Suddenly
End of the Day
‘The Day Our Eyes Met’, the name still remains the same even though many years have passed.
Jeff came up to me so knowing my presence that just stood looking at the writing.
“Hey, what happened..you brought a suitcase?” Jeff brought my suitcase in, he was nagging because I didn't go in right away.
The erratic weather made the air outside also began to feel bad. Strong winds, sometimes rain, and sometimes it's too hot to get out of the house. The flu range is like me right now.
“Wah, you flu again?” he asked repeatedly, it seemed as if his mouth was moving. Besides not focusing. I don't know, it feels like at this time not everything can be done with a state of unfocused.
“Sky?”
“You...is fine?”
His voice sounded but I don't know.
The sound of the glass touching the surface of the table was in front of me. My hands touched it. “Hot!” inside the glass was a light-colored drink but not so bright either. “Jahe,” says.
“Hey, you know it's ginger but you don't focus on yourself at all. You have to spend it, understand?”
“Iya, alright.”
“Call me if you need anything,” Jeff who looks busy because that night the bookstore is crowded visitors.
Jeff just left me for a few seconds, he came up to me. “Hey, what happened..Where are you going with that suitcase?”
“Hmm, I don't know. Hehe..”.
“What is it about Kai or something else?”
“Yang sure..”
“Alright, I won't tell Kai,” Jeff definitely knows what I mean.
“Thank you, Jeff. You know what I mean.”
“But where are you going?”
“Ibuku.”
“Hah, are you sure you're going there?”
“Just try it. Probably the last experiment.”
Jeff realized something. “Ah, tomorrow is your birthday. Didn't you try it in the previous year?”
“Yes, that's exactly what makes me want to try it. But, maybe I won't put any expectations.”
“If you do not put any expectations, it is enough to guarantee you can accept reality?”
“Hmm, at least the current version of myself is much better. Isn't that how it is? You must know how I.”
“Yes, you are much better. But..you're not tired, Sky?”
“Not only tired but fed up..”.
“Intact, Jeff. My mind is also fucked. Rania with Kai..”.
“Wah!” jeff's facial expression changed when I just mentioned Rania's name.
“You know, I warned Kai about Rania. I know Kai couldn't have hurt you on Rania's grounds. Unless you're ignoring it.”
“You've known him longer than you know me, Jeff. Do you believe in destiny? The world seems to be getting narrower.”
“Yes, you're right. You and Kai, my confidants. I don't know, believe not believe. Are you sure, Sky?”
“If the result will be the same. I'll come to you, Jeff.”
Sky gave a warm hug as usual Jeff hugged me tightly as if he did not want to let go. In a bad situation, I always come to him.
“Contact me.. I must have come to you,” Jeff said by waving to me.
“Definitely,” replied to the wave of that hand.
Kai who is in front of me right now is just like invisible in my eyes, covered with the shadow of Rania who still continues to look at me with her gaze that asks me to give up.
“Rania..”
“His presence makes me..”.
“Seeing you be someone else, Kai.”
Kai was silent with his feet stepping back.
Whatdoes thatmean?
His feet stepped back.
At 9 p.m. My heart was beating so hard with my mind mixed.
Sky entered carefully.
The atmosphere of the house remains the same silent and makes me always uncomfortable even though I have lived long enough and returned a while still for me it is not a real home.
Just stepped a few steps Mother and Keen were already in front of me. They always monitor CCTV.
While Keen just stared intently at me and looked at me as if I was trash littering the floor.
“I just need to talk to Mom.”
“Ah, as in previous years. You didn't give up either, did you? All right,” Mom gave a kiss to Keen before Keen left, either went outside looking at me with a look?
“Why does he always give me such a look?”
“Because you never respected him,” replied Mother.
Mom looked at me carefully. “Speak,” said.
“I met Dad..”.
“Then?”
Mother looks calm like she does not care but I don't know what is in the bottom of her heart.
“But not really,” Sky continues his remarks.
“I thought it would be like that. You're always wasting your time, Sky. You don't want to change your name? Your name is from your father.”
“This is for Mom...,”Sky gives a box in red.
“From dad.”
After college there's a package on my doorstep. I thought it was the package I bought…
Dad might come or with someone else's intermediary, I don't know.
“Why not just dump?” my face changed immediately.
“Who knows..”
“It's no more, it's done. You're wasting your time, Sky. You came here just for that?”
“Best of my birthday, Bu.”
“Then?”
“Mom don't want to spend time with me?”
“For what? Isn't it over too?”
“Bu, can't you just pass the time on every birthday? After that together become someone else.”
“Didn't you not like anything about birthday celebrations? You're really mad about that.”
“Iya, I know. But, I want to try it.”
“Try it? Forget all that shit! Just having you in front of Mom..that's enough to make Mom sick.”
“This Bu I'm not Dad. Why do you always look at me like you see Dad?”
“Because you're not Mom's son anymore, you don't understand what I'm saying?”
“But still there is a memory of Mother, is not it like that, Mom?”
“Go! Before I say more than you heard before.”
“Bu, doesn't that also make you tired of living like this? I don't hate Mom. How could I hate my own mother. I also know, what Mom said was not entirely what I wanted.”
“Go! What you think is not what you imagine. Do you understand what I mean? Right now you are seeing the reality that is in front of you.”
“Bu..”.
“Go!”
Kai's footsteps remained at the same distance. “I never celebrated my birthday, I never liked it.”
“Why don't you like it?” ask Kai.
“It's not my time to answer, Kai. You have asked me a question and I have answered it. Now it's my turn to ask you a question.”
Kai stepped forward.
“Why are you stepping?”
“Didn't you say according to heart and mind?”
“Ah, stop. Again it was just a game,” Sky sat on the sofa. Closing his eyes with his head looking up.
Kai did the same.
“Let's end it?” said Kai who was leaning on my shoulder.
“Iya, end it.”
It ended, ended quickly. Not like the usual days.
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