If Tomorrow Is Coming
Ch 53-Dreams, not me

The same night, and at the same time

With me trying to fight my head

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1 Or 2 words will surely ring in your head.what else if you think it's special

Hope is seen everywhere

Opportunity arises wherever you are

While anxiety sticks to you without pause.

Who's sick of it? I'm one of them. Anything else? let's raise our hands! we give up together.

I don't know what upset me, I'm still thinking about it. Even emptiness also made me wonder, and it always was

All right, let's make a world drama

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On this dark night, I cried under the window, calming my grief. Anxious and afraid

I buried myself so far. I left him again

My mind kept saying "Die" over and over again

It's shaking all over, and it's messed up.

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I went to my bed, I used to dream about someone who was nice*ng himself, right? Yep. I'll do that too

Look around for where the rope is, until I find it

I went to my window and tied the rope to its upper handle. Or whatever it is in the form of wood

Not finished with that, Suddenly the voice of someone who was running sounded clearly in my ear, like he was heading towards me

I quickly strangled myself, but the bond was less tight. In the end, I fell down and everything went dark.

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:"I did it?!"

:"HAHA... I MANAGED TO MAT*?!"

:"HAHAHAHAHAH"

With the excitement of my dancing, I don't care what the rest will be like. I was very happy with my death

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It's starting to feel lonely. Whatisthis? not as good as I thought. I want to live again.

I was bored, very bored. I feel like crying.

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Suddenly there was a hand holding my shoulder, I looked back and Ley was right behind me

:"Ley??"

:"It's me, Hanabi, I want to play with you again! it's been a long time"

:"Yes! let's play together like we used to"

We play chess. Ley lost, then we played a chase after

:"Ahh tired, Hanabi stop"

:"Hahahah! you really can't beat me in a run!"

:"Because you're too fast!"

:"Is that so?? I don't think so" My Ejek

:"Ahh, whatever. Let's just sit down, I'm exhausted"

:"Key"

A memory appeared in my head.

:"Hanabis? you all right?"

Unable to respond. Then Ley suddenly disappeared somewhere. While I'm looking at the times when Ley's gone.

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Who wouldn't cry like this? it's annoying to see the people you love no longer exist in the world.

It ends with me seeing myself trying to bun*h myself many times, and seeing myself who used to love breaking down my long, silky hair.

:"Ahh, the comparison is that our hair is now different. You're long, I'm short"

With ease I want to get what I can. And then leave a lot of things

:"You, you look like me?"

:"Idiot, you are me. I'm ya you"

:"So you're me? I don't like your hairstyle"

:"Whisper, you will also cut the good hair later"

:"You're the future?"

:"I'm sure you're the future. You're bigger than me"

:"That's just raga! you should be aware too"

:"Yes, I know. But at least I'm happy I can grow up to that size even though no one is happy in my world" he smiled broadly

I just fell silent. Start thinking clearly as it seems

Those words, I also just realized that it is true as it is

:"Oh, I'm asking for the future. Because I said something"

:"Do not call me the future, or I will call you the past"

:"All right, it won't"

:"So?" I waited

:"If you know your destiny, don't change it. Tired of it"

Surprised, then silent again.

:"Why are you saying that again?!"

:"I'm sorry, I'm still tired of you" she said with a smile

Well, it's only natural for me because I'm tired of this body and mind.

But why do I have to say it again, when I just try to calm down and fix things.

:"Do you still want to be a fugitive?" Ask

:"No, I already felt it"

:"REALLY?! HOW'S IT FEEL?!"

She was excited, she was really me in my childhood. Always interested in the underworld.

:"What? I'm not gonna answer that's fun. In fact, it's very boring."

:"What? how come?? TV news and movies.."

:"I'm not really a fugitive, because I don't torture innocent people, but "Dad""

He just fell silent. No more talking and just bowing his head

Disappointment between the two of us. Really disappointed

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I woke up, although it was still difficult to open my eyes, I remained conscious.

I could hear someone talking next to me

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I don't remember anything. Starting from what happened until everything became like this, or why and how can I be like this.

I heard them talking, in a slow tone. But it sounds clear in my ears

While it's hard to see, I'm just trying to open my eyes to the point of not focusing on their conversation

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Maybe time has passed quickly

I could slowly return to see this gloomy world, my eyes were already opened. But unfortunately, I was in the hospital. And I hate that right away

Trying to whine for home, even though he said I could only return 2 days after awakening

I kept whining until I finally gave up.

I asked to buy a tattoo of children who with water alone can stick. Plus it's durable too, if you're tired of staying rubbed with water until it's completely clean

Shahiro's brother just asked me, and then he went to get the tattoo I asked for

Whahuh? I do want to look like a hoodlum or a super fugitive. I always dreamed of myself like that. Though full of evil, I am satisfied

I know schools aren't allowed to use tattoos, but I'm good at hiding that

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:"You want to help?"

Yeah, I'm busy with that tattoo. Many fail because of what

:"Please help, I want this hand to be full" I replied

:"All right, here"

Brother Shahiro helped me with that

And the result was pretty good for me, I'm satisfied. Plus, I like unique pictures

:"This symbolizes me"

:"No buying everything that's available, you can wear it again if it's erased"

:"Thank you very much!!" Answer me with pleasure

It's good, really. I liked her

But somehow it feels worse.

Maybe it's better not to..

~Ch 53 finish~

Sankyu!