Suddenly
Pink Sky
“Why did you do it?”
“How did you know it was me?” Rania asked back.
“Do you realize what you're doing? Even you tell others to do what you want.”
“Tyana told you that? Not me, Kai. I didn't do it.”
“Which one did you actually do?”
“Only those photos alone,” Rania lowered her head and came back crying.
“Only..”.
“Only that..”.
“That's it, Kai.”
“Iya, I know it's not you. You're not like that,” Kai hugged her.
TRINGS!
Kai's alarm sound is still left behind. I don't know why I forgot that alarm?
Like intentionally letting it be on me. The alarm would go off at 3am and I always forgot to turn it off so as not to sound every day.
Besides waking up at 3 a.m. My memories also began to bring up the issues that still stuck in my mind.
“Today..,” I said.
He looked around almost all of his stuff had been packed. He even slept on the couch. The apartment given by his father will sooner or later get new residents who will rent.
“Do I have to sleep?” he'll be gone by 6 a.m. Yeah, 3 hours.
Sky took his phone. “What is he also awake?” his gaze towards the yellow colored light bulb was right above his head.
5 Days ago…
Tong!
Crews!
Green with a big smile and carried something in his hand.
“Iya?” without me noticing the slightly cold attitude towards Green, I don't know why?
“This is for you. Didn't you like him a lot? Do I know what it is?”
I feel like I want to respond to him. “Food.”
“You're right but, what?”
Sky closed his eyes like he could no longer bear to respond. “Cheesecake.”
“Truely, haha.”.
The man smiled at me and gave me the gift.
“Thank you,” Sky will close the door.
“Etss! You don't want to tell me to come in?” his face looks pleading.
“Ah, sorry. I really messed up having to clear things up.”
“It's okay, no problem. Just ignore me. I just don't know what to do. 'cause you're the one I know here.”.
“Oh..”
Seeing it with that look on my face made me feel like the most evil person in the world. “Alright,” my word.
At least he'll know what I'm doing inside.
“You okay?” tanyakanya.
“Iya.”
“But..you look not okay.”
“No.”
“You too are lazy to talk to me. What's the matter exactly?”
“Nothing. Maybe just your feelings.”
“You..”.
“You are not..”
“I'll move,” I replied as expected when Green would see it.
“Why?”
“Not you know?”
“Ah..”
“Because of him you moved?” tanyakanya.
“Iya, maybe.”
“Hey, don't you need to be like that?”
“Why?” ask me and look towards Green which makes me wonder with Green's gaze on me.
“Green?”
Green approached. His body leaned right in front of me with his two hands holding between my right and left sides. You can imagine how bad my position is right now. It almost looks not far away. His eyes on me were sharp too. “What are you doing?” my voice made Green blink repeatedly as if he had just realized what he was doing.
My hand pushed her body away from me. His eyes turned as well as mine. What the hell is he doing?
The atmosphere became strange. Not just being quiet but I don't know, shouldn't Green be apologizing to me?
Should I start talking? Because it's my right to speak?
“What are you..”.
“I'm sorry,” cut Green.
My eyes met his two eyes.
“Sorry, I can't control it.it's out of my control. Can you accept that?” Green lowered his head in front of me.
“Didn't you have a reason..”
“You really want to hear it?” Green returned with his eyes.
That look…
Like I wanted to say something inside…
Something was saved and it was delivered to me.
Like Kai staring at me.
Although it doesn't make me wobbly but…
There's something I got from Green's eyes.
An excuse.
A reason for my attitude towards Green. Yes, Green has given me the answer.
Reason that makes sense.
Green's mouth was as if he was planning to say something.
Before that happens, I don't want to start.
It sounded like I knew something before it happened. In fact, I only rely on my feelings that are either in accordance with what I think or not.
“Sky..”.
My heart beat fast but not because of that. Green seemed to be careful to say it.
“Sky..”.
My mouth wants to tell me, what exactly do you want to say? But I just made Green undo his words.
Sky looked at Green as if waiting for him to speak.
“I like it, can it be like that?” Green spoke with a quick voice.
“Hah, liked it? Who do you like?” Sky blinked his eyes. His breathing seemed to be in the plane with a height and then down at a lower altitude and it felt like there was an effect of walking down from inside his body.
“Hah? Loved it?” Green wondered at his own words.
“You said that, Green.”
Green squeezed his own head by lowering his head. “Wah, you suck, Green!”
What was?
“Why, you?” my many.
“Why is it hard to say? Is this not the right time for me?”
“What do you want to say?”
“Didn't you actually know? It's just that you don't want to be obvious because you're talking to me. If only in the past..didn't I be late, Sky?”
Sky was silent because of that remark. Speech that waffles. Not just the one in her heart but the moment she remembers.
“You're talking about the past?”
“Yes, you must know that. Why are you pretending not to know? I can't help but deliver. At least you've heard it, Sky. That's the truth, like what you heard.”
BRACKET!
My breaths panting. My tears flowed by themselves.
Kai?
That next door, Kai?
How can..someone explain?
Is that just a coincidence?
By accident?
If it was a coincidence, why?
My heart rate was so tight with my breath that I was still trying to catch my breath.
Closing your eyes repeatedly. What do you have to do?
I've already moved.
Back to the old apartment?
Nah!
What am I supposed to do? Why should it be like this?
But…
Don't you want to hear the feelings that are on Kai?
You want to hear it, Sky.
Don't you want it to be clear?
“Yes, I want it to be clear and after that can only decide what to do.”
Sky opened the door slowly…
“I miss you, may I say that?” behind the door Kai stood in front of her and said that.
What am I supposed to do?
“I like you, can I say that?”—Green.
“I miss you, may I say that?”—Kai
It felt…
L'm…
Was staring…
The sky is red easily.
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