If Tomorrow Is Coming
Ch 30-See them

aahh. I hope time stops here..

I guarantee everything will be messed up from now on, I made a mistake again.I really hope time can repeat itself so that I can change everything.

but well.. what has happened is what happened.understand the point? that is, what has passed let it pass, after all you have things to think about as well right?

look, I'm sick of the words that always come out of my mouth. They mess with my life

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I just kept quiet, looking around.

it's really quiet, there's nobody else there

I decided to go to the Library and skip class, I did it because I couldn't get past people

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I skipped 3 lessons at once.

it's time to go home from school, I stay in the library until someone comes to say hello

:"hey. hanabi"

there was a voice of a brother who was no stranger to my ears

:"sir?"

I looked over for a moment and turned my face away from her

:"sorry.you may be a fool, but the fool I mean is not like that"

:"you know, don't you? that I'm just as tormented as you are?"

brother Asara sat next to me, stroking my head even though I didn't see it

:"i.e., think everything is just a joke of the mask.they don't really think of me"

:"you know? I thought you were a happy person and had harmony.I misjudged.you're just like me, so are you"

:"forgive me.." said brother asara in a soft voice.

I looked up, saw him for a long time

:"we are human, so it's only natural that everything" I said a little tautly

I tidied up all my books and left Sana

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home, living room

cklek

rion was watching tv

he looked at me and came straight to the door

:"welcome" he said smiling

I returned her smile, then went to my room without a single word coming out

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roomed

I've finished taking a shower and changed clothes. I only wear simple sweatshirts and shorts. so simple

I looked up at the window, walked over and opened it again as usual

:"I hate trouble. I don't want all this to be messed up" I said smiling bitterly

just imagine yourself, do you regret when you say something bad? I'm sure you're sorry, otherwise you don't have a heart.

akkkhhhh, I'm really tired! now I forget the fact that my family was destroyed thanks to the old man

all I'm thinking about now is how will my days come?

when they started hating me back and I said something vague.

I don't want to think about my problems any more the other day.all I want is to change everything. from zero!

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I was just crying, drowning my head. crying and crying like always. I still wish there was a change

that night, I passed by with tears.

tomorrow is

tok tok tok tok

:"hanabies? don't you want to go to school?" rion asked behind the door

:"I am preparing" I replied

after finishing, rion and I left together for school and yes, I met lily and kenzo too back then

while rion and kenzo are racing, who is the fastest until he wins!

haha, we ignore them, just let them have fun

a few minutes passed

we're at school now

the festival is only 2 days away, so we are assigned to tidy up everything in the field, ranging from cleaning the falling leaves, double checking what is lacking at the festival.

I got the job of cleaning the leaves, as did lily, kenzo, and rion

we gathered the fallen leaves from a large tree near the field

I heard some students complaining because the leaves were always scattered everywhere

:"duh... The tree is falling again huh? jatoh kept his leaves from earlier"

that's what I heard, actually there are many more babbles that I heard.

1 Hour passed, we were currently on a break before proceeding to our other duties

lily and Kenzo talk a lot about their work, they look enthusiastic to talk about it as a whole (details).

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I just listen to them, sometimes I respond to their words.You know? I'm so jealous of the fun stories they show off, if I could be like that too

fate is bitter, right? like everyone has to change that destiny to challenge the changes that are seen one by one. If you can't change destiny alone, there must be someone else involved in it and I find them.

they're really a change for me, although not 100%, at least they really help me to grow.

I want them to be happy, not like me, who doesn't know when to stop talking, who doesn't know themselves to trouble

enough to keep, I don't want to trouble them anymore.

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:"oh yeah, at the festival, what show do you want?" ask lily

:"uh? the show?" answer me

uh! I forgot the 9th grade students had to show 1 of their talents on stage, aahh.

:"rion plays guitar while singing, right?" lily said

:"he's right" rion answered

:"well.if I dance, what are you two?" lily again

I'm really confused..

does Kenzo have any ideas at all? he seems to be thinking hard

:"me.. i. hmm. maybe.." kenzo's confused.

can't be trusted, it's been confirmed he's confused_-

:"oh! I have design! I'm a famous assistant designer in this city" he said

:"what's hanabi?" ask rion

rion looked at me, waiting for an answer

:"I don't know" I replied

well, I completely forgot what I was capable of because I kept thinking about the problem, and lest they find out.

:"hanabi has a lot of talent! I'm sure I'll get an idea for what to do!" lily said

lily stroked my head, and smiled brightly at that

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so.... What should I do? after all, I can't possibly do it, right?

I was pensive to see the front of the school field, yes, I was in a chair near there.

I just saw a quiet field, people were already going to their respective classes according to the lesson schedule they got

yes.. I truant again more precisely. what's the point of studying if you really have no intention to succeed?

all in view of the material.had a lot of talent even though it should be at least 1-2 subjects in order to achieve something in the future.

it's important to learn, but now I don't learn at all. I just daydream about my problems and keep going like that.

now a new question arises in my head

"actually what is my problem? why does it feel so heavy?"

and the answer is probably..

"don't know"

~ch30 finish~

sankyu!