Suddenly
The Happy New Year!

Spending the semester break not going anywhere, should have been a regular thing for me.

But this time it felt different.

After that day.

Ken or Kai, no one called me.

5 Days to new year's night.

Last year, of course with Yuta and Kale. This year there are no plans. In addition to crouching in the room with lots of snacks and watching some new movies.

Already tried it, contacted Ken but there was no answer. Well, now I've been feeling what Ken's been feeling all along.

If it's Kai, I never called him. But occasionally squeeze the bell but like no occupants.

Early in the morning it was raining. Need more ammunition before the new year's night arrives and fear of running out of stock.

As the new year's night approaches, many brutal people blindly. An impossible material step would be a step, lost with a flash.

Yeah, maybe it'll be at the other department store but when are you going to get around?

The rain is not so heavy. My clothes were average pastel colors and it became annoying when it was raining like this. But how else. Can still wash it.

Sky pushed his shopping trolley with a hollow feeling. He became more focused, like he wanted to finish quickly. Going around for hours is her favorite.

“Completed,” he brought two quite large shopping bags. One was on his shoulder and the other was on his left hand because the umbrella he was carrying was on his right hand.

Sky played his footsteps out of boredom. The distance to the apartment was that close but did not feel like going home.

“Am I coming a month?” my mood really doesn't make me comfortable.

Urinary.

Lonesome.

Hollowly.

I don't know…

“Alright, pu—lang..”

“Kai?” my smile line came back.

My footsteps are so wide. “Kk—ai..”

Kai is not alone.

There's someone else in his wheel.

Yes, women.

The woman got out of Kai's car and the woman left in a taxi.

Who is that girl?

Kai looks happy. Even before they parted, both of them looked comfortable and natural. Like you were with your partner. It looks like that.

Sky sighed and decided to return.

There was a commotion in my head.

Who is that girl?

What's he saying to me, nonsense?

Is Kai actually plotting with the people who run me over?

That must be a boyfriend…

“Already, Sky.”

His mind is completely fucked. Instead of going upstairs in an elevator, he used the emergency stairs.

“You're stupid, Sky!”

Want to turn into free, it's been too far.

He also checked his phone several times but there was absolutely no notification, which was not important.

“One more floor, Sky.”

Sweat began to pour. But, he did not have time to think about how hot it was to walk with his feet and also his shopping bag. Only Kai had his mind.

“Sam—pai...,” his breath gasping for breath.

Unfortunately today is not on his side. Kai and himself were aware of each other but, they just looked at each other and turned around without saying a single word.

BRACKET!

Kai closed the door hard.

Both my hands were shaking. There's a bitter taste in my spit. From inside my stomach it was like someone was pushing up. “Huwekk..”

BRACKET!

Like a disaster that makes me want to scream as loud as possible.

I have to mop the floor. Clean up the mess I did myself. My sense of smell is completely stained.

In my heart I say, “It’s okay, Sky.”

Three slices of cookies and milk that I had not eaten for a long time, came out of my stomach.

“Among us, what will it be like, Kai?”

“Yes, maybe it will come true. What's my fault, huh?”

Sky drowned under his blanket after drying his hair. His appetite was gone, he only drank milk. Sleep is a great way to forget for a moment.

“Should I do it?” he stared at his phone and weighed in his mind.

The choice is round. “Until the new year,” Sky turned off his phone, put the phone in a drawer next to his bed and locked the drawer.

His determination was very strong, it was unlikely that it would falter.

He actually came by the moon, it was just fitting that he felt a mess.

It's still 10 in the morning. “Good sleep, Sky.”

Ting.tong…

Unfortunately Sky was asleep.

The next day, ting.tong…

There's no answer.

2 Days before the new year's night, ting…

A few hours before new year's night comes, ting…

“Ah, forget. I won't meet anyone,” Sky put his earphones back on.

At 3pm. “Whoaah! Dad chose the right apartment,” he could see the sunrise until it sank so close.

Light that bounces on the glass gives the impression of the room without having to turn on the room lights.

Rain this time does not fall, “Hmm, maybe later tonight.”

Sky sat down with his hands clasped and his chin attached to his arm.

Outside looks messy. The horn sounds were clear. Rhythmically alternate. “Where will they go?”

Ting.tong…

“Ah, who else?”

Sky still didn't want to open the door.

Bell's voice is becoming more and more. “No matter,” Sky closes back the curtains that will close the sun access to enter the room. He also did not turn on the lights at all.

Sky went back to hiding under his blanket.

“Nothing went as planned,”

He looked at the ceiling in his room. “Haha, even that was not seen at all.”

“You're babbling with yourself, huh?”

That annoying bell voice, was already inaudible.

He hasn't opened his phone until now.

“Do you not need a mobile phone?”

“No way, haha.”

“Aren't you curious, Sky?”

“What will happen something?”

“Ah, stop.”

“Do not want to put expectations like before, since when do you put expectations for anything or to anyone?”

“Ah, new year night, yes?”

“Hahaha, no.”

“Wah, I think I've gone crazy.”

Sky was weighing in his mind again. “Should I open it?”

“No!”

“Not.”

“I mean, later only.”

Sky turned on the room lights. He saw it on the right dinging clock parallel to his vision. Time shows at 5pm.

“Mandi? You want to take a shower, Sky?”

“Alright, at least you should keep clean even if you don't go anywhere.”

Ting.tong…

At 6.

At 7pm, “Completed..”.

1 hour of daydreaming.

30 Minutes of shower.

another 20 minutes are still daydreaming.

10 Minutes to change clothes.

“What do you want to eat?”

“Pasta.”

“Yes!”

Sky hasn't opened his phone yet.

The sound of fireworks and noisy firecrackers was already heard loudly.

But the time has not yet come.

Actually was…

He's not so calm.

“How about it on the night of the new year?”

“What does it mean I don't keep my word?”

Anxiety began to gnaw in my mind.

The commotion in my head is getting worse.

The more connected with time the more it feels when chasing you.

At 11 past 30 minutes.

Tap..tap…

The sound of irregular footsteps shocked many people.

“Sorry..”

“Be careful, woy!”

He was staring at his watch which showed at 11 past 50 minutes.

Mind fucked.

The distance that should be able to be reached is only a few minutes, this time the situation is different.

Everyone was along the way. In addition to the traffic jam on the road, there is also a line of pedestrians walking towards the beach near the bookstore. Yeah, I'll be there. My defense has collapsed.

Only the sea of men can see.

Has filled in at any angle.

His eyes go around.

Looking for the whereabouts of someone who should be in this place.

Kai, where are you?

Sky forgot to bring his phone.

He has not even opened his phone yet.

He only relied on his mind and heart.

Sky walked over to the bookstore.

“No..”

“Cannot..”.

There was a sense of tightness in his chest.

Trying to catch his breath.

“10,…9,…8,…”

“7,…6,…”

Am I late, Kai?

“Kai...,” Sky saw it from a distance.

Kai also realized that.

As before, they were just staring at each other without even getting close to each other.

Kai with the girls...

The same woman that day.

“Kai..”.

“I like you, Kai.”

“3,…2,…1…”

Too late.

You're late, Sky.

“HAPPY NEW YEAR!”

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