Suddenly
The Daytime Walk
Counting the time before the new year's night. It really doesn't feel like it just happened. My words also change between time and not.
Same with the feelings I have right now.
Everything's mixed up.
Blending with the mind.
Thoughts that are often not as in tune with heart and speech.
The sun came in through a slight gap in the window—gave an effect that made me never dislike it. My fingers quickly grabbed the camera and captured it before it passed along with a gray sky that only appeared for a few moments.
Green has gone according to his request— will not allow me to come.
After that day Green hasn't contacted me even though I've contacted him.
Yeah, it can't possibly not make me wonder.
Even a little bit of a distraction to my mind.
Did something happen?
Or does Green just want it to pass and end?
Everyone can do it easily. Life makes it easy for everyone to pretend.
Same with me in front of Green.
I even look like I don't know myself. Like nothing happened or like Green and me in the past before that openness happened.
“You'll be stuck again..,” I told myself.
No problem with food. Just be in a new residence—bedanya.
Either the rain will fall or not even realize it has been in the rainy season months.
“Who knows...weather can also be erratic, isn't it like that?”
“But it still has no effect on you. You still don't go out, Sky.”
Sky was sitting by the window. Act a little yellow curtains that will show the outside condition.
The hustle and bustle in the hot sun caught his attention. “Should you come out for a minute?”
“Where?”
“Circling department store?”
His fingers moved quickly to pick up the cardigan and then saw a portrait of himself that looked much different than usual because it was too lazy to change clothes.
He wears a white crop tee with loose gray pants and a blue Sky cardigan.
“What is this overreacting?”
“No.”
Take a tote bag by inserting an umbrella and also a bottle of mineral water. Her hair that started long was allowed to break.
His footsteps were so light. Although not as light as what he had in mind.
Arriving in the elevator his ears should hear the people who are boasting. So tight.
Earphones that are already attached to my ear will still be useless.
They were mothers talking about their own friends.
“Isn't she getting a divorce?”
“Truly shameless..how old is he? Divorce?”
My mouth feels like it wants to give it to me. But it is useless that person will pretend to be the most righteous.
Ting!
“Excuse me,” my word will go down on the ground floor.
They gave me absolutely no way and continued their speech with a volume that was still so loud.
Are they not going down?
Or just driving around in an elevator and just bragging?
Whoa!
The way they talk gives me goosebumps. Not only his mouth is muttering but also his gesture which is so expressing the flow of the topic being discussed. Actually it doesn't matter but they don't care about the surroundings. The gesture they showed was almost good for someone else. Whether it was almost hit or almost pushed.
It was too late, the elevator door closed. Up 2 floors. I think they're going down on that floor.
“Easy kids nowadays the veins have broken off, do you know the kids are easy in the then?”
“Truly embarrassing. I was also once easy but not like that.”
“You what age?” The mother with blonde hair suddenly looked at me followed by the other mothers.
“I?” although I know there is no one else but the mothers and only me.
“Iya, who else.”
“I'm 18 years old,” I replied with a smile.
Even the elevator doors had opened and were soon closed again.
One of them pressed a button on the 10th floor.
10 Floor?
What floor are they going down on?
My feelings are not good.
Just chat by pressing the elevator button or they're not for malicious intent, right?
Evil intentions?
“You live alone?”
“Iya, I live alone. Sorry I'm down on what floor?”
“Not your business get off on what floor.”
“Iya, it's none of your business.”
“Hey, you're an easy kid to be polite!”
Whoa!
Is that really what I heard? It's none of your business to get off on what floor?
What life problems do they have? I just asked even politely.
Ting!
The elevator door opens on the 10th floor.
“Maaf—Excuse me..I have to get off on this floor,”.
“Ah, are you not coming with us?” the look on the face they showed me was really scary.
Damnit damnit!
Whatisthis?
“Sorry!”
Brak!
Bruk!
Sky took the phone with the position of the phone screen has opened the camera and immediately took a picture before the elevator door closed.
“What is it? What does it mean?” Sky turned to the right and left there was no one.
Why am I always surrounded by suspicious freaks?
Sky down 2 floors with emergency hands. Then decide to 1 floor again. He just followed his heart. On the 7th floor he pressed the elevator button and there was no one.
His mind had not completely calmed down because it could have met those strange people.
His heart rate screamed loudly. Worry kept watching him. The number shows the number 3. “Please stay..”.
Ting!
2 Floor.
Damnit damnit!
What kind of sight is this?
Kai and Rania.
The tension that occurs is reduced but the tension becomes a different portion.
Sky fell silent, thinking he was alone and focused on himself.
As soon as the elevator door opened my footsteps stepped.
“Ah, are you ignoring my presence and Kai?” rania's voice behind me.
Free to speak too. He'll still think of me as a fool and he'll fool me.
I didn't stop my footsteps. Keep walking without looking back.
Their presence in front of me reminded me of that new year's night.
Will happen?
They both carry shopping bags.
The scorching sun had stung on the surface of his skin.
The footsteps behind me can still be heard.
“I don't need to drive you,” Kai's voice is heard in the back.
Bruk!
Rania hit my left shoulder.
“Sky..”.
I didn't speed up my footsteps or slow down and didn't even stop my footsteps.
Kai walked on my right side. Without talking and just walking.
The sun is moving directly over the head. Sky picked up his mineral water bottle and drank it while walking.
But…
Kai stopped his footsteps. Clasping my fingers and saying, “Sit down..”.
Kai stood in front of me. Covering me from the sun.
Kai approached—nothing the cardigan I was wearing.
Without speaking Kai clasped my hand tightly and walked back with the scorching sun still stinging.
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