Suddenly
Same thing but's…
Sometimes life is boring too.
If it's about a relationship—with someone. What's supposed to happen?
To me, it depends who it is.
It is natural to feel bored but let it be a moment.
‘Bosan’ isn't that just an excuse?
What are the reasons that are always used to end a relationship?
But if that's the reason, at least tell the truth and pretty soon let it end.
Never make excuses and become long-winded and on the verge of obscurity.
“Kai, don't we go watch next week and as usual eat out or where do you want to go? You always have a plan,” I told Kai. Lately Kai is always busy with his phone.
1 Month, exactly 6 months my relationship with Kai lasted. But it's nothing. I don't know if there's a celebration or not. Same with a birthday celebration that until now made me hesitate to do it.
“It looks like we're not going anywhere. Just watch it at my place or at your place and order food or we both cook,” he replied by still staring at the screen of his phone.
“Kai, am I not in front of you? Lately you haven't really talked to me.”
“What else? You too, have been complaining lately about me being so wrong. What do I have to do to make you feel satisfied?”
“My life is not just you, Sky.”
“Kai, I was just wondering why you made it so long as you and I were in a fight?”
“You started it, Sky. You've always lured me to say what I didn't want to say. Wasn't I always there for you? You're even too cute to me like you don't want me.”
“Kai, you make it more runyam.”
“That's thanks to you, Sky.”
“Alright, forgive me. I'll shut up.”
No need to clarify the atmosphere is certainly not only unpleasant. I thought Kai would come closer as usual. In fact, he's refocused on his phone.
Being in my place, I have the power to do what I want.
Even this is saturday. Kai usually looks excited. Come to me and wake me up.
Holding my anger makes me hungry.
She had not been in the kitchen for a long time after spending too much time with Kai.
Sky walks into the kitchen. Look at the food stock he has. “Spaghetti?”
Yep.
Sky is in the kitchen. Kai lay on the sofa talking to someone.
“You'll come here?” kai's voice sounded loud.
Who's gonna be here?
Isn't that the same as holding me as the host?
Even he didn't say anything to me.
What is...Rania?
Looks like it is, who else if not Rania.
“Who will be here?” can't stand not talking.
“You will know later,” still does not stare at me.
“Actually...What happened to you, Kai? It is very visible from your attitude. You ignored me.”
“Didn't you want to shut up?”
“You're outrageous, Kai. Even this is still my place of residence, you didn't tell me who would be here?”
“Rania.”
“You made it an excuse again?”
“Didn't you ever feel the loss of yourself? Like you wanted to go back to your old version before you had a girlfriend.”
Whatisthis?
Whatdoes thatmean?
He wants this relationship to end?
“What do you mean?”
“Don't you want that too? We've always been the same and so subtle as this, Sky. Doesn't that make you bored?”
Bored of?
What was the real meaning behind the words Kai said?
“Are you not the one who should make clear what you mean? You want this relationship to end, Kai?”
Tong!
“Ah, that's it.”
“Kai! We're not done talking,” Kai hastily opened the door.
Kai and Rania…
They entered with hands. Even Rania didn't greet me.
“You ghost, Sky.”
“This is for you,” I said like a waiter at a restaurant.
I went back to the kitchen to wash the dishes. Seeing them eat food by watching movies is like a real pair of lovers regardless of my presence.
The rumbling sound of my hungry stomach was getting clearer. Sky decided to go out and buy some fast food or some food that he wanted to buy. At least that's what he had in mind.
They don't care about my departure either.
“Kai, you're really crazy. You seriously do that? You don't see how her face looks?”
“You just calm down. He'll be fine.”
“I've given you a warning, you could have lost it today too.”
“Not going. Then why did you agree to help me?”
“Entah.”
“Hey, those words of yours did not pass because I was willing to help me.”
“As of you, Kai.”
“Hahaha, did I just hear of a defeat?”
Crews!
“Dia come.”
“Ah, yes.”
Kai and Rania were adjusting the volume of their voices, as if they were having fun.
“What do you guys do?” Sky who had just come saw Kai embrace Rania like Kai did to her.
No one answered.
“Hey, I'm talking to you. What are you guys doing?”
The cup!
“Kai! What the hell are you doing? You just kissed her? Isn't that a kiss? You kissed her, Kai.”
Sky approaching. Took the remote in Kai's hands. Then turn off the TV.
“Hey, what are you doing?” that's what came out of Kai's mouth.
“Hey, it's you..what are you doing? You too, Rania..what are you doing?”
They hugged each other.
“You guys played behind me and showed it to me? If that's true, isn't that crazy?” my tears started to drip and Kai turned to look at me.
“Hahaha,” Kai and Rania exclaimed happily with their laughter.
“You laugh at me because I'm getting weak?”
My tears are getting worse. Uncontrollable.
Rania looks confused and then moves away from Kai. “Eh, Sky. It's not like that. Why is it like this?”
Kai approached me. “Sky..”.
“I sangaja did. Just trying. That's not really happening. Just engineering. It was all my idea,” explained Kai.
“Hahaha, should I laugh like that and agree that it was a joke you made?”
“Sky, I didn't know you were going to act like this. I'm sorry, Sky.”
Kai approached me but I would rather stay away.
“Please, you better go.”
“Sky..”.
“Not like that..”
My tears are flowing. “Go, please!”
The sound of the door closing. Breaking my cries.
All the questions that piled up made my cries uncontrollable.
Is it gonna be over soon?
Will they get back together like before?
Tong!
Crews!
“Sky..”.
The one he was looking for, nothing.
“She's not around and left her phone,” Kai hung up.
Mondays.
Tuesday and…
Next day.
Stay same.
There is no whereabouts.
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