Suddenly
Nothing is Unfamiliar and Strange
Can only guess.
The door had been tightly shut although it hoped that it would open a moment later.
Like being confused with the signal that may or may not happen.
“What should I do?”
“So I can come back to you?”
Kai's hand held the door in front of me while my gaze did not look at him.
“I didn't go anywhere,” that came out of my mouth.
“But why are you here?” he asked with both hands on his shoulders.
“How about you...you are also here?”
“Have you not been here for a few days?” kai's hands turned to touch on both of my cheeks.
“Sky?” his face leaned forward right before my face.
“Should we be like this, hmm?” Kai rubbed my hair gently.
“Can I hug you?” he said with his eyes that were really looking at me. His gaze was as warm as his hands.
L'm…
Not not wanting to talk but a little afraid to start despite having said that I did not go anywhere.
Still with the same feeling even though the meeting is not as usual.
Kai hugged me tightly without waiting for what came out of my mouth.
His heart rate is so tight. Like when you run with irregular footsteps. Her body is really warm.
Why should I part with him?
Why should I question the feelings that are with her?
Why should you even question Rania, which Kai obviously won't do?
Is there anything with me?
Is Kai currently ensnaring me with what he did to me?
Or am I just entangled with myself?
Back, back, and back in the same place.
Kai opened the door in a position not to let go of his embrace. Then shut it slowly. “You also don't want to take it off?” he whispered with a voice of laughter that sounded like to liven up the atmosphere.
Although both of my hands did not return his embrace, I did not try to dodge either.
“Alright, 5 minutes unless you want to take it off,” said Kai.
The hug is getting warmer.
Kai continued to talk without caring about me which was actually silent.
“You once said it, a coincidence and not.actually it looks the same but not really.”.
“When I heard it, didn't it become ambiguous?”
“What does that mean? That's what I said in my mind. You've said it too.if what you think brings you back, back, and back.”.
“That's the choice you should have chosen.”
“You and I are no coincidence, Sky. We're just two freaks who have a love storyline that's also so weird. Isn't that what it is?”
“Maybe this will sound I was just bragging for the reason I just found but this is really what I wanted to say.”
“Nothing to do with Rania..”
“Green has messed with my mind and made me think the same thing as what you thought.”
“You could have had a relationship with Green with the empty space you had. Likewise with me, I can establish a relationship with Rania with the empty space I have but..”.
“I'm not like that and neither are you, Sky.”
“I'm sorry, made you think a no-no because of my reaction too.”
Kai took off his embrace and stared at me. His hand held me. Sit on the sofa facing each other.
“Sky?”
“Is that empty space just my nonsense?” my spoken.
“No...,” Kai lowered his head.
“I told you we're such a weird couple.”
“You're weird, I'm not. You're also the one who suddenly changed, Kai.”
“Yes, but you too.you also seem to want to end even in fact you are not sure. Do you want it all to end, Sky?”
“No...,” Sky lowered his head.
“What really happened? I know I started it but other than that because of Green's presence, I don't know any more. Don't you think that too, Sky?”
“What can it be called a change? You and I have changed, Kai. Because I don't know what caused it. Shouldn't we blame others? Isn't that from ourselves?”
“We both change each other? I don't think so. You still want me and vice versa. Doesn't the change indicate one of us doesn't want this relationship to continue?” Kai still clasped both of my hands as if he was convincing me.
“Besides not wanting this relationship to continue, isn't there always a distance? I don't know.that's how I feel, Kai.”
“You're talking about that empty space again?” Kai took off his hand.
“You made me think about that empty space, your empty space filled with Rania and my empty space filled with Green.”
“Ah, your free space is filled by Green?”
“Entaih, it's just my asums.”
“Even you are not sure of your own words, Sky. Forget about that empty space!”
“Didn't Rania get sucked in your mind, Kai?”
“Then did that happen to you because of your question to me that was?” kai's face changed.
“Ya.”
“Sky?”
“What's on your mind, Sky?”
“I also thought about Green, Kai.”
“You just think about it, Sky. It was nothing.”
“You also thought about Rania, Kai.”
“It was also nothing. That's all I think about is you, Sky.”.
Kai and I sat back to each other.
“I don't like Green but..”
“I don't like Rania either, it's just..”.
“Because we did not meet and someone else came to that empty space. An empty space that makes you have a strange feeling, which you yourself do not know what is going on. That's what I mean, Kai.”
“You are with me but apparently not like that, Kai.”
“Only you have in mind, Sky. Can you think about you and me?”
“I want it like that, Kai. But..you're like you're not with me.”
“So you don't want this relationship to last? Stop thinking no-no, Sky! I want you and me to be like..”
“Are we going to be okay, Kai?”
“Sky, please!”
Kai hugged me from behind and said, “I don't want this relationship to end. Can't you just forget it and start over?”
“It's not that easy, Kai. I don't want to end up hurting each other.”
“You said you felt the same, Sky. Now your words are not what you said before.”
“My feelings remain the same, Kai. It's just..”
“We can start again, Sky.”
“What can we do, Kai?”
“We just need time, that's all we need. Let's just say we're blaming time for the moment. Not your fault or mine. We need to improve so that we realize each other without having to blame time.”
“It's okay for now we blame each other time. We can start over, Sky.”
“You and I..”.
“Kai and Sky..”
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