DIARY ZARA
65. New chapter in my life

It has not been felt for almost a year that Zara has held the status of Widow. Now in January 2023, Zara has not found her successor from God. Maybe it's not time yet.

Everything is arranged, later if the time is right maybe God will grant the do'a Zara. Zara always asked God, May Zara be met with God's best mate.

"Well, the next time I wait for Zaranya, already want one year. If you want to stop nginep also no matter what, Zara will not be naughty, serious." Zara talked to dad while waiting for the store.

"Ha.ha.a yes, I think waiting for you is only 3 months of iddah time. Because after the iddah period is over you will marry Rangga, Eh in fact Hoaks. Dad so kebablasan wait for you later. "Answer Zara's father laughs.

Indeed, since February 9, 2022 until now it is January 2023, my father has never been absent waiting for Zara. Help out at the shop, stay at Zara's. Go home to my mom in the afternoon. While the mother is alone at home, sometimes staying at the house of sister Maria or at the house of Zara as well. My dad is the best. Who will be the best man to replace my father. Take care of Zara, Protect Zara, Be the best Imam for Zara and Dad connect the best for Jarel. Zara doesn't know if it's there someday or if it's all back to fate. Man only plans a God who determines.

Life is like a journey. So many phases have been passed. Laughter and crying, Difficult and happy to change. Disappointed, Angry, Hope, scorn, praise, Bitter sweet life, fall wake up Zara's struggle has been passed. Meetings and partings change. Nothing will ever be eternal, that is life. Then the most important thing is to live the best, enjoy and be grateful that is the most important thing for Zara at the moment.

Today it seems like Zara is eager to improve the house, throw away everything that is no longer needed, change the decor and change the house paint to make it feel new, a new atmosphere of the new year, a new home, welcoming the new life of Zara.

Previously Zara had to send orders of goods first to A Eko.

"A Eko order." Zara sends orders for Zara goods from the SRC application every morning to A Eko.

"Okay Zara's. " A Eko always reply to Zara's message.

It is the best A Eko. And it was evident by the words that Zara had read. "In the end God will give us the people we need, not the people we want. "

All this time the man that Zara wanted was Rangga, whom Zara was after Rangga. But did it work, not at all. And was Rangga there when Zara needed him first, not at all. He just dodged, didn't care and left.

Then Zara wanted A Deni. Did it work? No again. A Deni may never know that Zara has ever liked him and may never know, but it is better than what she used to be with Rangga.

Now A Eko. He arrives suddenly, offering help to help ease Zara's work. There was also A Eko before, too, it's just that Zara never thought to be close to him because it is in appearance and the economy may also be different levels yes with Zara and other SR children. It is not easy to get familiar with it. He might be special.

But now it is precisely every day Zara communication instead with A Eko, Zara groceries goods responsibility A Eko. Thank you very much God that you have finally presented the right person to Zara. But Zara was afraid that Zara would have more feelings. And finally Zara was disappointed because maybe A Eko would not like Zara because of Zara's status.

"Okay, thank you." Reply Zara.

Zara began to improve from Zara's room. Zara took out the clothes that were no longer used from the closet. There are still Ditto clothes left. Zara separate those that are still suitable for use and those that have to be thrown away, as well as other household furniture.

7 Years is not a short time. There are a lot of stories left in this house with Jarel and Ditto. It is better for Zara to redecorate so that every memory in the corner of this house slightly disappears even though it will not completely disappear.

"Dad Zara wants to go to Home Center first yes buy paint and there are some sink faucets also that must be replaced because it is damaged." Zara talked to Dad.

"Is the money there? from the Bank has not been disbursement." Ask Dad.

"There are, at least how much, not expensive. " Answer Zara.

"Maybe yes, wait for WA from A Eko aja later maybe fit on the street ngabarin." Answer Zara.

"OKs. Jarel wait at home?" Ask Dad.

"Yes again maen at the neighbor's house with her son." Answer Zara.

"Together Zara. Orderan has been settled, just taken away. " There was a message coming in from A Eko when Zara was still in captivity.

"Yes thanks. There's no basis? " Task Zara because again it takes rice for Zara's customers.

"Duh forgot, if it's not wrong there was earlier. I was Isoma Zara." Answer A Eko.

As busy as it is, A Eko replied to Zara's message.

"Okay, just take it again. " Answer Zara.

"Ready. " Reply A Eko.

Returning from buying materials for the renovation of Zara's house immediately stopped by all the SR grab groceries. It turns out that his A Eko is not there, really rest again.

Zara immediately paid to A Fadli and took Zara's goods that Mang Dedi had prepared.

Arriving at home Zara immediately gave materials for a little home renovation to my father.

"Tumben you want to change the house paint? " Task Dad while laughing because Zara hasn't changed her house paint for a long time.

"Wild cool yeah. " Answer Zara.

"Will you want to be afraid of dong?" Ask Dad.

"Let's go, Zara doesn't care. Look at the fence of the house just afraid of rich Rangga used to be well, especially now?" Answer Zara.

Zara's house fence with glass. For homes in villages like Zara now only Zara House is used, there are no other neighbors who model their homes like Zara's house.

Therefore, many men who want to approach Zara were reluctant just because they saw the fence of Zara's house. But Zara was not that scary. Eat salted fish Zara likes. I just don't know if anyone else looks at Zara like Zara doesn't know.

Maybe someday there will be a man ready to meet Zara. Ready to accept what Zara is, ready to accept all Zara's shortcomings. Believe me Zara is not as scary as people imagine possible.

Not too see the material, if indeed the man is a vision with Zara, Zara is ready to accompany and we grow together in terms of career and life that Zara wants.