"Mary why mah?" Ivan asked who was getting panicked at the mamah's words.

"Are you ready to hear this?"

"Ready mah."

"The doctor said to Maria.... Mary cannot be saved.." Mama's crying broke.

"What??" Say us simultaneously.

Bak in a lightning strike in broad daylight, we were all surprised instead of playing. I, Zain, and Kia gaped at the mamah. While Ivan immediately drooped limp on the floor, his gaze was blank.

"Ga maybe, this is all a lie!! Maria must be alive, she can't be staying with me." Ivan went straight to Maria's nursery.

There Maria was already stretched stiff, her face was deathly pale and her body was extremely cold. Me and everyone here are not strong enough to hold back the tears that flow. We all felt so lost to Maria, let alone to her mother and Ivan that it was like losing half of their souls.

Ivan with such a strong sense for Maria, his love was very sincere but destiny was not on their side. It comes to mind the memory of Indra who once left Maria, and now when Maria has risen she leaves Ivan who loves her very sincerely as well.

Why is destiny so cruel? Why are people who love each other so hard to come together? This chest tightness, though Mary is not mine but there is love in this heart for her. He's always been in my heart even though we never had a bond, but this friendship and feeling has made me happy.

Ivan was devastated but whatever happened life had to go on. Although this is difficult for Ivan, but I'm sure Ivan can think clearly and get up again. Me and Zain tried to comfort Ivan, we both tried to reduce his grief. Although I knew this would not work, Zain and I kept trying to comfort him so that Ivan would not get worse.

In the afternoon we delivered Mary's body to her final resting place. Deep sorrow and sorrow accompanied Mary's departure. Even mamah passed out when Maria's body was put into a burrow. So even with Ivan who ceaselessly shed tears that I know he was as strong as possible to remain strong to face this harsh reality.

Happy road Maria.. I don't know what to say anymore, losing you hurt me so much. I'm the one who's nobody to you, I'm the only one you think of as an ordinary friend, and I who's just a moment with you can't forget all about you..

Thank you for everything Maria, you are my best friend..

POV Daffa End

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Assalamualaikum..

Sorry I've been busy lately and haven't had time for a routine up. Actually it is planned to be 110 episodes and will be accelerated from yesterday. But because there is a barrier and can not accelerate the ending so it is only done now.

And I'm sorry if the ending is not as expected because from the beginning it has been planned to be a sad ending. Hopefully friends can take the wisdom of this story, and hopefully friends like the story.

This story is actually a combination of fiction and real story author. There are some things that happen in real life. If there are criticisms and suggestions, please comment yes friends let me revise later.

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