Suddenly
The End of the Night
Everything that passes by always leads me to the same memory.
Nothing has changed but it still feels foreign although it is not like that either.
Having an undefined feeling is the same as a changing feeling, one that does not know for sure what causes it.
“Who are you with?” green's voice beside me just reminded me that I was with him.
“You,” with my empty gaze.
“I thought I was walking alone,” Green replied and walked in front of me.
My footsteps stopped before my head touched them.
“Am I boring?” I asked by raising my head to adjust the height difference between me and Green.
“You still ask?”
“I'm sorry, Green. You said...Where do you want to go?”
“Hey, think first of yourself..Do you know that you're really screwed?”
“I just thought about it for a while and you don't have much time, Green. I'm sorry, but shouldn't I be with you? But it just became like this.”
“You should go home and rest, Sky.”
“No, I don't want to go home.”
“Ah, don't you want to meet him? It made me even more.you made me a reason to escape.”
“No, I just..just don't know if we can meet or not and think about it a little with a marker that will probably be I don't know.”.
“It was not you who was late, even though I had noticed it but I ended up doing nothing. I'm late, Sky.”
What I think and say is always on target with the response Green has given me.
“From you, I actually regret what I did the most. If thought over and over again it will remain the same, it is a matter of time. That's what makes me regret it, Sky.”
“It's jumbled, Green. I used to like you so much, but I was too discouraged because you were impossible to reach.”
“I'm late, Sky. Think of it like that.”
Someone from the past why is it always late? I've said it over and over again. Green called it that.
Rain spots that are not how middle to divide the surface in the afternoon before night. Rania does not carry an umbrella nor does Kai. They were at the stop, waiting for the bus to take them to Kai's apartment.
“Why do you keep following me?” said Kai who could no longer hold back his sense of regret to Rania who had followed him since morning.
“No one will be angry either. You are free to go anywhere and with anyone,” replied Rania.
“You think I don't have time for myself? If you keep following me it makes the assumption of many people.”.
“Since when have you cared about assuming others, Kai? Because of her you lost yourself?”
“You don't know him so, don't just talk!”
“Ah, really? But I know you better than he who suddenly came and became your girlfriend. Didn't we like each other, Kai? Why don't we just go on?”
“I'll walk. You're the only one on the bus, coming soon. You don't like the rain either. Don't tail behind me!”
“You'll leave me, Kai?”
“You can take care of yourself,” said Kai and started walking away from Rania.
“Kai!” Rania stays behind Kai and is hit by raindrops.
“Do you never regret it?” shout Rania.
“No, it's nothing,” replied Kai while walking.
“You lied, Kai!”
Raindrops that were originally just a droplet that fell to the surface actually became a speck of rain that was so heavy.
Kai turned his body. Grasping Rania's hand clothes and taking shelter in an empty building across the street.
“Even you still care about me,” Rania brushed Kai off.
At 7 p.m., the rain was getting heavier. Sky and Green were in the bookstore overlooking the dark beach. The blackout is happening 30 minutes ago. Only bookstores look a little bright with a few emergency lights.
The atmosphere is so supportive to talk about the past. Even Green has started it.
Green's words were like answering all my questions in the past. So did I who answered Green's question.
“What will happen if we in the past have a relationship?” green said, not looking at me.
“Hmm, I don't know. What does long distance relationship mean to you?” my spoken.
“Ah, haven't you answered your own question, Green?”
“Hahaha, means we'll split?” green's laughter sounded nothing like a real laugh.
“I think it would be like that even though I can do it but it can't be just one-sided. Hey, won't we just talk about..”.
“Hey, this is not nonsense just.If only it can be realized,” cut Green.
Sky sighed in a silent atmosphere making the sound of his breathing quite audible in the ears.
“Do you regret it, Sky?” Green put his hand on the end of my head.
“Hmm, maybe yes and maybe no. I don't know, it feels like being angry but what's it for? Green should have been you.”.
“I didn't meet you and talk about things like this, that's what you mean?” Green was like Kai reading my mind.
“I also thought about it, Sky. But don't we never know...or did you have time to think about it?”
“I think it happened because of what we once thought. You think about it too, right?” Sky brushed Green's hand on his head.
If only…
Wish?
Even now it's just nonsense.
Unable to occur.
“Anda...,” Green sighed with his empty gaze. I saw him in the dark.
Kai and Rania have arrived at the apartment. Both are soaked. “You can wear it,” Kai gives a change of clothes to Rania.
“Do not want,” reject Rania by thrusting back at Kai.
“Don't whine and look for me if you're sick..quickly change and I'll drive you home.”.
“Why not just yours?”
“What's with Sky's property?”
“Why do you still keep it, Kai?”
“Quick change of clothes before you..”.
“I don't want to! I just want to wear your clothes.”
“It's the same, Rania.”
“No, it's different. Isn't Sky wearing your clothes?”
“No,” replied Kai.
“I just want your clothes, Kai.”
“Alright...,” Kai walks to get clothes but Rania stops her footsteps.
“Let me,” said Rania.
“Hey, is this where you live? You can't be that easy.”
“Kai, why are you being such a bitch? Even Sky as free as that could enter. Why don't I?”
“Alright, it's up to you.”
“Kai, what's wrong with you? Why are you like this to me?”
“Can't you stop putting me in this position?”
“Ah, does my presence worry you, Kai? Didn't you already tell me the feeling you have for just one person?”
Kai fell silent.
“Kai! What are you?”
Rania walked closer.
Really approaching.
“I won't continue if you reject me, Kai.”
The cup!
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