Suddenly
Sick in Love's
“Hmm?”
His hands fumbled to light a sleeping lamp. An analog clock near his sleep lamp shows at 2 a.m.
His finger turned on the speaker and put his phone on his right side.
“Sky? Haha, you must still be sleeping.”
“Hmm?”
“Haha, sleep..”.
“Bye, Green!”
The time difference between me and Green was 6 hours. That guy certainly knows the time is always not right but Green still hung over me at those times.
Sometimes I hear it tell a story while I am between conscious and unconscious. Sometimes we talk to each other, but it's also me and Green.
Both of his eyes could not fall asleep. What else if it wasn't about his mind. A mind that never ends because it doesn't know how to end it.
“But why do you look confused, Kai?”
Kai fell silent with his gaze on me.
“You look confused, Kai. What is it with you exactly?”
“Kai!”
“Maybe you're right but not what you said.”
“I can't possibly like it, Sky. It's obvious that I don't like Rania. I just feel confused have we done it right about this relationship?”
“Kai, I never knew that we would live next door. What do you mean about us who tend to meet often.that you mean?”
“Yes, but I don't know..”.
“Alright, hopefully that will be the answer for you.”
Kai left followed by the sound of the door closing.
Everyone can come and go at will without being asked or not. Coming back is the same.
So what makes it different?
“The people who passed by were silir changed,” Sky sat facing the city center with the crowd that existed by observing many people passing by.
He knew his cell phone kept vibrating inside his hoodie pocket. His daydream deepened like he had lost his way because his soul had sunk.
Why does time pass so quickly?
Lately I've been re-linking with time..Since it's time chasing me?
I want to go back in time and regret what happened. Time brought me to that feeling.
“You didn't lift it?”
The source of the voice stopped my daydream. His smile has not been recorded in my memory for a long time. Her hands greeted me with a soft touch in my hair and ruffled it. Sitting next to me with his gaze as if to tell that many words would come out of his mouth.
Ken is like a hero of bad luck who suddenly comes or like a guest who suddenly comes uninvited. Always appear suddenly after not seeing each other long enough and strangely when— can not give an explanation. Ken will suddenly come in those moments.
“Ah, you apparently?” the cell phone that was in my possession confirmed it. Ken called me 10 times. Reminds me of that time.
“Considering me too,” he said.
“You happen to see me or you?” I said with my head up because Ken gave his seat to the middle-aged man.
“Did you always walk like that? You want to lose your life with that frivolity of yours?”
“Stop following me! Why are you always surrounded by stalkers?” sky's gaze became blank.
“You're in a relationship with a stalker, you don't remember that?”
“A stalker? Dia...”
Ken looked up at Sky. Grabbing his hand. His body was as if flying under the swaying wind. His footsteps also became lighter. Her hair was flying with the wind.
His body was also warm in the cool afternoon air despite the pollution flying in the air. His hands swung over his head.
His smile was glistening along with the sky as if it were himself.
Even if it's just for a moment.
Of love?
There is pain that is not easy to explain.
Even though I know what it is, it is hard to say.
Making it even more upset in undefined feelings or feelings that are either silit change and change like the mind or the heart. Am I not talking about the life given? ‘Manusia’.
“How do you feel?” ask him with his footsteps still holding up.
“You're entertaining me?” I answered behind his back.
“You lost your weight?”
“You're bragging? Lower me!”
“No, leave it like this until you really want to stop.”
“You sure, Ken?”
Ken accelerated his footsteps as if there were no burden. Why am I so full of guilt? Wasn't the real Ken always there for her? It's just…
“Ken..”.
“Ken, what are you..”.
“Still...”
“Still like me?”
His footsteps did not stop. The city center was filled with the sounds of the crowd as if it felt quiet.
The sky that seemed bright before, had changed with a gray sky that signaled time would become faster.
A few more months will be a new year. It's fast but why does it feel like it just happened?
What will happen later?
Many questions arise that all do not necessarily find the answer or do not need to wait for an answer.
Desire must exist even though we know not everything goes according to what we want. So too about relationships.
Dare to link with ‘Cinta’ which is not only about pairs but also with in other forms of love.— will touch the pain in any atmosphere. Even if it hurts the love is still there and it's confusing. Really weird, what does that mean?
Because love is not only about sweetness but bitterness can also be love.
“What is your daydream done?” Ken was in front of me with his face level with mine.
Both of my eyes blinked for a moment. Staring at Ken then turned away with my footsteps stepping back.
“You still have that feeling, Ken?”
Ken also stepped back with his smile still adorning his face. “Am I too obvious? Since when do you know?” he said with a calm attitude.
“You know the answer, Ken.”
“But you still suspect me.”
“I'm sorry, Ken. You're avoiding me isn't just that, are you?”
“What do you know?” Ken actually tried to make me talk a lot after my ears fully heard his voice telling me about many things that made me overwhelmed with feelings that did not only lead to him.
“You want to end it. There's nothing wrong with the feeling you have. You don't have to end it, either, Ken. Does Ren feel the same way as you do?”
“Do I really not need to quickly end it? You'll be responsible if anything happens that might happen?”
“Ren just needs time,” Ken continues his remarks.
“Does everyone always have a time, Ken? I just want to keep you company in times when you need someone like you've been doing to me all along, Ken. That's all I can do, is that enough of a responsibility you mean?” talking like not sighing but making me relieved to be able to say it by looking directly at Ken.
“For me..you are time, Sky.”
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