If Tomorrow Is Coming
Ch 21-A burning envy

eh? were they ever this happy when they were with me? I never saw their faces like that.

why do I feel jealous to see them? I am also a friend of theirs, they are not strangers.

eh? am I really considered a friend? or am I just a barrier to them? what am I thinking! didn't I enjoy this day so much? why does my mood change so drastically!

I'm sick of it because it keeps repeating itself every day.

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:"hanabi, we've already arrived" said Hanabi's mother put the tray

:"thank you ma'am!" hanabi answered, looking at the food

:"heh. when I thought it was just an ordinary croissant, it looks delicious" said Hanabi who was a little surprised

they ate together at the cafe.

the afternoon changed, and now they were in their home.

:"it's cold in the afternoon!" hanabi murmured just finished the shower

hanabi did not care much about him and wore a hoodie outfit that he liked the most

:"hoodie is comfortable to wear" said hanabi who felt calm

:"I want to eat bread again" inner hanabi

*Hanabi finally came out of her room, went down the stairs, and headed to the kitchen.

:"mom... Fresh bread still no??" hanabi asked in the kitchen

:"the bargaining bread is in the closet above Sana hanabi!" his mother answered in the living room

:"ohh okay, thanks mom" said hanabi again

*hanabi opened the kitchen cabinet above her.

*hanabi took a packet of bread and opened it, took 4 loaves of bread and tied the packet back

:"what will I make with these breads..?" hanabi thought about it.

simply by thinking about what to make, hanabi makes 4 different kinds of sandwich.

after finishing hanabi put her food on the table and take cold water in the refrigerator.

hanabi placed the cold water on the table and picked up the glass and poured the cold water into the glass.

hanabi sat down on the chair and started eating her bread.

detailed, and complicated.

:"why am I jealous of such a stupid thing? though I was very happy" inner hanabi who thought about the incident last afternoon while eating her bread.

:"wah.I got my own confusion.." inner hanabi again.

:"tomorrow saturday.last week.." inner hanabi.

:"him right, I want to continue eating" inner hanabi again

finished eating, Hanabi washed her former meal and returned to her room.

:"aaakkhh. when is Monday" said Hanabi who slept in her bed.

:"tomorrow saturday right? last week" said hanabi speaking alone

:"the ceiling was getting dark. It was strange if I spoke to the sky at any time" inner hanabi looked towards the large window in her room.

:"but I really want to talk a lot.I don't know who to talk to" inner hanabi stared at her bedroom ceiling (roof?)

:"they were both busy (lily and kenzo), while she also still had to practice for the music festival (rion)" inner hanabi

:"well.want to mat*" inner hanabi.

:"gagaga!! don't think about it anymore!" said hanabi patting her own cheeks

:"what was I thinking earlier" inner hanabi patted her forehead

a saturday.

*tok tock! the door was knocked from the outside

:"hanabi, can you please open the front door?" hanabi's mom said in the kitchen

:"yes ma'am" replied hanabi down the stairs

*hanabi walked towards the front door and opened the door.

*cklek, the sound of doors opening

:"uh? you guys" said Hanabi looking at rion, lily, and kenzo at the door

:"who is hanabi??" asked her mother a little scream in the kitchen

:"this is my friends mom!!" hanabi replied a little shouting as well

:"come in" said Hanabi, please enter

:"excuse me" said the three of them into the hanabi house

:"oh! these are flowers for you! have you gone off?" said Lily handed over a medium-sized flower bucket to hanabi

:"I thought this was for seniors.." Inner hanabi looked at the rose.

*hanabi smelled the scent of the flower and slowly felt calm again

:"thank you very much for the flowers" Hanabi replied again to Lily

:"same-sama!" lily smiled happily

they also chatted in the guest room while eating a lot of light snacks that Kenzo had brought.

:"where did you buy this? it's delicious!" ask Hanabi to take some snacks

:"oh this, sir haru really likes snacks including dessert and snacks like this. happens to take me to the cake shop subscription! so I bought all of this" Kenzo replied

:"deservedly this is all sweet food, this is dessert" said rion no wonder

:"you should have said that from the beginning! we can make hot chocolate first!" lily said whining

:"that's right, but it's going to be really good with hot chocolate" Hanabi continued

:"yes yes sorryf~ later if we gather together again I invite you there deehh" said kenzo

:"jeeeyy!!" answer them simultaneously

it's weird that I said I was still lonely.

like not seeing those who were right in front of me. talking and laughing.

I feel like I'm having a hallucination.

I still feel lonely and empty.

I still feel inferior to all of them.

I still feel far away from them all.

I'd really been gil* if I knew that they loved me.

I want to mat* only. I'm really fed up with being like this all the time.

I realized that I was wearing my mask, and it pissed me off.

can I say this time? that I want to sleep quietly?

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:"god! I make hot chocolate as you want it" said Hanabi's mother put 4 cups of hot chocolate on the table

:"thank you bi" replied lion lowered his head

:"thank you mamaaa" replied kenzo and lily together

:"sama-sama" said Hanabi's mother smiling

*mother hanabi saw a glimpse of her child who was daydreaming

:"hanabi, would you like to eat the bread that I didn't make?" hanabi's mother asked hanabi.

:"uh? what bread?" hanabi asked her mother

:"the bread of the sausage, I happen to make 6 loaves of bread, can be divided into your cement as well" replied his mother

:"momma! thanks a lot!" hanabi smiled again

:"then you take the bread first" said Hanabi's mother pointing to the kitchen

:"want hanabi help ma'am?" ask hanabi

:"do not do it, you talk again with your friends again.Yes you already took the bread first in the oven, it was like" replied his mother who walked towards the kitchen

:"thank you ma'am!" hanabi said thank you again

a few minutes later..

:"be careful still hot, this is your own bread made by mother" said mother hanabi put a plate containing 6 loaves of bread.

:"thank you very much!" answer them together

:"sama, let's try it on a tasting, delicious or not" said Hanabi's mother

:"yes ma'am!" answer them again together

they enjoy the mother hanabi's bread and give it a high rating

:"this is delicious!"

:"hmmm his bread is soft!"

:"that's a lot more!"

:"in pakein chili sauce is also suitable"

all the compliments on Hanabi's mom

but the most important thing for him, is to see his son who does not look moody anymore.it makes him very very very very happy

because we love him, we will be happy to see him smile

~ch21 finish~