If Tomorrow Is Coming
Ch 6-Can't talk

The school held a tour to establish relations with its students before the release of the class.

I hate this crowd obviously wanted to turn it down, but Lily assured me that she would stay with me until the tour ended.

"Healing. refreshing~" that's what lily said. At first I refused but Lily always offered me to come along. I ended up going on that school tour even though I didn't really want that.

.

Monday, 05:30 in the morning

Sometimes you will never go anywhere even if you are bored with the days you live. Especially in the crowd, it might make you feel excluded.

I wonder, if I come, what will change? will my ordinary days be a day full of fun?

Again my mind was diverted everywhere.

The students who were on the bus were talking to each other, playing a game while on the way, enjoying the song posted there.

Lily slept on my shoulder and I let her, I just stared at the window of the bus and saw so many motorcars driving down the street.

:"Ah. Today is sunny, I hope this can be a good day" my inner

I've traveled several times, seen how beautiful the vast nature is out there, saw the big buildings in the city, the cool breeze that makes me feel comfortable and calm. I want to travel, but I want to go alone. That's what I want, but maybe it'll be a good experience for me. I wish I could learn a lot of new things with these people.

.

.

We got to our destination, to be honest. I really like this place, so many trees and the air is very cool. I don't think I regret it at all.

Unfortunately

We were tidying up our camp items, forming a Team group and starting assembling and so on.

I who no longer have a job to help other students who are in trouble, well I hope they feel a lot easier after I help them

Info:study tour they were camp huh

.

.

.

Her night

The students discussed what they would do after the campfire, many decided to tell stories, some concluded to share their own experiences

Because it was a busy and noisy night for me.

Honestly, I was uncomfortable at the time, I just kept listening to what they said and I would say "yes" whatever they chose.

Even so Lily kept chatting to me about other things, at least this could eliminate a bit of my discomfort

.

They talk to each other just to decide what to tell them about, the commotion that occurred at night and it made me feel a little annoyed because I rarely heard noise because I rarely went out of the house.

:"I don't know the rest because I've never been to camp, so I'm sorry if there are so many mistakes here" - Author

Time passed, indicating at 11pm, People were already asleep in their tents.

I was still outside and saw the view.

there's nothing to be afraid of

I don't think anything has changed at all. This is more painful than being in a room alone. The lessons I get are just ordinary lessons, it's school materials that are applied in our daily lives.

Honestly, I want to get something new. Not the only thing that hurts me more. I don't know where the mistake is. I don't care about it anyway. Then why am I disappointed?

Where is my mistake? until I always had negative thoughts about everything. Where exactly am I? I didn't even expect to feel life. Honestly, I was afraid to look them all in the eye, as if it was a hard thing for me to do.

:"That's it for good, after all, I hate everything" I murmured

I saw a sharp log on the ground, I picked it up and pointed it at my neck, intending to bun*h myself there

:"I've tried enough to get here, so at least here's the result. I wanted to give up, but people still supported me. I want mat*, but they forbid it. I want to live, but I'm tired of everything."

I held tightly to the log, until I could not feel my hand that began to bleed as a result of being pierced. I didn't care and kept pointing it at my neck, scraping it even though it hurt.

Suddenly*GRAP!

There was a hand that held my hand and stopped everything

:"What are you doing?!"

There was a gentle male voice but it still sounded sad and mature to me.

I diverted myself, not looking at him at all hoping he would stay away and not bother me

:"What's the problem with you"

:"This is not good! release wood!"

He forced me to open my right hand which was holding this sharp wood

:"Can you not interfere?"

:"Didn't you see your hands are bleeding huh? throw away the wood before I call the builder!"

I had to drop the wood and he also let go of his hand which was holding my hand

:"What do you think until you dare to hurt yourself? aren't you in pain?"

It was clear she was still bullying me even though I had granted her request

:"I told you not to interfere!" I saw the man right away

I was a little surprised to see him, the man was my classmate who always gave me snacks to eat. The man also sometimes invites me to chat while no teacher has come.

I turned my face again and looked ahead.

:"What happened? you've been quiet lately"

:"What's wrong. I'm tired"

I don't see her at all, it's become very difficult for me...

:"Is your hand okay?"

He held my right hand again and saw a scar that could be said to be quite deep

:"I'm fine, it doesn't hurt" I'm not looking at all

:"Okay, treat your hands and neck first, come on, I promise I won't tell her to the builder"

:"Promise me."

:"Yes I promise"

He helped me get up, helped me walk even though my legs were fine.

Until I thought, "is he sane?" even though I know that's not a good idea

~ch 6 finish~

sankyu!