DIARY ZARA
17. Eccedentesiast

Eccedentesiast is a term in psychology intended for people who like to hide their sadness behind a smile. So, someone who does it always tries to look happy even though he is facing problems in his life.

Launching from several pages, the following characteristics about someone who has eccedentesiast nature, such as:

Always looking cheerful, an eccedentesiast always covers his sadness with cheerfulness. In the presence of others they look happy, but in fact they are having problems. As much as possible they cover up the reality of his life

Feeling okay, they do not want to involve others with the problems they are facing. Because they think they can solve the problem without the help of others

Self-sufficient, they get used to facing their own problems. Because it is smart to get a solution from his life experience

Do what they like, do what they like to do to eliminate the problems at hand. They do not run away from the problem, but just want to solve the problem while enjoying life

The positive side that you can take from the person of an eccedentesiast, is:

Have a high sympathetic feeling. Although sad, someone with a personal eccedentesiast does not want to see his friend sad. It will soon comfort a grieving friend

Choose strong and strong with all the trials

Self-sufficient in problem solving

Not wanting to trouble others. Independence that deserves thumbs up, so not many people involved

Avoiding negative talk. Because, almost no one knows the problems he faces

Whether Rangga is an Eccedentesiast or kah Zara himself is also an eccedentesiast. I don't know if I need a psychologist to explain it all.

What is certain is that Zara has just known the figure of Rangga who is so very different from the people in general. A very closed personality makes me want to know a lot about him.

But Rangga must be angry if Zara knows to do this. His privacy is very guarded, never actively using social media, even Whats app privacy once, only once Zara saw Rangga put up a photo that looks his face. It was also because of the moment of Eid al-Fitr and only a few minutes.

The back, always the back that looks used Rangga's profile photo on social media. Contrary to the habit of me who likes to post my photos on social media.

From the beginning Zara knew Rangga. It was so hard to get information about Rangga. But the clues about Rangga always I can through a dream. Maybe that's wrong too.

To the extent that Rangga was angry, because I was too trying to get to know him more deeply.

Until I saw a profile photo post Rangga using harsh words because maybe so angry.

"However can apal aing sautuhna, do sokasa know aing pang lila na, komo nyarita fried about aing baheula, bari can apal aing sabenerna kumaha."

Shortly after Rangga sent me a telegram message at that time, Rangga put up those words.

"A Rangga forgive me, if my behavior makes you very angry, I just wonder about you, what you really are. What you have been feeling all this time. What you have been experiencing in your life. I want to hear your story. Sorry Zara if Zara is too presumptuous about it. All because Zara wants to know more about you. Good is your bad, your happiness, your pain, your sadness. I hope you can tell a story. Rather than just holding on to myself."

Feeling me you're not always okay. But I'm sorry if I was wrong.

When I opened Instagram, I saw Keisha's sister's story posting the book Eccedentesiast.

After school Zara stopped by my sister's house.

" Sister, kekey's home from school yet? Ask Zara.

"not yet shall the afternoon return" replied Sister Maria.

"Novel that yesterday I was looking for was called Eccedentesiast, right? " Task Zara.

"Ga tau ya, do not understand brother, anyway the latest he said in Gramedia at that time, make keisha literalization task at school. " Answer to Mary.

"Yes that." Answer to Maria.

"I want to pinch ya later, curious story. You see, I used those words in his whats app. " The answer is Zara sulking at Mary's sister.

"Bebebeb.. bebeb.. bebeb Rangga is not it? " Task Maria.

"He. he's... Yes, who else. " Answer Zara.

"Hussh don't date the willpower of mother can be sprayed later you. " Answer to Mary.

"Don't brother, just brother and father who know. Ok.. " Answer Zara.

"Yes, later on in return to Dad right home, now his novel is brought to school because of his literary schedule today. " Answer to Mary.

"OKs. " Zara smiled.

"Yes, I can finally read this novel. Indeed, Allah always gives me a way and a way to get guidance about Rangga. A clue that had never been expected before.

The next day I started reading this Eccedentesiast novel. It took me 2 days to finish reading everything.

I cried after reading this Eccedentesiast novel.

"You why? "Ask Dad to Zara who is crying with her hands still holding Canva Narendra's novel.

"Ladders.. Stirrup.." Zara kept crying.

"Idihi.ybut hey.. Rangga is not here. " Abspond Dad while laughing.

"Zara was afraid Rangga died rich Canva's father. " Absp Zara while crying.

"Well.. Victim novels. I know cengeng, baperan, still reading novels." Answer father.

"Zara was curious to know. Is Rangga also seriously ill well, to the point that Rangga away from me, by saying Rangga loves Rawar, whereas previously Rangga never said Rangga had Rangga. But suddenly Rangga changed from May it was well. " Answer Zara.

"Ask the same you directly rather than keep guessing and not obviously rich that." Said Father.

"Kalo can be asked Zara asked, Rangga is rich in rocks, either iceberg, Hard well. " Answer Zara.

"Hadeuuh. if Rangga is here already tabok father deh his face.in love poison are you the same Rangga, Sampe segitnya." Ask Dad laughing but upset.

"Pad's Love poison. " Answer Zara.

"Heaven. amit-amit...Conscious Zara is aware.. " Father replied patting my eel to make me realize.

"Aily, I'm here to complete you. Once you're complete, I'll leave. But this soul, it's still there forever for you. You will always step together in each of your processes. What's missing may be my body. But I assure you that this Love will be eternal in every second of your life or even death.

Aily, order me only three, always lift your crown, always uphold your pride. And always involve God at every step of the way. I'm sure whatever his destiny will be, you'll be able to reach the end of life well.

Canva Narendra's.

"Strong... Rangga. why after I can rise from my slump. You go, you no longer talk to me. Were you deliberately sent by God to just accompany me when I fell. I want when I'm happy you're by my side. I want it when I have regained my success. You exist." Tangis Zara's.

Rangga is like the most beautiful dream for Zara's life. Although it is only close for a while, but his memories will always be there. Eternal in Zara's heart. And his influence was tremendous for Zara's personal life.