Suddenly
A Few Months Before the New Year

Ren left just as soon as I arrived. “Hey, Ren!” unresolved Sky calls.

“As usual, he still ignored you.”

Kiya leaned on my shoulder and said, “Do you want to miss with me?”

“Ah, about new night know you mean?” Kiya is still fussing about the new year. Because this time there was no celebration with the club members.

“Iya.”

“It wasn't your fault, Sky. Not because of what happened between you and Ren.”

“But since it happened, the atmosphere in the club room is much different.”

“Maybe everything is in an unpleasant atmosphere. You know, right? Everyone who is still given life is waiting for the scenario to come,” Kiya rubbed my shoulders.

“Yes, there are always plans that don't work out the way we want. All right, see will have fun on new year's night even though it's still a few months away.”

“Sky, really? You want?”

“Yes, why not..I also have no one.”

“Hey, you still have me,” exclaimed Kiya.

“Alright, I will make a time line for both of us,” Kiya is really excited.

“What will happen in the next year, huh? Did you think about it too, Kiya? Like the wish you want to realize but it's always delayed every day and then you always say it not today. You say it repeatedly until it has changed years.”

“Wah! Why is your speech like it's stabbing me? It really happened. Even at the climactic point when you're almost forgotten, it suddenly materializes and makes you become worried by weighing many options.”

“True, life is beautiful as we speak today. That's the beauty.”

“Because of its complex diversity,” Kiya continued.

“Hahaha..”.

“Hahaha..”.

“I don't think we can laugh this loud,” Sky turned to lean on Kiya's shoulder.

“And your loudest laughter,” added Kiya.

Not today.

Tomorrow maybe.

Or next week.

Not today anymore.

I think it's tomorrow.

Yeah, tomorrow's the right time.

I always say it like that until it doesn't feel like a lot of time I've been through with moments I don't think are in my life.

Solitude is no longer something I'm afraid of. Loneliness is like a friend who is accompanying me, even though it is intangible.

“I miss him,” said Sky in his mind.

Kiya moved with one hand that wanted to help me to stand up. “Where are you going?” my many.

“Are you not hungry?”

“In canteen?”

“Ya.”

“You till when are you going to be like this?”

“Once, I still have no desire to go there.”

“Good.”

“Do you need anything?”

“No.”

“I'm leaving, huh?”

“Yes, eat a lot.”

“You sure you don't want to come?”

“Kurasa...i will go home.”

“Yes, make yourself as comfortable as possible. Be careful, Sky!”

What do I do after this?

My stomach feels hungry but not really. In my mind I wanted to eat this and that but it was only in my mind.

Footsteps are like losing direction. Although it is near. It was like being in a foreign place.

“Have you decided, Sky?” he speaks for himself in his mind.

Something I think about over and over again has meaning…

That it was a choice I really chose.

“Yes, isn't it time?”

Footsteps become fast and vigorous.

“Saw Grace!” exclaim Sky.

“Sky!” approaching me with a hug.

“You look happy, it makes me happy. What makes you look happy today?” Grace looked at me as if waiting for me to speak.

“I've decided it.”

“Yakin?”

“Yes, I'm sure this is the right choice.”

“Did you find it?” tanyakanya.

“Already, you definitely know where it is.”

“Ah, you really heard me say. I told you there's still something you don't know. Glad, at least you can still greet me,” both eyes of Grace's sister glazed.

“Hmm..”

“Don't say Brother will..”

Grace smiled, still teary.

“You are getting married,” guess Sky who immediately made the look of Kak Grace's face change.

“Sorry, Brother..”

“For what to apologize? Because you..”.

It makes me more curious because of the smile of Grace as if to describe there is good news coming.

“I have a boyfriend and in the near future will soon materialize. At least, the building I ordered was not in vain.”

“Whoaaa! You're great, brother! So, that guy hasn't paid the building money at all?”

“Ya, absolutely right.”

Suddenly I hugged him like he was flying and landed hugging Grace who was in front of him.

“Congratulations, Brother! I really do deserve to be happy. Isn't life that funny, Brother?” Sky took off his embrace.

“Kakak canceled the wedding a few months ago and not long before the supposed wedding date.

“Whoaaa! How would it feel if that person knew Brother was getting married on that date? Isn't that crazy? Whoaaa!” both of my eyes widened, amazed by the good news he had just heard.

But…

To make him think.

Is something going to happen to me?

Just like what happened to Grace, will I be like that?

“Sky!”

“Ah—iya?”

“You daydream. Do you know what I just talked about?”

“Ti—dak.”

“The guy broke up with his partner.”

“HAH?”

“Iya, they broke up.”

“Wah! I can't say anymore.”

“Sama, I'm no longer in touch with him either. So, let's just say it has been on their respective paths.”

“True, let me guess..was she your first love? Or you liked each other in the past but only the time is not right?”

Grace was silent with her smile still on her face.

“Hahaha...,” Kak Grace actually let out the same laughter as my loud laughter.

“Hey, so which one is right?”

“Both.”

“Whoaa! Really?”

Sister Grace nodded then hugged me tightly and also whispered in my ear, “Sky, thank you for giving me space to feel what I feel. I won't ask but I'll say something else.You deserve to be happy too, Sky.”.

In her arms my tears wanted to flow but I held her back.

My mind keeps saying a lot of things…

Are Rania and Kai now a real couple?

Are Kai and I meant to be strangers who meet and pass?

THE PLAQUE!

“Aaakkhh!”

Sky hit himself. He really did something that was completely far from his plan. This time he betrayed himself.

“This really happened? Whoaa!”

“You really did it, Sky?”

“You? Isn't this open for you?”

It was like opening a new page.

“Ya, open new sheet.”

“Alright, where should I start?” Sky saw outside the door there were still some cardboard boxes.

“Many also apparently, when can..”.

What the hell are you saying?

New sheet?

You're wrong big time!

It instantly froze with such a strong heartbeat. The mouth that wants to say something is silent.

“Sky?”

Her voice.

Face mutter.

Her feelings? I don't know.

“Kai?” I can only say his name in my mind.

BRACKET!

The two doors were both closed like they did not want to repeat themselves but…

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