DIARY ZARA
43. Forced to release

Zara is dreaming again tonight.

"Why are so many people at home?" Zara came home out of nowhere. Wonderful at home for many. There's a mother on my door.

"Oh yes, this is a group that nganter son temen mother want to bed you, mother already knows very well her parents, also her children. That's why I didn't say it to you. " Answer Zara.

"What's? lulling? how to go to Zara, ma'am. " Zara kelp.

"Ngapain nanya you, your people never take anyone to mother, yes now it's my turn to findin. " Answer mother.

"Zara doesn't want mom, Zara doesn't like it. " Reply, Zara did not want to enter my house.

"The school is coming in, your father is also in the dalem. The kasian they were waiting for. " Mom told Zara to meet them.

Zara came into the house, it was true. In Zara's guest room there were many people gathered.

I started introducing them one by one.

Zara looked behind the male figure who would be Zara's future husband.

"I don't want to, I don't like it. Oh my God, what should I do." Zara spoke inwardly.

Suddenly the phone I was holding rang.

"My Husband." appeared that name on my phone, it was the name of a contact Rangga who deliberately kept with the name My Husband on my phone may be a do'a.

"Oh Allah, is this true. " Zara's hand is shaking with her phone.

"Bu Zara came out for a while and there was a call, said Zara "Zara talk to mom.

"Deady, not good with them. " Answer mother.

"Shortly mom. " Answer Zara.

Zara ran out and answered the phone from Rangga.

"Assalamu'alaikum's chat. " Zara replied, not holding back tears.

"Waalaikumsalam." answered Rangga across the phone.

"Where have you been, why have you been gone so long, I thought you were dead. You don't care about me anymore, you don't know how hard I was after you left. Huh.... " Zara spoke on the phone with tears in her eyes.

"sorry. " Sound the voice of Rangga.

"I'm in the room today, what should I do. I don't love him, I don't even know him. My mother knew that man." Zara clear.

"You know mother, love mother's understanding. Patience soon, I'll be here. Wait for me, I promise. " Rangga Clearly.

"When? till when? how long are you going to disappear? they're all in my house now. I can't do much, if you really care, I hope you can come today, before the deal happens. " Obviously Zara.

"I'm definitely coming I promise. "

Suddenly Zara woke up.

"Astagfirullah, it was a dream again. Again just a dream. " Zara speaks for herself at 02:30.

It is better for Zara to wake up, wudhu and perform tahajud prayers.

In the morning Zara waited for the store as usual.

Zara opens the tiktok app to upload a Zara motivational video.

"Eh, I'm ticking A Cloud anyway. " Zara speaks for herself.

Because for a few days Zara really likes to watch the ticktok A A cloud my old friend, very entertaining. I can make Zara laugh.

Uh now ticktok A Clouds is gone.

"A Clouds really, tiktoknya. " Zara sent a messenger to my friend.

There was no reply from him.

Until the afternoon when Zara was ironing clothes, accompanied by Jarel who was busy watching TV. There is an incoming message in Whats app Zara.

"Assalamu'alaikum, I'm sorry to interrupt his time.Here you are, don't ask anyone else about me now. You're an adult, you know what's good, and what's bad. A lot better than me. Sorry doesn't mean anything. Feel rich fugitive, if rich gini. Rich I have sin what is it with you, until my brother what is it? yeah, don't ask me again, any luck. God willing there is something better than me, for you in the future. Wassalamu'alaikum's chat. " Message from Rangga.

Zara was shocked to read this message, not this explanation that Zara had been waiting for all this time. Zara's tears came back without being able to stand it anymore.

"Mom why? " Ask Jarel.

"Ga anything. " Zara answered while wiping away Zara's tears, Zara didn't realize that next to me was Jarel.

"Message from whom?" Ask Jarel.

"Not from anyone." Zara answered.

"Look here." Jarel took the phone from Zara's hand

"That's A Rangga, surely A Rangga who always make mamah nangis, who else. You evil people." Jarel's upset.

"Here mama pinjem, want bales." Zara asked for her phone from Jarel.

"Get in baleslah, bad man." Answer Jarel.

"Alhamdulilah, not Nothing a Rangga. " Answer Zara.

"Aa maen used to be with Grandpa there, in the shop. " Zara told Jarel to come out.

"Yes, don't cry but mamahnya. A Rangga is evil." Answer Jarel.

"Yes no. " Zara answered.

"What's up like this, it's nothing. Just shy of my brother, because it's not his part to interfere with matters like this. Each one has its limits it doesn't have to be like this. Let's just say you and I never knew. There are still many men who like you, want you, even better than me."

Zara could not say anything more, all this time Zara was worried about how she was after Rangga came out of SR, therefore, anyone who should know the news about Rangga, Zara asked. But apparently even other Rangga assumption. Even he was embarrassed, because Zara just asked about her news.

Even with ease he said let's just say that Zara and Rangga never knew each other, after so many stories, even up to 2 novels that Zara made, tell about what, about the journey Zara knew Rangga, Rangga, about how Rangga's attitude to Zara so far. How did Zara behave to Rangga all this time. Real evidence, maybe even all of Indonesia knows if Rangga had known Zara and the story is in the novel Soulmate and Diary Zara.

"Sorry, it can't be. " That's all Zara can say to Rangga.

"So I have to ask you, what? Where should I find you? A Rangga is fine, right? " Task Zara.

"And everyone's thoughts are different, some think positive, some think negative. Mending to think positive, what about negative?" Ask Rangga.

What's wrong, Zara asked about Rangga news to people who Rangga knew. Is that wrong? maybe Rangga himself who always think negatively first to others, so that his thoughts until rich.

"Zara wants to ask vishnu, his vishnu does not exist. Ask the Om, the om doesn't know either. " Answer Zara.

"You what? I'm doing fine. Everyone has privacy. And not everyone's always willing to disturb their privacy." Reply Rangga.

If only you could answer me from yesterday, if you were okay. I'm not going anywhere. This is another.

Honestly for 28 years I live on this earth, only this time Zara met a strange person like Rangga. People who uphold privacy. Whether it happens to me, or to everyone, Zara doesn't know.

"Ga would like to do anything, only I ask you not to disappear. " Answer Zara.

At least Zara knows the news Rangga, happy or not. Even if Rangga is with others, Zara will be more receptive.

"My principle now. There's something important I answer, if it doesn't matter what you answer." Reply Rangga.

Ok. Zara is not important to Rangga. Now Zara understands.

"You know what it's like to chat with Bandungians? like your story in the novel. Must have understood, right? " Tanya Rangga's.

"Who? " Task Zara.

Oh, Kevin. Zara was originally with Kevin, but now we're on good terms, we're good friends. Turns out Rangga kepo also read my novel. That cold guy wants to read my novel. Which her story tells about herself.

"Yes, for now we are each. God knows which is better for you, and for me in the future. " Answer Rangga.

Zara was crying, but Zara thought. Indeed, if now each of us, it means that we have been with dong. Our feelings do not have any bond, from the beginning we are each really.

"Don't do that. " Answer Zara.

At least we can still communicate well if you don't want to be with me. It's nothing, but it doesn't mean we're enemies.

"Yes if there is nothing, why ask here and there about me, boisterous. If something is really important, please ask any luck. " Answer Rangga.

Zara replied emot just crying. Because Zara explained it was useless Rangga would not understand. Hard people should not be hard-reply, just shut up and ask God.

"O Allah, be aware of this man. " Zara prayed to Allah.

"Originally you know. I'm the one who broke one growing 1000. I'm not a good person. " Rangga Clearly.

"liks. " Zara said one word.

Maybe you're proud of your player's nature. But you will forever be a player. Are you proud to hurt the women out there forever. Enough I'm the last woman whose heart you hurt. Enough I'm the last woman you never thought existed. No other woman feels the same way as me anymore. Rangga may you be a better person, Do'a Zara for you always.

"So from now on we each have, yes, you have privacy in life. I have privacy in life too. And not everyone likes if his privacy is disturbed. What do you know about me?" Ask Rangga.

"Look. " Answer Zara.

"On what basis? meet up? the medsos? an estimate? " Tanya Rangga's.

"Meet." Answer Zara.

"Do not feel know, what is seen, heard, not necessarily according to reality" replied Rangga.

"Seeing, observing, analyzing, istikharah. " Answer Zara.

Indeed, it took 8 months for Zara to observe how Rangga's nature really is. Now Zara understands how the character, good and bad nature of Rangga. Through the observations that Zara has made so far, you may not accept Rangga. Even I know that. The more I dig deeper into who you really are. That's where your anger will rise. And your true nature will present itself. No more manipulative attitude even your ego will die in the end.

"Don't you not know me for long. Friends who have been with me for years do not know what I really am like. Human nature, human heart. Do you know what the real thing is? " Tanya Rangga's.

"God, who always guides me, can go through various things, in the end all will open up by itself.all facts, lies, and all manipulations in this world, if God has willed to show. Surely God shows, how we live, whether we are sensitive to the instructions that God gives. All for the good of our lives. Especially about you I know. " Answer Zara.

"Oh yes. Each one for now. Time has to use harsh language for you to understand. No need, right? "

From the cry, Zara finally laughed. indeed from the first as well as each. You're so scared that I'm exposing your nature to everything. I don't use any harsh language I understand. If you want to use rough language, I'm ready to listen.

Think of it, like facing a tantrum child. Please express all your frustration to me, until you feel relieved. After that, then later you will feel sane, Rangga.

"Don't feel the most out of a person before you see it all. Don't feel most familiar about someone before everything happens. " Rangga Clearly.

It is true that Zara is also not a psychic, who knows the daily life of Rangga. But after 8 months of knowing Rangga, Zara understood what kind of nature Rangga, Because Zara's life experience was enough Zara, to understand human characters like Rangga.

"Don't block. "Zara's message to Rangga.

"Don't bother me anymore. " Answer Rangga.

"Originally happy, I won't bother you anymore. " Answer Zara.

"OKAY. " Answer Zara.

"You'll change your mind and become a better person, I'll be there. " Answer Zara.

"God willing. " Rangga replied.

"Don't block it, you're not gonna send a message. I-i promise. " Answer Zara.

"Whateverb. " Rangga replied briefly.

"Later if A Rangga already want a story, a story. If you can't do anything now. " Obviously Zara.

Because Zara feels, Rangga's condition is again unstable for now, after he came out of SR, many things must be done for sure, whether it's business.

"What story, nothing to tell. And please leave me alone and don't bother anymore" replied Zara.

Agata, Rangga...

"Yes, if there is no need to tell. Ready boss, Zara won't bother you. " Answer Zara.

"Ok, I'm blocking ya. "

Rangga finally blocked me, whats my app.

Yes it's okay, if you want to block aja.always Zara repeatedly block the number Rangga, Finally opened again, communication again, an immature act. Just a cell phone. Your mind can also be blocked. If you can block your mind, and all the memories that have occurred during these 8 months can be lost from your memory means you are great.