If Tomorrow Is Coming
Ch 59-Tear sound

How are you doing?

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Still at the same time. I started crying.

Scared, anxious, deserted. Empty hit in a body. Feels weak as if dying to die.

my crying was heavy, but inaudible. I bit my hand until the pain was lost to the contents of my mind that erupted.

All words must be reflected. It's just that not everyone is listening.

:"The longer the more tired. Want to die, can be calmer" I muttered.

Many people around me continue to complain because I always say I want to die in any situation, while I just thought it was the best and truest thing for me to be free from the dark world.

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The early story of this little boy who had grown into a teenage girl, began to break his sheets

:"Must control.. Must be repaired again. Everything"

Then that self bun*h plan started to pop into my mind again.

NEED IMMEDIATE ASSISTANCE. Shouted in my heart

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Can't, can't be more than this...

I tried to get up, my body was limp. Shakelessness. Running away and hearing nothing.

I tried to walk to the door of the room. I want to open it. Really want to get help. Because I'm so scared to be in this place. More scared than anything..

Keep looking and looking. Several times bumped into annoying things.study chair, desk. Even hit by the wall of the room.

I managed to find him. But where's the hilt?

I can't see anything. All I could see was pitch black. Did I faint? no, I'm obviously aware.

I opened the door too soon, suddenly unconscious and I don't know what happened.

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I'm up.

Although still running away, and can't hear anything. One thing was clearly in front of me.

:"Ley here ahh!!!"

:"Hanabbi! dong, tired of me"

:"Who told you to run?! you mahh"

Apparently dreams.

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:"Hanabi, are you really going to die? darling loh. I can't play with me anymore"

:"Our father, I'm happy. That's enough for me, I'm tired anyway"

:"But not now. Let's see what happens tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow or the next month"

:"I am waiting for the miracle of Leyy!! too late!"

:"But your destiny is not here! it doesn't end here!"

:"Yes, yes, but if this continues I can get a sauce."

:"There is me, who will make you not feel tired!"

:"Hehe, thanks Leyy"

:"This is a hugger"

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It's very harmonious, so envious.

What the fuck? why show the past. All of this I want to forget. Even the happy thing.

When will I wake up? I don't want to see it.

:"Hanabi, if there's anything, look at me. You do not feel alone in the world. We have one server. We're the same"

Stoptalking.

:"Hanabee!! I want to be your best friend.. Don't frown, let's play together"

Please stop..

:"Hanabi, greetings. I'm Kenzo. I guess you never rest, alone. Here, I bought some bread with another snack. We eat together"

Justjust please..

:"I'm Rion. Going to the library together?"

No. I don't want to go anywhere. I want to die..

:"Hanabbi! we're right here!"

I-i know..

:"Hanabi, don't dong! We're right here. Just story"

:"Your talents are many yes, dear if such as your dreams die. Though many people want to be you, spirit dong"

Wh why??

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Huh! whatwasthat?

:"Hanabbi! you finally realized son"

Mom hugged me tight.

:"Thank God you're okay, son. I'm surprised.."

:"You're not papa? this is brother buy food, you eat first. It's afternoon"

:"He wants to eat first, I brought you warm water"

This attention exceeds the limit.

What the hell am I doing? I want to thank you but they still look like bad guys..

I'm afraid to see people. Even the good people close to me..

That fear can't easily go out of my mind. Everything's creepy.

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:"Thank you.."

:"This, eat first. Brother buy the food you like"

:"Hanabi no, appetite.."

:"Do you want to drink water first?? your throat's dry"

:"Yes dad, Hanabi's gonna have a drink.."

Have you ever tired of seeing someone's story that's all it is? The appreciation they get also remains the same. A word of spirit that is not lost but also still disappears.

I always see it, and I'm sick of it.

Do you know this song?

"She said love as deep as the ocean, our real lie ends too. Sickened"

Should've known. I just know some of those lyrics, I don't know more. Probably from the same song

"Is it an incurable pain? haven't healed yet stabbed again. Sickened"

It was often heard wherever I was, until I completely memorized the lyrics and meaning.

Fortunately, I took meaning from a mental point of view. Not romance.

Not too much trouble. But listening to that song constantly makes me feel upset. Because, what are they thinking?! what happened to them until the song they listened to?!

Because I never really fit the meaning of that song. So I'm upset because I didn't have as bad luck as them

Fed up with everything and ended up being advised but instead made my mind more and more. That's why I hate everyone.

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I eat without lust. Eat a little and then drink and sleep in a hospital bed.

I really want to fall asleep and not wake up again.

Ahhe.. Maybe it doesn't matter if the fantasy is combined with the reality, I'm sure it's better.

Maybe it will be more disappointed, but because it is mixed with fantasy, everything will look fine.

Right, why not?

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After 4 days I was in the hospital, then went to the psychologist and took control again.

Again and again. And my life started to side with me again.

It's all quiet again, but I don't want to be happy about it

I really try to change. No longer want to feel relieved.

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:"Next week come again yes, later we play truth or dare again"

:"For a long time bored if you just give the same challenge"

:"All right, I'll change the challenge"

:"I can't believe it. Have a good day"

Then I closed the door to the psychologist's room.

Not very smooth, but because it was made with games, I became more rilex than usual. Plus, I was given chocolate and cheese for free~

What was? change in the world happens often. There is no harm in complaining and feeling that nothing will change. Because basically humans will continue to change their attitude, body, and even character as time goes on.

Really, there is no need to fear the future. After all, you also cannot regret life after seeing success, right? good luck's.

~Ch 59 finish~

Sankyu!