Suddenly
Crowded Minds
Kai kept looking at his phone.
“You want to contact him?”
“Free can't,” replied Kai.
“Kai, it's my birthday. Can't you just focus on me?”
“But I keep thinking about it.”
“I've never seen you like this, what's on Sky until it makes you like this?” ask Rania.
“He doesn't need to prove his feelings—to me or anyone else.”
“Do not feelings have to be spoken as well? Like what I did to you, Kai.”
“Because you put your judgment on him that makes you eventually misunderstand, you'll think he doesn't deserve to be loved by someone like me that you know,” explains Kai.
“Did he cheat until he brought you to your knees?”
“You have to find the right person to feel it.”
“What is Sky the right person for you?”
“Ya.”
“You're aware of what you're saying, Kai? Your words can also betray you.”
“Sorry, my words won't change either then and now. I'm not the right person for you, Rania.”
“You're the right person for me, Kai. We know each other even our parents.Will it not be enough?”
“Ran..”
“Kai, I can't live without you. I can't keep pretending to be okay. You and Sky are just dating.”.
“Can't you and Sky also break up?” continued Rania.
Kai's patience is tested.
The food they ordered was meaningless, ending in talk that was so tough and draining of patience.
Kai no longer knew how to explain to Rania.
His chaotic mind was filled with the shadows of Sky's face that kept asking him to leave the place and go after him like giving him a surprise.
But on the one hand, he did not want to ruin his little friend's special day with a promise he had made before. Even in the past, a promise was a promise.
“Are you going to keep celebrating my next birthday? Can you at least do that for me?”
“And celebrate your birthday, Kai. At that time, if I didn't miss your birthday.Will the story be different, Kai? For example..I became your partner and you will not meet Sky?”
“If I hadn't met Sky. That won't happen either, Rania.”
“Do you not remember our moments together that happened so far, Kai?”
“I always remember how our relationship was, Ran. But.I can't fulfill all your expectations of me. And so is my feeling. To me, you're Rania. my childhood friend and until anytime in my eyes you'll always be like that.”.
“Why don't you like me, Kai?”
Whoa!
Meeting with Rania was just like draining my energy.
How can I make him understand?
Or the outline.can accept reality.
It's hard for me to tell the truth so that she can open her eyes because I don't want to really hurt her.
“Ran, you can meet other people who make you feel what you can feel right now.”
“That's you, Kai. I told you, I can't live without you.”
“You're the only one, Kai. You're the only one that makes me happy. You also make me feel lonely. Losing my father is like losing a man in my life.”
“Ran, you can complain to me but, I can't accept your feelings. Now you may still be able to hear my words like this but I cannot guarantee, if you continue like this.you can get hurt because of my words.”.
“I don't care, Kai. My wish. Isn't falling in love painful too?”
“It's not like that, Ran. You can't live just one-sided.”
“I can do it.”
“Ran..”
“I can do it, Kai.”
“You'll get hurt, Ran. Stop!”
“You can't make me stop liking you, you have no right to it!”
“If you can't stop liking me at least, don't ever ruin my relationship with Sky like doing something that makes me disappointed.”
“You suspect me, Kai?”
“Do you know what happened on June 20? Do you know that?”
“No, I just asked and reminded.”
“I don't know anything.”
“Yes, I hope you don't know anything.”
“Did you hear it from Tyana?”
“No. You suspect him?” Kai looked hard at Rania. Hearing Tyana's name made her think nothing like putting on excess suspicion.
“No. I don't know him.”
“Not really know him? What really happened in the past?”
“I don't want to discuss it. I'm just talking about the two of us,” Rania clasped Kai's hand.
“Do not do that, Rania!”
“Why? Isn't that normal for both of us? With you now in a relationship..make you change your attitude to me?”
“At least you know the limits, Ran. I don't want you to misinterpret it and hurt you even more.”
“I told you I don't care, Kai. I want you to remain Kai who always misses his time for me.”
This long talk is like not going to find a bright path. As she explained, Rania would be muddled with her stance.
“I'll still like you, Kai.”
That's what's on my mind.
Clamor.
Spin repeatedly.
Like a CD player playing.
The sound of the bell sound, as well as adding to the long list of concerns he was thinking about after seeing the post on the campus portal.
“Kai, have you seen it?”
The photos that night, successfully led to the opinion of all those who did not even know the facts that happened.
“Isn't that making you happy?” spontaneously came out of my mouth.
“They are too curious about our real relationship. But, what about Sky?”
“Wah? You mean it?” Kai was astonished by Rania's words.
“Iya. Isn't that what you expected...to not ruin your relationship?”
“Your words contradict the reality that happened. With you coming to me today, it's getting worse.”
I heard someone coming in.
“Sky?”
Sky entered with a look on his face that made me wonder.
“Solve your problem,” he said after taking the bag from my room and passing.
Your problems?
Why is that my problem and Rania's?
“Look! He looks fine,” said Rania at will.
“You better go home,” said Kai.
“Don't we have to solve our problem? As she said,” Rania wrapped her hand on Kai's arm.
Kai dodged quickly.
Sky suddenly re-entered.
“Ups! You almost got caught,” whispered Rania.
Sky did not look at me at all. “Just ignore me! I just took my stuff,” he said.
Kai approached. “We need to talk.”
“By expelling it?”
“At least think first before speaking,” continued Sky.
“Amusement...so much fun?”
“You asked me?” Sky was lazy to talk to me.
“Kai! We're not done talking,” shouted Rania.
“Happy time together,” Sky told Kai before leaving the place.
Rania approached him and said, “Actually I have made a mistake that will probably make you not only angry but.”.
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