Suddenly
I’m Tired of Feeling this Way

“You may never like me, Kai.

Rania with her explosive manner of speech and difficult to control.

“My answer, Kai! You lied if you never liked me.”

“Ran, it was then and you didn't even want it to happen. So, should I say that you're late?”

Rania squeezed both of Kai's shoulders firmly. Like the look he gave.

Friendship between men and women is hard to maintain. Yes, Rania is right. I can't possibly not like it.

“You should have stayed to like me, didn't I say it? You and I will always be like this, never to change. I know you like me and so do I. You always say that too, Kai.”

“You don't think like that, for me it becomes one-sided. You always do not want a relationship despite knowing each other's feelings,” Kai took off both hands of Rania on his shoulder.

“It's over, Ran. Human feelings can also change quickly and so can what I think. I really like it, Sky. Unfortunately, it always doesn't go well. Because you always get in the way, don't you?” Kai continued his words.

“Inhibiting? I thought only Sky would not fight, is that the same as what you think? Kai, I know you very well.”

“She looks like she wants to end the relationship. While you are on the side that still maintains at all costs. Wouldn't that be one-sided? You're not that stupid, Kai.”

“But..there is a strange. You left it for me? You chose me. I think I've been your priority.”

“But why don't you like me, Kai?” shout Rania.

“Isn't now the right time, hmm? You'll be happy with me, Kai. Be aware! Your relationship and Sky ended after this.”

“Keep liking me, Kai!”

“Like Kai who was always there for me. Why would someone like him take my place?”

“Why not me, Kai?”

“Kai, you can't be like this. You were destined to be with me. We both have everything, what about her? Sky will hurt you.”

“Keep liking me, Kai!”

“Not too late, Kai. You can start slowly. It's okay, you didn't hurt me.”

“Ran! You don't need to be like this. You can't force a will like that without thinking about yourself. That's not gonna change anything. For me, the feeling I once had for you.it's done.”.

“No! It's not done yet. You can start over, Kai. You can..”

“Ran!”

“You can do it, Kai!” rania's voice sounded loud.

“Ran, please don't be like this!”

“I have to fight for you, Kai. Don't you see which one fights more for you? Did Sky do the same? Looks like..Sky can only get mad at you.”

“Kai!”

“Don't do that, Ran!”

“I won't give up, I..”.

“I like you, Kai.”

“My answer, Kai! Why did you stop liking me?”

“Isn't it clear? You don't want that relationship to happen and let it happen all the time. So did what happened with my increasingly fickle feelings and in the end, I completely ended it.”

“It's just one-sided, you're not trying to explain it to me.”

Rania is still tight and…

Sky will see everything.

Everything that happened.

Will my relationship end?

I don't want that to happen.

“That's the past, Ran. I don't want to bring it up again.”

“If it was in the past, why didn't you just leave me at that time?”

“You think it's that easy? Same with you. But I'm not as crazy as you do.”

“Whatever I do?”

“Yes, didn't you do it?”

Rania lowered her head with her two hands that closed both her eyes. Then said, “I didn't mean it that way. I just..”

Rania crying.

“Do you know..what do you do can also enrich yourself? What's on your mind? You want me to stay away from you?”

“Kai, I'm sorry. I'm totally screwed. Me...”

Kai hugged her.

BRUK!

The sound of impact on my ship is really that loud.

How did I end up like this?

Will I always be like this?

Sad like this?

“Sky?”

“Is your head okay? You hit him again.”

“Sky?”

Green's holding my door. “Hey, you're not taking care of your new neighbor?”

“Hai!”

“Hai? That all?”

“You want how?”

“Do we not have to eat with our new neighbors?”

“Looks like I won't be your neighbor for long,” Sky said with a blank look.

“Means?”

“Come,” Sky smiled and closed the door leaving Green still wondering.

Sky didn't just come in. He stood looking around. See what is in front of him. As well as his mind that rotates the moment in every space that is in his residence.

Not a minute.

Even though it's already passed.

It felt like just yesterday he decided to live alone and still hoped his father would approach him.

But until now, it has been a question mark. Although his father certainly knew where to look. But there was no sign that his father was looking for him.

“I miss him,” Sky voice is soft.

“But I can't do anything.”

“Such as no longer have rights.”

“Do you regret it now?”

“But..I was the same as the others. Who deserves to have this kind of feeling. Tiring feeling.”

“Why can everyone easily hate me?”

“What do I do?”

“Why can't people like me get along with him?”

“What does it mean to be comparable?”

“Why does falling in love with her actually make me like a criminal who does not deserve love?”

“Am I not also part of them?”

“Why should it be like that?”

“I miss him..”.

“I miss him..”.

“Calling his name makes me..”.

Sky wiped his tears quickly. Because it's not the time to drag on. The contents of the head are enough to accumulate with the same thing.

He began to weigh again.

Is he really going to do it?

Was it the right decision?

But his tears just spilled back and could no longer speak.

Tong!

“Kai..”.

“Stop!” Kai brushed off Rania's hand.

“Why?”

“You don't remember what I said?

“Alright,” Rania put up face welding.

“You okay?”

“As you know. What are you here for?”

“Wah! You're so cruel. I'm just worried about you. Have you met him?”

“Ser often..”

“But not directly.”

“Not directly?” Rania doesn't understand.

“Only I know.”

“Do you know...Sky has become popular lately? Many approached him. Although it has been rejected, instead of giving up but it makes them increasingly pursue Sky. Are you okay?”

“I miss him.”

Rania fell silent.

“I miss him, really miss him.”

“What do you mean you say often and not directly?”

“Only I know,” Kai's gaze is blank.

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