If Tomorrow Is Coming
Ch 68-Situation

The afternoon came, our school was finished.

I went to the Kuki dormitory first before coming to the restaurant. Sure, with Rion

I've been seeing Kuki since Rion expressed her feelings, because Kuki's dormitory is far away

I always told Kuki that things were fine, so he could focus on school as usual

I no longer want to think I'm living with trials. I'm tired enough of a brain that keeps working

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Pamit with a cookie, and leave her dorm.

Rion and I went to the promised place. A popular restaurant that just opened a new branch

We took the fastest route to get to the restaurant. Because we're a few minutes late

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On the way there, we got off the bike and went inside. Kenzo and Lily were at his desk waiting for us.

We went to that table. Call the waiter and order some of the ones on the menu.

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While waiting for the order to come, we chatted a lot of things that I missed.

"I've missed a lot of things" my inner self

Food and drink arrived. It was placed on our table neatly

We started to eat it. Quietly, and a little talk.

It all ran out quickly

:"Oh yes, by the way Hanabi. How's Kuki doing?" Ask Kenzo

:"Maybe I should take her to a psychologist. I think he's still depressed about the incident" I replied

:"Yes.if that's the only way. At least Kuki only knows the story, not directly experience it" continued Lily

:"Will it get worse if it happens to him too, right?" kenzo Sauth

:"You're right. I will always be there when you need to. So do not hesitate to call me always" said Rion encouraged

:"Thank you all" I replied with a smile

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Finished with all the chatter, we all went home after saying goodbye.

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At home, I put my shoes on and walked to my room as usual.

Mumbled

:"Looks like I have to regulate my brain as well, it's good if I'm a forgetful"

:"You're home? want to nyemil no? I brought a lot of snacks" said the father who suddenly came to approach

:"Eh? Daddyh. I'm home"

:"yeah. Are you tired?"

:"Lumayan, but I want some snacks. Can you?"

:"Of course, let's take it. It's in the family room"

:"Thank you Dad"

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:"Mother, Hanabi came home" I said.

Looking at my silent mother like a statue on the sofa. Who doesn't want to see it?

:"What is your condition that has not improved? my condition is the same. And it's becoming more and more. Mom, mom told me to keep control with the doctor. But you yourself are a depressed statue." I said while picking up a snack at the table

:"I don't like this kind of sight. Don't you feel sorry for Dad? We just had fun a few months before. What results will I get for the family to continue to end the same? Dad must be tired of this too" I continued

:"I'm trying to get things back to normal. Trying" replied Mother in a slow tone

:"Better for a consultation in the near future. I can keep stressing when I see Mom's condition like this"

:"I understand. I. I understand."

Mom suddenly cried there. Makes me feel guilty for all the words I say.

:"Sorry, I also want to go back to normal"

Families with clearly visible selfishness. I won't know the end of this family story. Because there is no reason to avoid that we have successive shortages

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I went back to my room and locked the door.

Everything doesn't mean anything to me. Even if that happiness comes back, the flow of life I live in must also be repeated

It kept spinning and never stopped on the path I wanted.

:"Can I just be calm for a day? what I don't like always comes after I laugh a lot."

I have a lot of complaints. From how I survived and what I did.

I keep wondering why things never feel right.

If others involve God, then I will only involve my own thoughts.

People have many ways to get them out of misery. But many of them don't get it that way.

I am also tired of accepting that I am so weak. Even I couldn't stand up after a small problem happened.

All I see from them is how they can live. That's why I'm starting over

:"Silly if I expect what I don't want to get"

I was crying in my bed.

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I couldn't stop crying after that. I just looked in the mirror in front of my bed. Looking at the window beside my tightly locked bed.

And take a breath.

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Hey, who keeps chiding maki? I said I'd stop. That's what I promised myself

In fact, I can't stop pretending.

And finally I have to show all the bad that I have.

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:"When will it all end??" Mumbles

I'm really disappointed. Why I couldn't die at that time. But that's the only chance it's gonna work.

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The morning after all the useless cries.

I was just getting ready as usual to go to school.

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Unlock, and get out of my room.

I saw Father and Mother sitting on the living room couch.

Passed them into the kitchen and took some food at the table for me to stock up on.

Take a drink and put it all in my bag.

I put my shoes on at the door and say goodbye.

:"Hanabi, I made macaroni cheese. I hope you'll eat this"

Suddenly I was surprised. It never happened again after that.

:"Thanks ma'am.."

I took it and put it in my bag. Motor horns are heard in front of the house

:"ah! Rion picked me up. Daddy Mom. I'm saying goodbye"

:"Be careful dear" said Mother

:"Be careful on the road" continued Dad

:"Yes, we'll excuse you" replied Rion

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When we arrived at school, we went to our class and talked.

:"Oh, is your mother recovering?" Ask Rion

I can guess that. Because the difference is so clear. I'm still surprised by this

:"I don't know for sure. After last night's conversation, but if you recover. It's better for me" I answered

:"Truly so. I'm just a little surprised. The change is pretty quick too"

:"It takes time to serve it. Maybe everyone's depressed like that"

:"Your mother is depressed?"

:"Most likely. After all his trauma and fear of the old man was obvious."

:"I just hope there will be better things going forward"

:"Yes, I am too. Everyone wants it"

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Bell rings. Marking the first lesson hours starting.

~Ch 68 finish~

Sankyu!