Suddenly
At Least We Have a Scenario
The end of this day makes me still think about it with guilt that I cannot understand?
“How do you make it like that time?” Kai is in the kitchen. That guy still wants to cook for me.
“Ah, are you eating with Rania and starving me?”
“You start talking about it again. Makes me even more regret it for having done such a thing.”
“Alright, forget it! It became the one that made me sick.”
“So, you better cook another one,” continued Sky.
Sky lay on the sofa hiding behind a blanket. Close your eyes and fall asleep immediately.
Afraid of waking up Sky, Kai turns on the vibrating mode on his phone as Rania continues to contact him.
Rania was at the door, asking her to open the door. He did not want to be misunderstood for the umpteenth time. But his heart was also stirred. It was impossible to let him wait outside.
Not too late but imagining him being outside alone, it was like he was carrying a burden inside him.
“Why do you always make me fall in this condition?”
Defense's collapsed.
The atmosphere was like it was not on his side.
The bell-like sound signifies a new chapter that is about to begin.
“Let me alone,” bell's voice woke him up.
“Eh—Sky..”
“Shortly...I will open the door.”
“Itu—Rania.”
His footsteps stopped. “Ah, she's still here?”
“I ignored him all his phones but he kept waiting outside.”
“And make you worry?” connect Sky.
“Sky..”.
“Alright, I understand,” Sky stepped away.
His feelings became mixed again and once again.
“If it hurts, then it is arguably love.”
Isn't that how it is?
“You looking for it?”
“Can I come in? Rania with her face frozen.
“What do you want?” Sky still held the door. If Rania gets in by pushing her, she will change her attitude towards Rania.
“For Kai, what else?” his hand was at the door.
“Iya, what for?” Sky repeated his words.
“Should I say it?” rania's face became colder.
“What is it so important?” Sky is still buying time.
“Whatever it will always be important if it's between me and Kai,” the look on his face is enough to tell me that he's not patient enough to wait for me to open the door for him.
“Isn't this the right time? Even Kai has to talk to me.”
“That's your business, now my business with Kai is more important.”
“But Kai is with me.”
“Kai can come out with me.”
Whoa!
His willpower is very strong, but I don't want to give up.
“Kai is with me, Rania.”
“I think Kai knows better who he's going to choose. Isn't that right, Kai?”
“Sky, I'll talk to him for a while.”
Rania who was in front of me was smiling with satisfaction as if she had become the winner then said, “You now understand...which is more important?”
“OK,” I replied to Kai.
“I'll be back..,” Kai looked at me.
“That's funny, why is he so angry? Sleep on? I don't think it's time yet,” Rania smiled cynically at me.
“Sky..”.
“Wait for what else? Aren't you guys going out to talk about something important?”
“You're really mad? Haha...,” Rania actually boasted.
“You want to be with him, right?” sahut Sky's.
“What are you talking about, Sky?” Kai took my hand.
“You also want Kai to choose and now you're chosen. All right,” Sky took off that hand grip and walked inside.
“Sky, what do you mean?” Kai walked in.
“Didn't you understand what I mean? It was exhausting to have such a feeling. From the beginning it was supposed to be.There was no one beside me and I did end up like that.”.
“He has realized the place he should deserve,” shouted Rania.
“I'll be back, Sky.”
“Can you not go for him?”
“I'm sorry, I have to go.”
“Alright, it's enough to answer what I have in mind.”
“Sky, not like that. I'll be back.”
“I ask you not to go with her, can you?” my voice sounds pretty loud.
“I only talked to him briefly.”
“We also need to talk, Kai. Is she more important than our relationship?”
“It's not like that, Sky. To me you are important too but..”.
“But he's more important, that's what you mean?”
“Kai, it's cold outside.you'll let me wait for you here?” rania's voice was pretty loud too. Like intentionally raising the volume of his voice.
“I'll be back, Sky.”
Both my eyes turned away. Sound of closed door like talking, “All has ended.”
There is no crying.
Just a feeling that piled up like a mountain then tried to climb it. It felt heavy, like being warned, not necessarily someone like me was in such a high place and asked me to be aware of a life that was not on my side.
What are they talking about?
What is the definition of someone who is important to our lives?
Why is someone important?
Why do people in the past always end?
Why are people in the past often referred to as a barrier to new relationships that have just been established?
Why can't Kai use his choice?
Am I not someone like Rania?
Am I not that important?
Even the people out there gave me poor judgment.
Everything beside me will leave me, will it happen again?
I know whoever it is someone beside us is not always beside us nor is it always with a fickle human heart. But atleast…
Sky is in the kitchen. There was nothing Kai did. He took a pack of candy, some snacks, and mineral water with ice cubes in a closed glass so he could carry it with one hand.
The wall clock shows at 7 p.m. It is not possible to sleep and may also be awake at night. He slept too long.
As always. Turn on the sleeping lights he put on the sofa to replace the room lights he turned off. A dark room makes the room temperature cooler. Sky lay down by raising his blanket and turning on the TV by playing a movie called ‘happy old year’ that he had watched several times.
His hands clasped the candy, he could scoop it up in an instant.
His eyes focused forward.
Although he can already guess the plot in the story on the film he watched. For me, even though a thousand times repeat the film we have seen.
Just like life there is a hidden purpose can not immediately know the facts that actually happened and will know in time. Time to be absolutely right.
The thoughts I have in mind will always irk me in many options with different versions and scenarios. Best and worst or be pseudo.
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