DIARY ZARA
31. Hijrah

It seems that Zara is increasingly convinced now to deepen the science of religion, examine more deeply about the meaning of what is contained in the Qur'an and implement it in Zara's daily personal life.

Zara was also eager to share with all of her friends how great God was to help her servant out of the slump. How great is the content in the verses of the Qur'an.

Zara brought verses of the Qur'an into Zara's novel not to mean Zara patronizing or advising all friends, not at all. Because Zara is not someone who is a religious expert, not an ustadzah, even Zara is not a santriwati who has been lodged in pesantren, is not it.

It is just that from this moment until the future God willing Zara will continue to try to improve themselves to read all the instructions contained in each holy verse of the Qur'an and listen to the enlightenment of the teachers Zara even online, it's okay.

How does Zara love Allah SWT Rasullullah SAW, and the Qur'an.

Ustadzah Oki setiana Dewi, Ustadz Hanan, Ustadz Handy bonny, Ustadz Syams, Habib Rifky, Ustadz Maulana, he is an online teacher of Zara and Psychologist Zara He is also the best healer for Zara on youtube.

When we Fall, what we need most is support, the motivation of someone who is able to give us the spirit to rise again, but now Zara realized that only God could help her servant out of the slump of a servant.

When Zara sought the figure of an Imam for Zara's life, which Zara desperately wanted Zara to meet Rangga, Zara considered Rangga as a role model for Zara. Zara became the Rangga of Zara's hijrah. But it turns out that the real Imam for our lives turns out to be Allah SWT, there is no God Other than Allah. God is all-powerful, all-knowing.

Now that Zara was aware that even though Zara was living alone, Zara had nothing to fear anymore, no need to grieve anymore. There is Allah, trust in Allah, surrender. The destiny that God gives us. There must be the best wisdom for our lives.

There are many healing methods that Zara has done. Good by listening to the murrotal of the holy verse of the Qur'an. Piano and gamelan instrument music, enlightenment from Psychologist and healer on youtube. Even until the tarot reading Zara tried. The most correct way is to multiply worship, read the Qur'an and pray. God willing with the permission of God, Zara also feels healed now, from various pains, traumas, disappointed in the past. Thank you for the many valuable experiences that Zara gained from this journey of life.

And now Zara also began sharing Zara's life experience in tik tok, thankfully many who like. Because it seems Zara doesn't like to just keep quiet. Zara wants to be a person who benefits many people. Zara believes that there are many people out there who experience the same things as Zara Alami.

"La Tahzan" Never grieve, for God is always with us. God loves those who are patient in facing the trials God has given.

Zara was very grateful, God rebuked Zara. That means God still loves Zara. God longs for Zara. God wants Zara back on the right path. God wants Zara to come closer to him.

The role of Rangga is very important for Zara. Because Rangga was sent by God to make Zara a better person, if Rangga finally left, it means that his task for Zara from God has been completed.

Zara opens the tiktok app. To upload the motivational video that Zara made. Zara wondered if Rangga had a Tiktok account.

Uh it turns out he has. And there are some videos that he uploaded recently.

It seems like Rangga is upset again.

"Oh Allah, it turns out to be true, Zara loves Rangga but her Rangga loves Roses very much. Yeah, ain't gonna connect. " Zara spoke inwardly with a smile, very funny.

"If I had known, I would have been between two people who had stood for a long time, I would have never loved you this deeply. of course I will never fight just to accept the certainty of being wasted. From the beginning if it can only bring rain. Why would it seem like it would promise the rainbow as hope. "

"If you are no longer able to do so, pamitlah. This is me with all my flaws. Forcing you to stay. I'm not that selfish to love someone. From someone who always loved you. "

"I've never been incriminating, in my life anyone can survive or leave. Anyone can be forever or temporarily. Go don't accompany me just for pity reasons. Don't accompany me just for fear of disappointing.it's okay. Although my love is still releasing someone who is not happy with me I have to. Step away you are free. May I be sincere."

"I once begged God for the most selfish do'a, where all I wish I had was just about having you. Until finally I realized, by letting you be happy with him is all-inclusive love. "

"The apology is now tightly shut, a deep mistake left deep in the trail of travel. Everything that happened couldn't come back, just an apology for the khilaf I did that I could say. "

"It's a series of Rangga's words in October."

"Any, a Workaholic like Rangga can update and melow like this, even though he should be busy working. Something must have happened. " Zara spoke inwardly.

"Is this a sign of the relationship between Rangga and Roses ended, If it is true. Means God showed his power again to me, just as God revealed the fact of Ditto's affair from the ticktok as well.

Is this the answer to my first prayer. Zara asked God very deeply.

"Oh Allah, Zara asked that someday A Rangga could feel the pain I feel now. The pain of heartache, the fall, let him understand how I feel now.

Zara remembered that very painful word from Rangga was.

"I'm just committed, who's with me he's the one I'm fighting for. Whether or not God decides. " Rangga's Words.

"You as sincere as I love a Rangga, if a Rangga can not open the heart ya can not."

You answer.

"God is the one who turns back the heart of man."

And you answer again

"Open your heart, what about the one in your heart? "

Jlebbbb. My heart was pierced, it was a bloodless wound, crying without tears. Because maybe my tears have run out all this time. I can't shed any more tears.

"yes. "

Allahu akbar, for what all this time his words to me sweet, for what invites me to keep my heart, keep honor, improve each other, strengthen myself. Insha Allah if you are a match later we meet in front of the ruler.

What do the words of Yuda at that time tea later prawedding in hill baros aja yes. A Rangga tea will be brought home he said, we enter only. Tea later we go together to the house of the teteh, yes A Rangga. Words that are mere nonsense.

"Hat A Rangga there is a Rose, while my heart has A Rangga. "

"Just play with her heart and you too if that's the system. The feeling is not something that tea can force. " said Rangga again

Applause for you a Rangga, congratulations you are great, why didn't you say those words from the beginning.before I got to know you too far. After I fought to the point of the last blood until I was tired of waiting, until my tears dried up could not drip anymore, you just said feeling is not something that can be forced.

I remembered with your words, you once felt the bitterness of being hated by someone. Yes I also realize now, indeed your attitude deserves to be hated.

"My feeling may be a wrong one. It's hard to get rid of, it takes time. "

"God who gives, ask Allah again to eliminate it. "the words of Rangga again

"It's easy anyway, if only you hadn't replied to my first chat, maybe it wouldn't have happened like this. "

"Sorry, so I'm wrong. "

"No, Zara's wrong. It has been so presumptuous to love you sincerely, I am wrong. "

I remembered your words when I confirmed my question at that time whether A Rangga would refuse or accept me.

You answered,

The point is because now you are still in the iddah period with smiling emoticons,

which I reply.

Oh so rejected her later on May 22, nangis nangending it.

you reply, you reply,

don't suudzon, I don't want to rush the end even bad, we just live it first. There's still time.

Funny, it's all just bullshit.

I found your words again A Rangga.

Not yet feel able to take full responsibility, fully as a husband, yet fully responsible as a wife, the other responsibilities we live together.

Did you say the same thing to the rose.

"It's funny you're A Rangga. "

"Who is funny. "

Allahu akbar, you are not aware as well. I'm talking to the wall.

"That's what you say to Rangga, if you already have a rose, why can you still say that to me. Single parent woman."

"A Rangga, I am lucky to learn so much from people like you, It turns out that in this world there is no man who deserves to be loved. "

"A Rangga thank you very much yes, Finally I know either Ditto or A Rangga Ga is able to be my life partner, no one deserves to be my life partner, no one deserves to be my life companion, maybe I'm too valuable for you to hurt. Funnier.

"Who hurt? "

Bodo very, you have a brain right A Rangga. Try to think, find your own answer. That's my job.

"Maybe God has answered my prayer now, it didn't take long. "

Is now Rangga and Rose break up, I don't know.

So pa Ustadz also always said for what courtship, no use. If to get to know someone does not need to date.

Remember, Al isra verse 32.