Suddenly
It’s over, suddenly…
“That disappointed me, Kai.”
“ Indirectly you are the one who has ended the relationship.”
“If we don't meet on that day, won't we get back together?”
Is it right to return to a relationship that had ended even with the same person but feels different?
Does it not depend on who is doing it?
The same person but feel different?
Or has the real feeling changed?
“It wasn't that easy for me to be forgetful or in a relationship with a new person, Kai. Even if you have liked it in the past.”
What I think about Kai…
Whether it will be as separate as among the hopeless, my feelings will be the same. Except, Kai chose to start a relationship with someone new or someone I know. It was the end for me to end it.
Even without doing anything. Not approaching or trying to get close even makes the distance more invisible. My feelings will be the same.
“My feelings will be the same, Kai. Unless you don't want this relationship to happen again or you choose to have a new relationship.”
“Not..not you are wrong. My feeling of misunderstanding it,” said Kai after being silent for quite a while.
“If you are in doubt say it before becoming more doubtful. I'm still the same, Kai. Like I was in the first relationship we both knew.”
The seat next to me that was supposed to be Green's seat became empty even the movie had started.
Green hasn't been back since 20 minutes.
Does he have stomach pain?
He just left for a while, that's what Green said.
But until now there has been no sign of Green coming back or at least giving me news.
No one wins between Kai and Green.
Rania keeps watching with Kai and…
Yeah, Green took me.
Kai sent me a lot of messages. But there's nothing I can repay.
It also happens that my phone will run out of power. I don't even know how I reply to messages from Kai with my mixed feelings.
I guess dating by hiding isn't the right way.
“Why do you feel the same?”
“You ask why my feelings stay the same? So how do you feel about me?” Sky did not think through Kai's words.
A morning that is too early becomes really morning with the sun having greeted.
“You like it too, don't you?”
“Who do you mean, Kai?”
“Without mentioning his name, you already know. You like it too.”
“Kai, I don't like Green even I've turned him down.”
“What if the rejection is because you don't want to be in doubt because of me?”
“Kai, why are you thinking less and less? There's no one else, Kai. For what and how can soon it be me..”.
“You love it, Sky.”
“My feelings remain the same, Kai.”
“I'm sorry, Sky. I guess I..”
“Are you starting to like Rania?”
30 Minutes have passed…
Green still has no sign of returning.
Kai…
Is he coming?
Suddenly come and sit next to me?
Like the possibility that could happen or just entertain yourself and as if it would happen.
She's with Rania.
Can I be angry?
Do I have a right to that?
“Why do you always carry the name Rania?”
“Kai, enough for today before getting..”.
“I am at your doorstep,” said Kai.
Not long after someone walked in from the exit door.
My pandangan must have been pointing at that someone. That's certain…
“Green?” my voice is soft.
“This is my best day,” whispered.
“What's that bad?” my whiskey.
“Ya.”
“We go home or?”
“I'm fine.”
“You sure, Green?”
“Ya, fine.”
But…
That person is not Kai.
“You okay?”
“No,” I replied to Green.
“Do you want to go out?”
“No, let's finish.”
My backups towards the front seemed to really enjoy.
It is just an empty view with a talking mind.
It became more and more crowded until it sounded in both of my ears.
Hard enough.
The voices are getting louder, giving warning.
“I'm back with him,” my mouth has acted.
“Iya, it is clearly visible.”
Sky is behind the door.
“You didn't open it?” said Kai.
“Don't you already know how to sign in?” answer Sky.
“I've given Green a chance to express his feelings for you. Isn't that not what I should have done?”
“You think a no-no because of that, Kai?”
“It's okay, it's out of your control. Without realizing it everyone could have done it, Kai.”
“Isn't that fatal? What if Green is with you?”
“Stop, Kai! That's not the case.”
“Sky..”.
“While what you have in mind really bothers you. Think about what's there right now, Kai.”
“Iya, I know but..”
“You're starting to have that feeling? Am I too late, Kai?”
“We are both late,” replied Kai.
“Alright, you don't need to open the door. Don't we have to give each other some distance if it happens?” my spoken.
“Even you didn't answer, Kai. Are you starting to like Rania? Or indeed from the beginning like that?”
“Kai!”
“Kai!”
Green looked at me in the dark.
Both of his eyes were clearly pointing at me.
His two eyes were once one for me.
“Nice to hear it,” he said to me.
Wh why?
It felt…
That remark…
Green Speech…
That door is open. Kai is in front of me. “Iya, you're right.”
“Where do you mean?”
“As you say.”
“I don't want that to happen, Kai.”
“If you don't want to happen, why do you always lure me with questions that seem to manifest through what comes out of my mouth?”
“You started it first, Kai.”
“I'm just being frank, Sky.”
“What are you doing? Just stand up?”
Green was still staring at me.
“What's up?” I asked Green.
“Hmm, I don't know..”.
“Hey, what's up?”
At 11 p.m. Green's gonna take me home.
“I think this will be the last to meet you.”
“Hey, why did you suddenly move without telling me?”
“I don't think I'll ever see you again.”
“Ah, so you just left?”
“You just left me feeling even more guilty. I don't know, I think we can be friends but do I look cruel if I think like that?”
“Haha, yes you are cruel.”
“Where else are you going?”
“Hmm, back to where it should be.”
“What is it further than before?”
“Iya, apparently. But isn't this time different?”
“Ah, we had a chance to meet before really do not meet again.”
“Yes and it looks like it will be longer than before,” Green smiled at me.
“Wah! Will we meet again when we both grow old?” my spoken.
“Can I get old?”
“Hahaha, don't you want to lose your good looks?”
“If I could age, hahaha.”.
Kai and I faced each other.
“You're right..”
“I'm starting to like Rania.”
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