DIARY ZARA
14. Singlellillah

Alone, Zara felt very comfortable, after all the things Zara was able to go through, Zara was grateful and Zara did not expect to get to this point, as strong and as dangerous as this.

Zara was born in April which has the Taurus Zodiac symbolized by a bull. A strong bull.

"As a rock stands firm, in the midst of the raging sea, it remains strong in the face of various blows". That's a Zara Aprilia.

Zara is no longer afraid of the future, of all sustenance, of a soul mate, of the death of God. No need to be busy looking for a life partner. Busy self-improvement is much more beneficial. My next soul mate might be death. We are just ordinary people who do not know when God will call us back to him.

Before Zara left, Zara wanted to prepare everything. Zara is building a business for the future of my children and parents later, now my father also has sintered selling in the store. I'm not worried anymore. There's provisions for the future of my son Jarel later.

Everything I want in life I have got, even if it's not easy. Zara just wants everyone to remember Zara's kindness if Zara doesn't exist in the world.

Prepare yourself best because what will accompany us later at the end is just charity. All the pleasures of the world will be left behind.

Doing good to everyone, far makes Zara's heart happy, especially seeing my family happy is more than enough for Zara now.

Maybe God didn't allow Zara to die silly, to commit suicide. For God had reason for Zara to live, to give Zara the opportunity to repent, to give Zara the opportunity to improve, to give Zara the opportunity to emigrate.

"That is the blessing of your Lord which you deny" 31 times repeated in the Qur'an of Ar-Rahman.

There is no more thing that Zara wants in this world, after all the help that God has given Zara so far.

Zara just wants to be a person who benefits everyone, nothing more. I am so grateful to have had the opportunity to breathe until this moment.

"Surely those who believe, and those who migrate and wage jihad in the way of Allah, it is they who hope for the Mercy of Allah. Allah is forgiving, merciful - Al-Baqarah verse 218."

After school brought Jarel to my mother's house, because I hadn't been to my mother's house in a long time.

"Zara when will you marry again. " Ask mom.

This is the question that makes me lazy to meet my mother.

"Ga tau has not been met with his soul mate with Allah ma'am. " Answer Zara.

"How's gang? Any word ?" Ask Mom.

"Ga exists. " Answer Zara.

"Ditto sent money to Jajan Jarel? these are payday dates. " Ask mom.

"Nothing. " Answer Zara.

Ngapain still hopes transfer from Ditto, Zara is also still able to finance Jarel's own life. If indeed the responsible man must be able to charge his son. It's not at all. There is no such thing as an ex-child, if there is an ex-wife.

After the study, my mother was with her friend. Mom saw her friend was picked up by her boyfriend back from the study. Aduhh indeed if again dating do not know the age of guyss. mothers can only join hands, he. he. he..

"Oh that's it, ma'am. Why is it so difficult to get married, is it confusing which one to choose?" Ask Zara.

"It hasn't moved on she said of her deceased ex-husband. But mendinglah than you, a boyfriend does not have, a prospective husband especially " replied the mother.

"Huh. huh. " Zara laughed feeling silly

Have not moved on from a deceased ex-husband but the boyfriend already has 6. Very good this mother. Zara is not interested in dating for what is just a waste of time and instead raises a lot of slander later for a widow like Zara now. Nauzubillahs.. Keep away, O God.

"Mom participated in the study, right, continue to be a mother friend also participated in the study. Didn't Mr Ustadz tell Al-Isra's mother verse 32?" Ask Zara.

"No, the other thing. " Answer mother.

"Yes, no more appeals Zara with her mother's friend, Zara has her own way. Zara did not want to sin. If it was time for Zara to remarry, Zara would also marry again. What matters is that mom's kitchen is now safe. That'sthat's all. " Zara was clear to mom.

"Where would you marry Ditto first? " ask mom.

"Yes nothing. It's not Zara's business. " Answer Zara.

"Udah ah Zara wants to go home. " Males long in the mother's house, because the edges must be arguing. ruining the mood of Zara aja.

When to marry, when to marry, when to marry again? That's what I always ask you repeatedly. Zara's age is still 28. There are still Zara's friends who haven't married once. This is also a one-time storm.

How God intended Zara to marry only once in a lifetime. We humans never know what God's destiny is like. Live your best as long as you can breathe, eat, sleep well, pray, teach everything is safe.

Because remarrying requires knowledge, Zara does not want to fail a second time. Getting married is not just about me Love you, you Love me. Yuk wedding. It's not that easy.

Zara also just found out from Rangga Kalo was married that not only unites the heart, but also unites the soul, ego, personal thoughts are different for the same purpose. That's marriage.

It takes a process, not as easy as winking one eye.

Ditto and Zara separated probably because they were not in love and indeed from the beginning was not based on pure Love. But marriage based on Love alone is also not enough, because the needs of life can not be paid using Love. Pour small just pay with money instead of using Love. So between Love and matter it must be balanced.

We are also almsgiving with treasure, not with Love, just realistic in life.

Ummar bin khattab once said.

"Is life just about love? Where is the shame of Allah?

Marry one of your daughters to a man who fears Allah. Because if he loves her, then that man will definitely glorify your daughter, If that man does not love your daughter, then he will never hurt her."