DIARY ZARA
16. A letter to Rangga

Zara felt this feeling was very disturbing to me. Should I send A Rangga's message to tell him how I feel.

"Don't, Rangga will be angry again with me, later Rangga blocks my Whats app. Zara still wants to be friends with Rangga. If there's still a chance." Zara said to herself in her heart.

"Write a letter, just like write a letter. Like that time. His letter was not immediately thrown away the same as Rangga first as well. Means I have to go to SR dong to give the letter to Rangga. " Task Zara in your heart.

"Don't, why else you go to SR Zara. Did I send it to the letter?" Ask Zara again.

"Don't be embarrassed, later Rangga also embarrassed by the om. " Answer Zara

"Just write, photoin send Whats app later. I hope Rangga reads." Zara decided to write a second letter to Rangga.

For A Rangga.

Assalamu'alaikum's chat.

A Rangga how are you? I hope you're all right there. And it's always okay.

A Rangga I want to tell you, Alhamdulilah now my efforts have been running little by little improving. Although the results are not yet optimal.

Alhamdulillah.

A Rangga, Thanks for that time you advised me to choose one, Between the store and the car. I finally chose the shop.

Not having a car is no problem for me now. Jarel can still stay in school. Even sometimes back and forth from school there is always someone who is making it together. mamah-mamah temen Jarel tuh really good.

I'm also used to walking everywhere, until sometimes my calves hurt because of too long walking. Riding the angkot also turns out there is no problem that is so meaningful yes.

Shopping Alhamdulilah si om still ready nganter. Although sometimes the om late nganter, sometimes the om said sick. Yes want how else yes, must be patient. sometimes like greget too. The most frequently out of stock is cigarettes. Very quick turnaround. I also can't stock a lot because the money is divided.

I always pray that the om also to always be healthy, so that still can help Zara nganter goods to the store. Sometimes in the anter mang Dedi also here.

A Rangga when did you get the goods here?It's magical if you come. It's not really possible. Because you must have said. Not my part. Aye right? he. he's..

Oh yes A Rangga, Maybe my story is not very important. But nothing because I want to know. Want a lot of stories, maybe even not enough if written all.

A Rangga, what is your relationship with the Rose now? Does it still go on? If you are married, don't forget to invite me. Said pa ustadz don't date, sin. Mending to pause if indeed A Rangga's heart is for Roses. he. he..

Zara really wants to meet you a Rangga. But for what? Zara was afraid, afraid that the feeling would reappear.

Zara is setting her heart now, learning to slowly no longer love you A Rangga. So that I can meet you again, without any awkwardness. Just so usual, Zara wants it like before everything I said to you Rangga. Let's just say you've never heard all about how I feel about you, let me pretend to forget, Zara's sure everything's gonna be okay.

But after these 3 months, up to this second. I can never forget you, even my feelings are still the same as before. It's okay it's my problem, Zara just needs time to get used to it all.

Every night I pray to Allah that I do not love A Rangga directly and continuously, but all for free. The day is getting stronger. I was sick because I was alone. Am I wrong? Why did God give me such a test?

I also tried to keep myself occupied with whatever it was. I learned the Qur'an so that I could improve myself. I made a vlog on youtube, I sang on Joox. But my thoughts always come back to you again and again A Rangga. Is that wrong?

Hopefully as time goes by I can get used to it and I can forget you a Rangga. Tell me too if you have a quick way for me, so I can forget you. At least that feeling disappeared from my heart.

A Rangga, what is the Eccedentesiast on your whats app? I'm curious, sorry if I'm kepo.

If A Rangga can and pleases the story, the story. But if you don't want anything, too.

What is a Rangga's favorite novel? Or a Rangga want to make a novel too? or a Rangga an Eccedentesiast? there's always that question in my mind.

Because I myself have also experienced, thank you now little by little I learn to heal, learn to be open with others, and learn to love myself before being able to love others.

A Rangga, I always pray, may you always be happy, may you be well there. And don't forget to pray for me too, Pray Zara will soon meet my soul mate huh. A man who has the same character as you, or even better than you..

I also asked Om for help, if there is a prospective husband, please meet with Zara. But the Om has not been caught until now. Hopefully soon A Rangga.

Let us both find our perfect happiness.

Honestly, you also know, if the man I always hoped to be my priest was you. But I can't force it either.

If you can't, what should I do. I hope there's the best for me. Aminn..

I have one request, if later I marry someone else, I hope you can be a witness to my marriage contract, A Rangga. Because you are someone so precious to me. I want you to see me happy, and I'll see you happy too, even though we can't be together if God's destiny doesn't allow it and there's no way we can be together.

Because after everything passed, I realized that a Rangga was very, very extraordinary. It taught me in pain but led me to become a more mature person.

Thank you very much for everything.

Believe me I can never hate you A Rangga, you can be angry with me, you can hate me, you can leave me. Run as far as you can. Go wherever you want, and choose someone who truly loves you.

A Rangga my best friend, my imam, my best teacher. Thank you very much for everything, and I apologize for all the mistakes I've done to you.

May you always be happy, and find your true love.

You are great, amazing, successful.

The spirit!!!