If Tomorrow Is Coming
Ch 66-Go and death

This is my first time.

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:"HUH?!"

:"I HOPE YOU CAN STAY WITH ME!!!"

:"oy oy oy.."

I felt so ashamed, I wanted to escape from this reality

He never thought it would be this embarrassing? or is he used to being embarrassing like this? I no longer understand his way of thinking

:"I LOVE YOU" Then again in a loud voice

ENOUGH, I'm so embarrassed!

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:"WHAT THE FUCK, IF YOU LIKE TO SAY DIRECTLY" I GRUMBLED

:"Well, you're not sensitive either"

:"It can be revealed directly!"

:"I want a cool way"

:"That's not cool!!"

:"So? you don't want to start with me? papa I don't know"

Rion's face is getting cute. He looks like a whining kitten

:"Not so, I never thought I'd relate to more than just friends. I've never dated"

:"HEH?! never been?"

:"Yes"

His response did not surprise me, many men were surprised about it too. Of course, never, and always refuse. Because from the beginning I didn't like that kind of relationship either

:"You know? I can reject you outright, but I have the same feelings for you. But still, I can't start"

:"We start with pdkt only, we remain friends"

His gloomy smile. Makes me unbearable

:"Don't make a face like that. You made me think 2 times"

:"Hahaha, all right. I don't want to force you. So, are you going on a date with me?"

:"Sure"

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The panic that lingers in the mind instantly disappears after all the dialogue is spoken. Heart feels safe. But also anxious.

Many people should understand if they have a problem with something related to romance. Either because of their divorced family past, or their own relationship

I'm one of them. I'm afraid things that happened to my family happened to me too. It was used to being beaten, but my life is now improving. I don't want to create new destruction

While I have much to sacrifice for the tranquility of my own soul

But all that fear can surely disappear if you have someone as a solitaire as well. Even if only temporarily

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:"Where are you going first?" Ask Rion

:"Want to that popular restaurant? I want to try the menu there"

:"All right, I'll treat you"

:"No need, I brought my own wallet"

:"How mandirinya?" Rion smiled happily

We went by taxi. The other friends? they still have fun at the festival. Because the festival is getting better

Maybe Rion knows enough karelterlu easily bored? I don't know

:"By the way, Rion. What makes you like me to the best of her?"

:"What? because you. I don't seem worthy of seeing the physical. But you're sincerely helping me. It makes me interested in you"

:"And unconsciously you like me. Haha, looks like we're in the same position"

:"Oh yes? hahaha good then"

Talk about this that. We went to a popular restaurant this year.

We got out of the car and went into the restaurant

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:"Welcome miss, sir" Welcome the service there

What's name? I don't know. Waiters may

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We ordered the best food and drinks here. Want to try it one by one

Before long, our order arrived. Rion tuned a video on his phone, and showed it to me

:"Hey Hanabi, watch this video. I really like the story" he said, handing over his cell phone

The video is a romance. It was like a series of school children who were in their prime

The video is like this

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"WOY CUP. Don't worry, you alone can only doang. Gini man very dah haha"

"What's up, so the boy's not clear bet"

"Wouldn't help us? hahaha"

A girl came to the class making a fuss. The girl asked what was going on and tried to calm both sides

Then, the girl approached the bully victim and whispered something.

The man shed his tears and hugged the girl

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:"Well, I don't think I got here"

:"justable? I forced myself to watch it until the ending. It's like flashback"

:"Haha you're right. But here I am haha's victim"

:"So much as I am"

Our conversation turned into telling each other stories in the past. Sure, while enjoying the food and smiling in relief.

By word

"I was finally in a place where I felt comfortable and free. Although the problem remains here, but this is better than in the past"

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Some time, we were together a lot, dating

We haven't chosen a relationship. No, I haven't chosen a relationship as a lover.

Rion was ready to wait a long time, he said

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We're still friends. Without another status

But in my heart, the bad feeling and the bad stuff continued to exist. I believed myself that I could not afford it, because I also hated the relationship

I believed myself many times that I needed nothing more than trust and comfort. No need to change a relationship into anything

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A big mistake.

I remember Ley the other day. After a month of not answering Rion's feelings

Ley whispered something in my memory.

:"Hey, if you're going to marry someone else, then you have to love her first. He really loved her before he decided to get married. Hehe"

And it made me think a lot about how I feel right now. What I feel about Rion

Because I've never felt that way, I'm really confused

Rion picked me up as usual, we went to school together

Yep. I'm going in again. Embarrassing, but in fact at home I was just tormented by silence

Little has changed from my family. Maybe even worse?

I hate to say it but if I interrupt my own words, it doesn't feel logical

Again and again. Even though I am happy, my desire to die is getting bigger. That's why I've always doubted this kind of thing

...ΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩ...

Sunday has arrived. I refused Rion's invitation, sent him a letter and I left the house. I don't know where to go

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This trip was not long, I arrived at a place where there were not many residents there. Not near my house, but not far

A place where I can jump and not because of its really creepy height

I'm sober. Because I was scared

:"What am I doing? it's annoying if I know I can't anymore. Stop thinking weird and let's go home"

I'm trying to finish this alone

Everything will change, regrets will continue to be in the mind. Even when giving up the future can be seen, but hope will disappear.

Bad words will always make me feel like there is nothing useful. Death can come near at any time. Fear is in the body

The loss of all things that are liked, they will disappear once we start to go high.

Hatred will unravel with clarity the way of life. Everything will be destroyed

The coveted things will no longer materialize, nor do they need to really care. The world is special, but cruel.

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After that, my legs stepped and my body fell down there.

~Ch 66 finish~

Sankyu!