He's Not The Best
157. I Missed you
I Missed you
Since that day, Erlan and Runa were more often silent when they met, the words that came out of their mouths were just greetings and answers. Or when Erlan asks why Zidan is crying and Runa will answer as necessary.
While the days that passed for Erlan, like the passage of a snail on the sand of the beach until it felt very slow with the waves that threw in its original place, making it have to start again from scratch.
However, this was not on the beach, he was in a dilemma where he could not do much for himself. He wanted to meet Winsi, but, worried if his actions were not liked. However, on the other hand Runa continued to demand that the problems with her daughter be addressed immediately.
“I'm sorry Erlan, Mom. Not able to pick up Winsi to Jogjakarta, maybe he is still busy because I call every day not lifted!” erlan said one day when she just got home from her office.
Just then Runa just kept quiet and nodded, after all, she could not get angry at the young man who was now her daughter-in-law. Erlan is the son of the man she loves. In fact, both in the past and in the present, when Arkan's body was moped up, he still loved her for life.
“Later, if I have done a long-overdue job for taking care of Hanifa, I will pick her up, do you want to come there?” ask Erlan later.
As usual, they met at dinner or breakfast.
“Yes. Mom will come, you don't mind?”
“Of course not, Mom!” erlan said, smiling.
He became more excited because he had even greater expectations now, to continue living his married life that must be two-hearted. He did not think badly about this, because he hoped his mother would just come and see Winsi and his house, as well as bring him back to Jakarta.
Suddenly Runa asked again out of curiosity and, this question made Erlan discouraged with her own polygamy.
“Actually, what is it that underlies you marrying that woman, and your father supporting her, and then you are desperate to marry Wiwin?”
“Bu, actually I do not want to marry Hanifa and just pay for her treatment, but, when she was allowed to go home by the hospital, she said, Dad was confused how to take care of him at his house because he had a mental disorder and often called me Papnya, on Dad too!”
“Oh, so your father you blame also for that decision?”
“Not that I blame Dad, but that was his idea, so that I could freely behave when I have to be close to Hanifa halal, let alone I am not married, actually Dad means well.”
“Keep, why did you marry Wiwin too?”
“Bu, I love Wiwin from a long time ago, therefore I had rejected the desire of Father to marry Hanifa, I really do not want Wiwin and Mother to leave here, she said, I'll definitely be lonely at home if Wiwin leaves, Mom!”
“Kan, you've married Hanifa?”
“Bu, Hanifa can't meet all my needs as her husband, I can't possibly love or have sex with a woman who considers me her parents. Can't, Mom!”
Runa fell silent again, the reason Erlan was very clear and reasonable, should they be able to make peace with this condition.
“But, what if Hanifa recovers later, what will you do if she or Winsi does not want to be polygamous?”
Erlan was silent at once, she did not know what to say and did what if it happened. He couldn't have divorced Hanifa or Provinsi just like that. Or he could give the two a choice, then, what if it turns out that they are both asking to be defended?
“Sorry, Mom ... For this I cannot answer, maybe I will give them a choice, is there not always a choice in life and religion? Allah, the Almighty, always gives people a choice about the life they will live.”
“Do you feel capable, Lan?”
“I don't know, Mom. Honestly, I can't judge myself. I was afraid that I was leaning more towards Wiwin because I loved him more. And I fear it's a sin!”
The conversation between the child and the mother-in-law ended there because Erlan had to leave immediately and, Runa would bathe her baby. In both hearts, they are equally hampered by the future that can never be guessed how the trouble.
Since the death of his father Erlan never again asked Hasnu to deliver or pick him up again, he always drives his own car because Hasnu is now a Runa driver if he wants to travel anywhere.
In his study Erlan had finished checking and analyzing all the financial statements of the three Arkan heritage restaurants that were all his responsibility. In addition, he still has to control the development of the property business which is also the legacy of his father who is now charged with him.
All the company activities that had been neglected since his father died while he had to take care of Hanifa, had now been completed one by one. Thus, daily tasks and affairs that will usually be lighter lived if the affairs of his wives can be overcome.
When lunch break arrived, Erlan saved some files that he had been holding and then, turned off the laptop. He got up from his seat and walked to the side of the window, opening the top of the shirt button and two cuff buttons on his long arm and rolling it up to his elbow.
Suddenly the mobile phone on his desk rang, he quickly disguised the phone and looked at the screen with a flat gaze.
Every time his phone rang he always hoped that Winsi would contact him because almost every day, whether in the morning or afternoon he always gave a message to his wife. Like people who are sick and have to take medicine three times a day.
But every time the phone rang and it was not Winsi who called, he would definitely pick up with disappointment. As today it turned out that the one who contacted him was one of his co-workers who had been given a task by him.
“Halo! Bosses. Done, yes my job this week, about Cinere's project head!” said the caller and Erlan listened to his words while sitting back down leaning on his chair.
“I send to Arkan email as usual, yes?”
“OK!”
“Why you, Boss! Very lethargic, anyway?”
“Not your business!”
Erlan immediately hung up her phone without caring how her interlocutor felt on the phone.
The caller was innocent and only told when the task given to him was completed and the report he would send by e-mail. However, because Erlan's heart condition was being hit by a very longing, he became easily angry. He felt neglected.
Winsi was already his wife and had already spent several nights together, although, at the last moment they slept more apart, even more, it did not make him angry at all because he understood Winsi very much and also understood himself who had to be patient with him.
Love is actually affection accompanied by pure warm passion, to then be able to channel the desire instinctively, if loving the selfish is not love, but a feeling of the heart that imposes the will so that the other party understands it.
“I miss you, Nisriya Binti Basri Province!” Erlan sends voice messages through their chat app.
He did not expect that a few minutes later the message had been read and he looked on the screen if Winsi was still replying to the message.
For a long time the woman typed, maybe she wrote something and then deleted it again, like that a few times. Erlan couldn't wait until she returned to send a voice message.
“What are you typing, anyway? Mending, by the way, I called ya?”
The voice message was again delivered and heard by Winsi, after it was quiet. Is not his love reciprocated, his longing is not a lonely longing to roll up the nights he went through filled with the shadow of the idol of the heart. His ears and eyes could only see and hear about him.
A woman's silence indicates if she agrees.
“Halo, assalamualaikum, Darling!”
Eelan finally contacted and Winsi received her husband's call. He felt pity.
“Yes. Wa’alkumussalam !” answer's short.
“How are you, why don't you reply to my message?”
Winsi laughed a little.
“Not that you've been used to it since!”
Erlan was stunned because Winsi remembered everything during their relationship while unmarried.
“Wiwin .. right, you are now my wife, not my half-brother anymore!”
“Oh, it is different, yes?” Winsi replied pretending to be confused.
“Different, I love you, I miss it now want to see you, when are you coming home?”
“Oh, I think the same, you never miss, you lie! He said love from the past, then why now miss but used to not?”
Erlan seemed to grit her teeth as Winsi spoke, she was anxious, how could she possibly say kangen? Aren't they just brothers, not husband and wife or girlfriend!
“Win ..!”
“Hmm ..!”
“By yes, I bit you?”
Winsi laughed again, at once Erlan's heart became warm when he heard it.
“No way, no!” winsi said after she stopped laughing.
“Why?”
“Gigit your other wife's there! Kan, there he is!”
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