Suddenly
Favorite Person

I just caught two eyes of something I didn't want to see.

They seem to be talking seriously.

I wanted to pass it but my footsteps stopped just like that when my eyes realized it.

Again it looks like I've seen it—ever. Is this gonna be okay?

Nah! What the hell am I doing?

My footsteps were getting closer and closer.

Yes, approach the two people until they also realize it.

Like I also have the right to be like this.

The rights I have are like anyone else who just wants to ask what happened and the rights as Kai's girlfriend.

“Look! What will he do?” look Rania in the eyes in front of me as if I have no right to interfere.

Kai clasped my hand the moment he saw me. “He's doing it again,” whispered Kai.

“Are you not ashamed to speak in public places like this? What happened?” my spoken.

“What do you care about and your right to love it?” Rania pushed my left shoulder and Kai reflex caught me sleeping from her grasp.

Really tired with a position like this— like an episode drama.

“Should I explain something you already know?” my footsteps stepped forward in front of Rania.

“Hahaha, isn't it over? Well, you're really kasian. Kai, you haven't told him?” rania's look at Kai.

“Ah, looks like it's because of you. Isn't that how it is? Kai won't cross the line,” I just want to talk but not with my wandering mind.

“Hahaha, do you know anything?”

“Ya,” Rania and Kai looked at me with probing gazes.

Kai pushed Rania's body away.

“But you shouldn't have done it,” Kai's voice sounded loud.

There was a door that was closed with a loud sound. Kai raised his head with his blank look. The sound of the rumbling rain clearly made him think about it, but he actually lasted the distance he should have.

Time has shown at 11pm. Kai could not yet digest with what had just happened. What will he say and how will he explain it? His mind was not only muddled but his own who was actually making that mess.

“I have to say,” Kai walks open the door without caring what he will say later.

Kai was at his door but his hand hesitated for the umpteenth time.

“Isn't it already visible?” Sky stared at the two in turn.

“What do you know, Sky?” Kai approached me.

“How are you feeling? That's what I want to ask.”

“Sky?” Kai took my hand.

“Hahaha, it turns out you know.but I don't think Kai said it. Wow, totally unexpected and you ask how I feel? You mean how I feel about Kai?” Rania used her hand fingers to bully me. The man put his hands on my jaw.

“Hey, you don't have to ask to know.Isn't that a question you deserve to ask Kai?” Rania with her cynical smile.

“Sky..”.

“No, I'm not wrong. I'm asking you, how did you feel..after that happened? Isn't that what worries you?” Sky held Kai's hand to let him speak.

“You want that, Rania. Kai doesn't want it.”

“You haven't asked him..but are you going to be okay?”

It's exhausting to always be in a situation like this.

“Are you not tired? Stop, Rania! You don't need to be like this.”

“You talk like that as if you've got it. You're even robbing me of what's mine. You have no right to say that!” Rania pushed me back.

“Alright, finish your conversation.”

Sky walked up and turned and stopped near Kai. “You must know,” I said to Kai before it passed.

“You don't deserve to be with him, you should be going!” rania was heard behind me.

What the hell am I doing? I didn't come back but just turned to her and said, “Sorry, I can't do it. Is that enough to make you understand?” Kai smiled at me.

Sky did not walk but he ran like he was fooling himself.

Thinking of the words that had just come out of his mouth.

Something was dripping right as the rain came down.

Like reading a situation.

His footsteps became much lighter after running.

Her clothes were a little wet but didn't make her drenched.

Like repeating what happened. His two eyes became witnesses, watching him from a height. Kai and Rania with their business that somehow gets done.

My mouth kept saying it, I have no regrets nor have I done anything wrong.

It all comes back to choices.

Others say it's bad, not necessarily ourselves saying the same thing. It depends on who is undergoing and it has become a risk or something must be lived.

Saying it repeatedly.

My feelings remain the same, for Kai.

There's no one else.

Just for Kai.

Kai didn't hurt me directly I don't know, I haven't found the answer I deserve.

Really missed him.

As it has ever been and has happened.

Kai that night, so sincere.

I have also hurt him indirectly because of my ego which always wants to escape and create a distance.

Although it made me link to time, it felt like it was time that helped me to think calmly.

Back, back, and back.Isn't that also called choice?

My eyes could no longer see Kai and Rania, although with different places it would still look the same.

“I'm home,” said Sky who certainly welcomed himself.

Sky opened the whole curtain near his bed. The flowing water soaked the translucent glass windows. He lay facing the window, drowning with the blanket.

The sleepiness begins to feel.

Lately his sleeping hours are messy.

His empty gaze brought him to another memory.

Mom will make me a lot of snacks when it rains and deliver them in my room. Then watch the movie with him wearing the same blanket.

Before long Dad came in with his two hands full of crackle bags. Dad gave me some hot fried chicken and pizza.

Dad will raise the volume of his voice, “Dear Dad, anyone want to help me?” Dad was soaked because he was always lazy to carry an umbrella and he only saved food that he brought with a bag that Dad called a magic bag.

I don't know where the magic bag is now.

I couldn't possibly miss that moment.

That means a lot.

Why does it pass quickly?

Is it true that being too happy will be lost instantly?

Or when it just does not realize if happiness always goes hand in hand with sadness?

“What do you think?”

Kai has been near me with his smile.

“I'm sorry, I don't know if I deserve to say it or if I deserve it.

“Kai..”.

“You keep Kai and that's enough.”

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