DIARY ZARA
38. Bereft

Alhamdulilah Jarel birthday already, Glad though celebrated in simplicity.

"Dad wants your birthday Jarel" asked Jarel.

"No way. " Answer Jarel.

Mother today went to my house, after the mother-mother event was over, she didn't come home.

"Here is mom, who has been lost why is it still being asked?" Answer Zara.

"There's no nanyain at all. " Ask mom.

"You know what, no Ditto is blocked by Zara. " Answer Zara.

"Test." There's an incoming message from the male Izzan that Zara knows from the taaruf.co.id app

Zara just read the message because Zara is not interested Duda son one, Zara ga want.

Why are old people on the back again, yesterday Kevin now Izzan. I don't know Zara doesn't know.

Zara fill the balance to the usual minimarket Zara fill the balance.

"A fill balance. " Zara gives money and Zara mobile phone to this minimarket cashier, Rame really.

"Pa Adit is finished, yes I am Stock Opname. " There are many employees of this minimarket. Which is cleaning up stuff. Because the newly completed renovation is still a mess of stuff as well.

"Yes. " Adit a short answer.

Oh it turns out that aa suvervisor minimarket that adult is called Adit. He was busy holding a bon stock as it seemed.

When night fell, at 22:00 the feeling of Zara melow again appeared. Every night Zara's mind must be on Rangga.

Unlike during the day, Zara is busy with Zara activities. Zara can be strong, cheerful, laughing. But when night comes when all the quiet that Zara has in mind is just the name of Rangga.

"A Rangga, where are you? How are you doing now, are you okay? Zara kept asking in her heart.

"A Rangga, still working in SR ga? " Zara ventured to send Rangga a message, but there was no reply from Rangga.

"A Rangga really why are you? " Zara is worried.

The next night Zara sent a message.

"A Rangga, still working in SR?"

Still no answer.

Oh my God, what exactly is A Rangga?

Curiosity as well as worry increasingly enveloped Zara's mind.

"A Rangga, why can't you answer. What work is it? Yesterday Zara went to the store a few times, but Zara didn't see A Rangga there. Busy in the barn, what is it? Want to go to the kids not good. " Task Zara again.

"Nothing is." Rangga replied briefly.

Zara's hands started shaking with her phone. And the tears in Zara's eyes started to come out.

"out. " Task Zara.

"Yes. " Answer Rangga.

"Why? been long? where are you now?" ask Zara.

And actually there are still a lot of questions in Zara's head that Zara wants to ask. But Zara could no longer hold back these tears that poured out. Out without being blocked again.

"Oh my God, why are you like this. Why are you even getting away from me Rangga." Zara spoke inwardly.

"Jawab one, now where do you work? " Zara tried to type the message even though Zara's hand was shaking violently, and Zara's crying grew.

"Where is my heart happy." Reply Rangga.

"Oh Allah, why did Rangga answer like that. Why did he leave SR after all the hard work he had given SR. Is there a big problem that caused A Rangga to leave." Zara asked in her heart.

"Seriously nanya? when out? " Task Zara.

"Udah ya don't get too much nanya. replied one, the end of it again right. " Rangga Clearly.

"Keep not being able to meet again means. " Answer Zara.

"Oh Allah, if Zara had known that time after parenting from Jarel school. When Zara shopping to SR only cigarettes, it was Zara's last meeting with Rangga. Zara will definitely say directly if actually all this time Zara really misses Rangga. Zara loves Rangga so much, More than anything Zara doesn't want you to disappear from my life forever. But at that time Zara could only speak in her heart."

"A Rangga you are Cape yes, visible from your face. " That too Zara only spoke inwardly.

Zara called Rangga many times, but Rangga did not want to answer.

Zara doesn't know what else to do. All Zara wanted was to be able to talk directly to Rangga right now.

"One more call, I blocked ya. " Rangga replied with a smile emot.

"Please. A Rangga, don't give me a smile at a time like this. I'm so afraid I can't see you again forever. " Zara speaks for herself.

Oh God why is it so hard for me, why is it so painful to love this man. Do you not allow me to be with Rangga. Do you not allow Zara to be happy with Rangga. For a moment, God, please, just for a moment.

"Don't get blocked, September 22 is still working right? That means it's been out recently. If A Rangga has come out of SR now. It could be that the dream of my istikharah prayer is true. " Obviously Zara.

- flash back

Zara let's go home, is it done? " it was clear A Rangga's voice but his face was not clearly visible.

"Udah. " Answer Zara.

Zara walks home with Rangga. Besides the SR Wholesale there is a 2-story building that stole Zara's attention.

Two-story old shophouse building, without glass, without doors, walls full of green moss, very dark inside, really this building is unkempt or even untouched.

Just write the name on the building a large neon box that reads "SOURCE REZEKI 2" against the background of mustard yellow, black writing, and, on the left side is the SR logo with the letters related to S and R in a white striped box.

"A Rangga what building is it? Zara just saw." asked Zara who was walking behind A Rangga.

"Oh, that's the building we're going to fill, we fill up together later because I want to get out of this place. This is my brother's place, I want to move to that place with you." Reply Rangga.

"Oh yes." Zara replied, while continuing to pay attention to the building.

Are you sure Rangga will fill the building, it seems that it takes a long renovation process to be able to be reused the building. " Zara spoke inwardly.

"A Rangga, move to my place just yuk, develop my business together. Wanna naw? we start from zero.

Because Rangga once said.

Rangga has principles, starting from zero together.

Zara wants to fight with you, don't be afraid we can face all the difficulties together. Zara was sure of that.

No matter what your circumstances, story. Than being held alone. Because it was when Zara fell. You accompany me until I can get back up. Don't disappear like this. Zara won't demand anything from you, let alone get married. Not at all, because now is not the time.

There must be something going on, there is no way you take off SR just like that. After all your hard work all this time for SR.

The most important thing now is how you are A Rangga, are you okay. Please don't go, don't disappear from me, please.