If Tomorrow Is Coming
Ch 62 - Lose in everything

Long time ago, before I knew Lily and the others. The 1st grade SMP.

I have a friend. The only one, and the one who understands the most about his religion

We have been separated for a long time. Because there's been no more communication since he moved away from here

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Flashbacks

My best friend is a pretty, cute girl. With her hair straight and neatly decomposed

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He said by phone that he would move 2 hearts again. And far from here.

We played the day before he actually moved on, and came home with a face hoping that we would meet someday

But everything started to get random

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It's been a long time since he moved. Lily came to me. It was like someone was replacing him.

We are still telling each other in the chat, normal like the beginning

But after I entered High School, when I was really preoccupied with activities and chats. He posted his new best friend in status. No problem

I'm glad he has a place besides me to say hello.

And so it continues all day. Until I realized that I was a little afraid that he would leave me because of this guy.

Fortunately. If that happens, I'm ready for all the decisions. And I also have 2 friends now. Not just 1 as before.

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1 Year has been gone

In the 2nd grade of Junior High, I became more and more familiar with Lily. And sometimes play with Kenzo

"I have them too, like you" My inner self.

But before long, he instead said that I was just busy with the new one and forgot about it. While a few days before her when I wanted to start a chat in chat, she was angry not knowing why. Scared me to start a conversation again

That day everything was explained at length. Not as a quarrelsome friend, but as a stranger. Just a stranger. As of now

And we never communicate again. Everything is over after it happens.

Flashback off

We slowly disappeared. No longer assume that everything exists

Delete each other's numbers and expatriate later on

Lost in time

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Meet me with the best school in my city. Dream academy's.

Meet lots of fun new people. Activities and events that make the heart feel happy are not stopped

Meet Rion, someone I initially thought Ley was the world's favorite

Read together in the library and chat happily

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But it all seems like it's going to end quickly. As usual

What would happen if the past would always come and give the same fate? Maybe it's all gone.

I'm not sure everyone's really going to be able to deal with all that. Doesn't it?

Because I'm the same. That fear will always stick in my mind.

...ΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩ...

Still in a coma. Brother's body is getting thinner and brother's face looks pale. It's been over a week. When will he realize?

From the beginning, the mother more often locked herself in her room after a fight with the father. And the brother who accompanied me in my room

Full of pity maybe. Our lives were completely destroyed overtime by then

But our souls are completely destroyed, we are getting weaker and less good at anything. Closer than. With our haunting trauma

I'm guessing, maybe brother is also afraid of every father from another family. Perhaps it should have been obvious since even he rarely went into the principal's room which was a father as well

I found out from the seniors, they were talking about brother in the back. "That Shi Shahiro, isn't he overreacting? even the headmaster who was a father alone he was always afraid of meeting him"

:"What do you know? I don't even know much about my brother's problems with my own father." My inner

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About like that.

I don't know what else to do now. The brother who was lying in the hospital bed. I don't want to play with my friends.

Maybe tomorrow I will experiment again.

It does not rule out the possibility that the destruction will be immediately visible in our lives now

Even the events that have passed are still clearly visible in my eyes.

Several times I went to the prison where the old man was being held, scolding him and sometimes having a conversation in person.

"Deep talk" the people said

I always ask the truth why, why is he like that?

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5 Days ago, I went to the prison where the old man was being held.

Prison for life without any freedom to see the outside world.

:"I want to meet the gagar master, may I come in?"

:"Who and purpose?"

:"Hanabi yuki, as a lawyer"

:"Lawyer? how old are you, miss?"

:"Well, I don't know what I came here for, but I have a lot to ask my ex-father"

:"You can wait in-"

:"May I come directly to the cell? I'm an ex-prisoner, so my safety doesn't need you to worry"

:"No, not so miss. You're not allowed-"

:"Let him in for a moment"

:"Captain?"

:"I'm his father now, I trust him"

:"20 minutes for you, lady, let me take you to the cell"

:"Thank you very much sir" I smiled

:"I also have to thank you, sorry for my disrespect"

:"No problem, hurry up. I'm sure you want to know the cause, right?"

:"Surely, thank you very much for everything, father"

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Arriving at the cell, I told the old man to sit quietly.

:"Your arms are not healed yet?"

:"Not healed what do you mean?! my arm is broken because of you! it took years for this bone to become tight again!"

:"Relax, if you were still a father, I wouldn't do it"

He just kept quiet

:"What did you come here for? if you even hate seeing me" he asked

:"That's exactly what I'm confused about. It still feels strange because my daily life now there has never been a curse and a blow from you. But suddenly seeing you come and destroy an entire house, feels like an unchanging habit"

:"Why then? you're here to ask me something complicated? huh uh?!"

:"Not complicated. I just want to know, what do you see mom as? until you marry her and give birth to 3 children"

:"I love him, what else?"

:"Why then, after we were present, did you become enemies?"

:"Hey, your mother was. She was more successful than me! I am ashamed of my own income! I quit my job and took all the money."

:"You envious? to your own wife? uhhhh..."

For a few moments, no one said anything at all

:"I know I crossed the line. It doesn't matter if I'm still considered your father or not, it's just. Shahiro has a lot of talent. So are you. And cookies, he's still very small. But it's very clever. I how are you?"

:"What's so heavy for you? accept the fact that you're no better than the rest of the family"

:"It's not like that. You guys are very educated. Compared dad. So I thought, it's better to give up my responsibilities as a father and let you be free from injustice"

:"Thank you for your kind thoughts. I don't have a problem with your decision whatsoever it is. But can you and mom communicate well? you hurt my brother, he's in a coma and hasn't been conscious until now. What are you gonna give me as a guarantee he's gonna live?"

:"My life. I am also tired of destroying the family that I once loved so much. I'm sorry I ruined everything."

His eyes I can no longer believe. Her father's side I'm seeing now. Wh why?

~ch 62 finish~

Sankyu!